loser boy summer

me and the boys spending five digital nights in the amazing freddy's circus

new artfight rule: yuo cant actualy look at peoples ref sheets of their characters to draw them because thats basicaly illegal and tracing.

shirt that says I HATE WHEN CHARACTERS WITH UNUSUAL BEHAVIOURS AND MANNERISMS DUE TO NEUROLOGICAL DIFFERENCES GET "CURED" AND BECOME "NORMAL" on the front and "bye" on the back

being anti-amatonormativity in a romance centered world is like watching half the people you know put all their eggs in one basket and then drop the basket and all their eggs break and they’re crying and swearing they’re never gonna do that again and then a month later they have all new eggs in a new basket and they tell you the problem was they didn’t have a strong enough basket or fresh enough eggs and then they drop the fucking basket again.

This is what it’s all about. Saturday night. At home. Switching between the same 4 apps on my phone. Getting scared.

MY FINGERS BARELY EVEN TOUCHED YOUR STUPID FUCKING AD STOP REDIRECTING ME TO THE APP STORE

LET ME SCROLL I DON’T WANT TO MOVE THINGS IN YOUR STUPID GAME

like somerimes it is a matter of was it my faulr and then i kind of spiral about ir but the fact is that i can never ahve sex ever again and im going to be scsred and uncomfortable in sexual situations and im just like forever fucked. because im dumb and i wish icould be okay with sex but it jusr eeally hits so hardand i panix and freak our ajd i do everything to not even try to do shit like thar bc i end up feelinf guilty after. and its hard to explain to people that im asexual/sex repulsed bc theyre always alwayayysss like omf ok but like youre foinf to have sex eventuaoly. we're going to do some exposure therapy and even if you say no a rhousand times again we're goijg to get sexual ok. Like why does my opinion even matter if youre going to try so so so so so hard to disregard my boundaries and xompletely ignore my trauma you are such a fucking asshole and i hate you i hate you so so much i cannot believe how arrogant you have to be to even think like that

like fun fucking fact if youre going to actively try to coerce me into getting sexual even id youre not directly asking you are such a piece of shit and i actually fuckinf hate you. you're literally doing the same exact shit to me that already happened ans its why im so traumatized. i cannot BELIEVEEEE how swlf centered you have to be flr that

somwtimes the trauma does hit ,and hard

sometimes im like wow okay yay im free ic an think about this ajd be okay ane other times i read something about it and go Oh nooooohahahha hhfhhj ooh no i dont like tjat