🌺🌸Green King🌸🌺

Because of the age gap between them, right? Well, I have to complain about it, because it really pisses me off that they're discarding the beautiful, slow-burning love story that exists between Stiles and Derek in CANON. Because damn it, they liked each other.

It bothers me that they tarnish Sterek's image for things like being a "pedo" ship when NO, they're not. They're trying to lump us all into a "sick shipper" category.

If we're being honest, Sterek has probably been the story with the most backstory, where we've seen how each season has seen the closeness between Stiles and Derek grow, where they've gone from 'hating each other and having to deal with each other because of Scott' to genuinely caring for each other to the point where Derek would take a bullet for Stiles or Stiles would go against the entire FBI to protect and get Derek out of whatever mess he was in.

They care deeply and genuinely for each other, so much so that Derek preserved and fixed Stiles' Jeep, keeping it in his garage as a sort of memento or anchor for him.

It bothers me so much that they talk shit about Sterek when this couple exists:

sorry but parrish/lydia was a canon pairing between a teenager and an ADULT and if that wasn't enough, an adult from the sheriff's department.

Why aren't people talking about this more? Why are they attacking Sterek instead? Sterek: a couple that wasn't canon during the show's run, and we only got confirmation of feelings for each other through the actors and through obvious hints in the show. But directly, it was never a canon couple between a teenager and an adult guy. They were together.

I put the adult that way because Derek's age was never confirmed as such. At the beginning of the series, Stiles says Derek is only a couple of years older than him and Scott. So at the beginning of the series, Derek was between 18 and 19 years old. But later on, they address the fire, so they change the age again, but they never say exactly how old he is, so canonically Derek could be 2 to 5 years older than Stiles. You choose what age gap to give them.

While Lydia, about 17, and Jordan Parish, over 20, are a CANON couple.

Anyway, hypocrisy and homophobia, right?

But there is a VERY important theme between the Derek/Stiles relationship, which if you ask me made the possibility of a relationship between the two of them impossible while Stiles was still a high school student and perhaps only when Stiles was older could something exist between them.

The existence of this damn bitch and what she did to Derek.

I hate her as much as you do, and it disgusts me to have to watch Teenage Derek with her.

But it's important to what I wanted to say; it's why I think Derek repressed his feelings for Stiles.

According to the Teen Wolf book, Kate was Derek's substitute swim teacher, who used certain hormones and scents to attract the teenage Derek to her. YES, that was not only a relationship rife with manipulation, power imbalances, and pedophilia, but she also ended up orchestrating the murder of Derek's family at a moment of vulnerability for Derek because Paige's death hadn't happened long before.

We all know Derek blames himself for the death of his family, and he hates Kate. He knows what she did to him. He knows he was manipulated by an older woman and that he fell for her.

Derek has serious trust and self-confidence issues.

He doesn't believe he's worthy of love or peace.

His anchor until Season 2 was anger because his life was infested with anger/hate/rage.

So he sees himself as something bad, something that hurts, someone who destroys what he loves. He's a victim of sexual abuse, even though he doesn't admit it.

But Stiles became that little glimmer of light annoying, but a light in his dark life filled with negative things. Stiles earned his trust. Stiles fought every step of the way and broke down that wall Derek built around himself to keep people away from him, because trust means giving someone the power to hurt you. Oh well, Derek's mind worked that way. Unbeknownst to him, Stiles earned that trust.

And that's where we have this scene.

This is where Derek lets us see how important Stiles has become to him, Stiles became his anchor.

At this point, it's undeniable that Derek already has feelings for Stiles. He trusts Stiles blindly. But then, why didn't Derek do anything to have Stiles? Because Derek is a victim of sexual abuse by a woman who took advantage of him in high school. And Derek never dealt with that trauma, or we were never shown to have it that way.

Derek dates women, of course—Jennifer (who also manipulated him), Braeden, etc.—whose relationships didn't end well or were never serious.

But not with Stiles, because Stiles is like that extremely important thing where he can't ruin that connection they have, he can't taint or sully this relationship he has with Stiles. It's too important to Derek. Plus, the untreated traumas surrounding his abuser are a clear impediment to starting something real, something serious. And everything seems to indicate that Stiles is THAT person his unconscious heart has chosen.

That is, to start any romantic relationship with Stiles, Derek has to face all of his demons, all of his traumas first, in order to give Stiles what he believes Stiles deserves.

Kate ruined Derek's heart and mind a lot, plus Derek already had a wounded and bleeding heart since Paige.

So, a relationship as such didn't exist in the series between S/D, and it was quite unlikely that it would, but the feelings were always there.

That's why I don't understand why they keep attacking a couple who has SO MUCH backstory, and who if they ever dated, it was definitely when they were already adults and able to deal with their own issues.

They're not a couple, they're best friends, they're honorary siblings, they archenemies, they're lovers, they are entirely different people because of each other. Their souls are intertwined in a way that is so much more special than just a "OTP".

The comedy in the show came from the family’s “odd” lifestyle, rather than from infighting and petty bickering, or worse, as was common on other shows of the time, thinly veiled references to spousal abuse. They didn’t make fun of each other or act like their children were creatures from another world. Were they strange and outside of social norms? Yes. Were they united in creating a loving home and being good, supportive parents? Absolutely.

These two support and adore their children, care for an aging mother and an estranged brother, put family before everything, and they love each other, wholly, fiercely, without reserve. They are every bit as much in love after at least a decade of marriage as they were the day they met.

It’s nobody’s surprise that many of the aesthetic and thematic elements of The Addams Family in its various incarnations are influenced by Gothic tradition (not goth, that mostly came later. And not Goth, that was much much much too early), and I think Gomez’s words are a dead bullseye in terms of Gothic mentality.

“Make her feel like she’s the most sublime creature on earth”

The sublime is a recurring theme throughout Gothic literature. Although the word (like “awesome”) has lost a lot of it’s original luster over the intervening decades, sublime doesn’t really mean elevated and lofty (or even heavenly) as it’s often used today, but rather something possessing the power and grandeur to induce awe and veneration in the mind of the beholder. Although less than divine, something sublime possessed a wildness and power that transcended human ability to control…or even to comprehend.

Sublime is standing at the edge of the Grand Canyon leaning as far as you dare over the railing and still not being able to see the canyon floor below. Sublime is warrior-queen Galadriel being tempted by the One Ring. Sublime is waking up in the middle of the night in the heart of a wild thunderstorm.

“Make her feel like she’s the most sublime creature on earth”

Gomez isn’t advising Fester to treat a woman he fancies like a princess, or even elevate her to pedestal of angelic nature (who’s idea was it to equate femininity with purity anyway? What a laughable and historically damaging idea. Shame on whatever dead (probably) white dudes promoted that!)

Gomez is advising Fester that if he truly loves a woman he must do everything he can to remind her of how she’s an untameable force of nature who’s grandeur brings him to his knees in awe and terror. Just like Morticia, for Gomez.

I’ll sign off with one of my most favorite quotes of all time, because it feels suddenly very relevant:

“When I find myself surrounded by so much beauty, I feel as if I am the eye of a hurricane.”

Here's the basic premise:

Realizing the nice shizun isn't here Bingge goes back in time to get "proper" revenge. Only to realize, nothing is as it seemed the first time. SJ originally had tried to teach him to cultivate.

Ning Yingying isn't as innocent as she appears. The people he originally trusted are hiding something. And the HHPM is a lot creepier than he remembers. Confronted with truths he's been originally unaware of he uses Xin Mo's last reminent of power to turn back time except it doesn't work.

This time, there are no do-overs. He's stuck in this time-line forever. XM broken, Lou Bingge forced to confront his own mind after realizing his memories don't match up with the actual events in honest clarity.

■□¤○He can't escape○¤□■

Without XM whispering dark words into his head he has no excuse - no reason to deny what's right in front of him. The sheer weight of it causes his originally all powerful heavenly demon blood to corrode his insides. Stripping any residue of his human cultivation to filth.

He's felt something similar but not on this level. Heart demons, the bouts of insanity he's been having are heart demons. He remembers a rouge cultivator describing this once before he stripped her bare. The heavy imbalance of qi made it hard to recognize her voice until she finally stopped screaming.

It started getting worse the longer he held the sword, but XM was his easiest access to power and despite his refusal to admit it he enjoyed it too much to destroy it himself it did make travel difficult. He couldn't keep his head out of the fog waking up bloody, disheveled, and covered in the scent of sex.

It happened so often he eventually stopped getting surprised when a new faceless - uninteresting woman was crushed beneath his body in a tangle of limbs. Women begin to blur with each other when they all end up in the same place. Wet, sobbing profusely, and screaming their head off by the middle.

It was a surprise when some actually demanded he married them, but that went away when he heard talks of honor and responsibilities. It became worse when he took the title of demon lord. Families rich, poor, cultivator and otherwise practical threw their daughters at him.

Something about appeasing a petty lord?

It didn't matter when there were only a few and it didn't matter when there were so many other "wives" or even when they got killed ran away or take their own lives for his attention. He could find more, there are always more.

What broke him out his foggy stuppor was Shen jiu, his former tormentor and shizun wailing profusely at the sight of his shattered spiritual sword. The man didn't cry when he was whipping, beaten, stabbed, touched, tortured, torn limb from limb, but a sword. A sword he apparently held with such regard he swallowed the broken bits to take his own life.

It didn't even feel satisfying, just sad. This sad broken man was SJ, the peak lord capable of shredding warriors demon and human alike? What happened to the inherent power, the eyes that could freeze someone solid?

This isn't fun. It's even worse now when he waited months only for this sad thing to turn into a weaping spirit and not a vengeful one like he hoped. It was down right insulting when NYY snuck in to talk to him in between his "official" visits like he was stupid. Does she think I'm blind?

He expected her to laugh at SJ's plight, maybe declare his punishment worthy of him. Not crying, most definitely not apologizing for not telling the truth. SJ didn't appear to hate her or any of the women in the palace outside of the Hua Huan palace princess, but she was the only one who still took pleasure in torturing him.

It all came to ahead when NYY along with the other wives and their eldest children - (why aren't these brats dead yet?) poisoned him, and ambushed him in the middle of a court meeting he already mentally checked out of 10 minutes in. He was run through with at least 24 different weapons. His demon blood unable to close his wounds and defend himself from the final blow made by none other than Ning Ying herself.

XM was all he had left now, channeling the dreggs of his dwindling cultivation burned from the inside out. He only managed to buy himself half a second before it glowed with power. He had trouble bracing himself when even Mobei Jun tried to take a slice at him. Why was he still mad?

(BTW there is no shen yuan in this au. I kind of felt that keeping him would invalidate any actual effort people had to make to order to see shen jiu as a person.)

It doesn't matter he has to get away from here and quickly. Dammit! It's going to be difficult to escape, much less dodge Mobei and Ning Ying. Escaping everyone else was easy.

The blood loss was expected. The difficult part was trying to escape Mobei while keeping an eye on NYY's quick movements and vice versa.

Trying to stay conscious enough to get out of danger had left him half way delirious. When his own body failed him, he panicked. His clothes became heavier with the extra weight of blood drenched clothes and weapons poking out of his body.

Right as he stood there stiff, and profusely bleeding out. Power pulsed from the blade, sparks of power spilling from cracks in the center of the sword.

In one sudden moment, the power implodes on itself. Swallowing himself, his (now) former wives, children and Mobei Jun alike.

In a daze Bingge opened his eyes to a clear sky. The sound of bamboo leaves rustling in the wind. The serene chirping of small birds. And distant sounds of children.

He's back at the Qing Jing Sect.....

Wait, how is the sect still here? He remembers seeing it all burning down. Though, he was the reason for such an occurrence. It doesn't explain why the - the sword XM.

The sword brought him back to what appears to be...... his disciple days. He's back at a time he was still that man's disciple. That probably explains his lack of headaches.