Thoughts from a Lonely Lover

The Forest & The Moon  by C.R Greenway

It calls to me, faintly, only but a whisper. 

Only when the moon is at it’s fullest, when its at its biggest and brightest moment does it appear before me. 

It beckons me, like a sirens song to a sailor, a moth drawn to a flame, angels to heaven, for that is how it makes me feel, heaven on earth, or maybe it’s not of this earth. 

Maybe thats why it beckons me to it. 

An urge I simply can’t control.

The scent of pine, and damp soil feel my nose to the brim, I lay on my back on this forest floor, just till it makes me feel whole again. 

I look to the sky, a shimmering star filled, moon bright sky. 

You can barely see, for all the branches and trees that just seem to go on forever, they reach out to you, but I can still see her there in the moon, calling out to me to stay, to leave everything behind. 

It’s getting harder to resist her charm and beauty. 

The embrace of the forest is no help, I can feel the safety in his arms, as he holds me closer to him, pulling me further into his soil. 

It only makes me want to stay, to place my roots into his soul, for here I have everything I long for, the moon, the forest, and love without chains, and most importantly love without pain. 

They don’t tell me hurtful things like what a failure i am, or how unwanted i am, they simply reassure me. 

They don’t kick me when im already down they hold me till im safe and warm once more.

Oh how i wish i could stay, but just as quickly as they appear, they leave me behind, just like everyone else, to survive in this dark moonless forest once more, scared and alone, oh how wish this place was more than a dream.

By C.R Greenway 06-03-2026

It creeps in like fog, a mist you don’t see, you certainly don’t feel it.

Its just there like a ghost;

I couldn’t shake it from my bones, believe me I tried, if not for myself, but for the sake of my children, but it consumed every part of me.

I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t move, I was a shell, a void, a dark desalt hole.

A ghost among the living.

Prey among the hunters.

They made damn sure I knew it.

The demons which I fought against for so long, they knew I was getting weaker, smaller, quieter.

It’s exactly what they wanted, they knew we were one and that I would never leave them, because I had become the one thing I feared.

I was them and they were me, forever I would be locked in this prison they had created in my mind, no escape just dark cold walls.

I didn’t think it could be worse, or that it would get worse, but I was proven wrong once again, I thought my silence, was all I would have to endure, but no, no one warned me, that one day it might be my children who would go through the same silence I was consumed by. 

As fate would have it, it is a disease of the mind, passed on;

If only I wouldn’t have been silent, maybe if I had spoke up, I would be there with them to show them they aren’t alone, that there is hope, and someone who knows the same pain.

That they aren’t crazy, but they are human and loved.

oh so loved, but I didn’t.

I let the silence consume me, so all I can do now is wait. 

Wait for them to join me in this dark silent abyss.

By C. R. Greenway 06-01-2026

One Forest Knight

She came along one dark and dreary day when I had lost all hope and things to say, 

 she came along one day, with her she brought love sealed in an envelope and a promise to stay.

She came along one day when I could no longer stand,

 she came along on her shiny white steed, and took me to a far off land.

Now I wait to bask in her warmth, for I am cold and alone.

Once more I wait for her to come along. 

Strawberry Daydream

Her cheeks were splotched with colors of crimson and pale pink, where she had been working all day in the sun, but still she smiled at me. I knew she was exhausted. But she still said hello.

When she smiled at me she looked like a strawberry dream;

The way her cheeks were splotched  and her eyes sparkled either from fatigue or hot weather, maybe even both. The way she looked so sweet, I could've just taken a bite out of her. Now I dream of the way her seeds feel on my tongue, the taste of sun ripened juices, taking over all my senses.

Now I live in a Strawberry Daydream haze.

All because of one woman and one moment.

Interesting fact about me 

I full time in a 33ft hybrid camper who we call KZ and she is the best girl!

It’s me, my mom, my stepdad, my grandma, our 3 dogs, and our bird.

Its been an experince to say the least; I know for me i have grown so much. As an elemental witch it has helped me deepen my connection with my guides. I truly would’nt change this for the world because im seeing the world lol or at least parts of it any way, i truly love it, it’s so freeing being able to wake up and have nature right beside you this isn’t to say you cant get the same feeling in your own backyard or local greenway, now im not saying this is for everyone im simply saying its for me at least for now! (Never know what the future holds) im also not saying it’s been nothing but sunshine and daisies, but the unfortunate things have made the good times so much more!

I am so beyond grateful for my guides bestowing this amazing gift upon me, i am truly grateful for this experience. a lot of growth and healing has happened as well, our family bonds have struggled then strengthened, we still have our mishaps,but they don’t seem so bad when your out in the great outdoor! 

Go explore my whimsical Raevens!

A little about me: I am a certified herbalist; All that means is that i took the time and money to take a few classes and study a few books under the supervision of a professional. 

I actually started studying herbs long before i knew there was such a thing as certified herbalist or even herbalism; As long as i can remember my family had some “different” ideas on healing like for example the first spring greens if ya know ya know

(don’t worry if you don’t i will explain later) or a taking a shot of baking soda and water for heartburn, or talking the fire out ( don’t worry if you don’t know what that means we will be delving into that at a later time) 

How does one come up with “ Avenue Rae” you may ask, well get comfy it is a long winded story.

lets start with Rae its the longest bit.

It all started with my great grandfather Herbert Ray Burgess who then went on to marry my great grandmother Anne (we will dive into her story later) who then had a single child together my grandmother Sandra Rae Burgess (we will also dive deeper on her later) who then went on to get married and have 2 children my uncle Martin Ray Driver (are you getting the picture) and my mom (we will also dive deeper on her)

So my grandmother unknowingly started a tradition that every first born child have some form of Rae in their name in some way (mostly middle name) so long story short Rae comes from my family my ancestors if you will its a connection to them and to honor them!

Welcome my little Raevens to Avenue Rae; I hope you give me the honor to walk with you on this pathway to your soul! 

A little backstory on how it came to be if you allow me to tell.