AliceWentMad

post inspo!

we always discuss how we aren’t separate from our drs, how there’s no disconnect between us here and us there. and yet every single time, you go into an attempt trying to arrive. trying to wake up as if you haven’t already been there the entire time.

why?

because you’re not actually trying to shift. you’re trying to confirm.

you’re trying to feel it here, see it here, know it’s happening here because you don’t trust that it’s already happening without your supervision. you start simulating the arrival, so you can monitor every sensation and know you’re doing it “correctly”.

but that’s just resistance to the natural flow of shifting. it’s pressure. when you feel like you have to focus on arriving in order to receive, you interrupt yourself from actually shifting because you’re over monitoring. you take yourself out of the experience and replace it with you watching yourself experience. when you focus too hard all it means is you’re performing. taking it so seriously so that you don’t “miss” the moment. but nowhere in this situation are you actually coming to terms with the fact that you’re already in your dr.

you’re just containing it. shrinking it into little parameters in hopes you can control and validate the shift before you allow yourself to flow into it. thats not what allowing yourself to shift means.

allowing yourself to shift is acknowledging that you already exist in your dr. therefore trying to create an entire narrative that doesn’t come naturally to you makes no sense. let the imagery come to you. let the dr chase you. you don’t have to have intense focus. you can just daydream and let it be chaotic because that’s flow. flow is not correcting the scene. it’s not steering every detail. flow is letting the information remain unfinished. it’s letting the picture paint itself.

allow the experience to be what it is! don’t dampen it by focusing on if you’re there yet. the answer is always yes! you are there. now trust that and allow your dr to form around you, instead of trying to forcefully form your thoughts around it.