you're not hardcore

Aware. Sounds kinda weird. Not totally into the harder shit, ya know. Have you tried it before?

Stuck up snobs are far from what you’ll get here believe me. But pulling away might not be a bad idea. If I weren’t stuck with these people until I’m 18 I would have a long fucking time ago. 

So just the opposite? Sounds like I'll fit right in then. Wait, what exactly am I getting into then?

Ah, you just spared me the hassle of having to say it. Whether you like it or not, people are going to because you matter. I just got you back and I hate the thought of us getting separated again. Moreover, I don’t want you to have to go through any more difficulties, especially when it’s preventable. I’ll always be me. Just the same smartass I’ve been right from the start. But if my life just so happens to include someone by my side, that’s not the worst fate in the world. I have changed a lot and I’m seeing things with a clearer head and new set of eyes. I’m glad you. I just know. And I’m aware that sounds like such a flippant response but everything with Clare feels solid. It’s different with her and I can just tell, she’s the one.

We're not going to. We're too mature to let that happen now, at least I'd like to think so. I think we just needed to get over that first bump, so here we are. It'll be fine. I'm not going through any difficulties. I'm perfectly fine with the way I'm living my life. I know you will, but it's still an adjustment for me. You just seem so sure, and it seems so unrealistic to me, I guess. 

See I drive you crazy. Actually we don’t do much talking tho I bet you and Miles have long conversatons.

Lucky you. If you had to talk to that girl, I'm sure you'd be running for the hills. We have great conversations, I guess. The sex is much better than what I've had before though, I'll admit. It's like he actually cares. Weird, huh?

It’s better, I didn’t really care I was just saying, I thought that was your natural mood. You didn’t?! What are you doing about your group then? It probably is but, I’ll live without one.

Maybe it is, I don't know. We had to move to a different location, and now we don't have the resources we need. It's whatever. Jocks always win in this bullshit school. I'm used to it. Doesn't mean I'm going to back down, but I need to go about it with a different plan. I just can't tell if I like hearing that myself. That's all.

Of course you have and it’s for a good reason. You’re tough as nails but it’s perfectly okay to rely on other people, to have others look out for you. My parents would still be here and I have a really good friend that’s a year under me as well— aside from Clare. I couldn’t turn my back on Toronto entirely; it’ll always be home. I’d like to think I’ve changed for the better and that the difference aren’t too drastic that I’m a completely different person to you. I figured you’d have that take. Yeah, I sincerely believe that she is. I know what it’s like to be without her and I can’t go back to that. She’s everything to me and I can see a future with her.

I don't need anyone else looking out for me, but I know that won't stop you from doing so. I don't mind that you do, I guess. Maybe not, I'm just saying don't let some high school fairy tale stunt you from being you. I know you've changed for the better, even if I don't agree with your choices for myself. I do see that it's good for you, though. I promise that. Right, but you're just in high school. How can you be so sure about something like that when you've got a whole life ahead of you?

I’m just saying it’s probably boring if you guys don’t have anything better to do than sit at our house and make out all the time.

That's not all we do. We keep the rest for a more private room, don't worry about it. It's not boring. You seem to think you know a lot about a relationship that isn't yours, don't you?