it'll be ok

anyway i haven’t rlly been Present on here much recently but here’s an update:

school is going rlly well so far!! i really like my subjects especially ancient civs and psychology and i’m doing more extra curriculars than i have for a while. last year was awful in terms of mental health and it was a big disaster i hardly even remember so it feels nice this year to feel some direction. i wrote an essay for psychology and got a B and a B+ which is already an infinitely better start than last year so i’m proud of myself. i have an in-class essay for psych tomorrow but it’ll be okay. i’m also embracing the arts a lot - i’m finally getting singing lessons (i’m an alto which makes sense as to why i could never reach high notes in choir when i was younger) and i’m doing ensemble and choir and i was going to take a uni college course in french but turns out it’s only an extension course and i’m not taking french already this year so i can’t do it rip but that’s ok i’ll pick it up again next year @ adult ed or maybe a diploma of languages at utas for a year!! i’m planning on trying to apply for evergreen arts college in america (!!!) but to do that i gotta catch up on the prerequisite courses (or the australian equivalents anyway) so since i did Nothing last year and this is my last year of high school i’m using this year and then taking a ‘gap year’ (sort of) next year to catch up on things i couldn’t do this year like to get into evergreen i need to take a foreign language (i’ve studied languages Forever but not in grade 11 or 12 which is when it actually counts for uni rip), science (i took enviro last year but i got a score of 4 out of like 20 something bc again bad year lmao so im gonna take agriculture or something @ tafe or adult ed), english, maths etc and i have most of them except a couple like the language n the science so i’ll do those in adult ed or tafe or something and then!!! if i get in i’ll enroll for 2018 so i’ll start @ the same time as my friend who’s a couple years younger than me and i’ll do like?? performing arts (musical theatre mostly), linguistics, art history maybe??? maybe some kinda environmental science???? it’s a cute school it’s in a forest and has a sustainable farm and a beach aahh BIG PLANS wow idk how realistic it is but it’s nice to have some feeling of solidarity yknow?? my mental health is so much better already this year thanks @ fluoxetine for making me not wanna die 24/7