usually, before bed, sukuna slides his hand down your panties, placing his large hand over your mound and keeping it there. why? whenever you build up the courage to ask, he simply just shoots you a sharp glance, saying "itâs warm. stop asking questions, woman."
imagine his surprise when he mindlessly slides his hand down, only to feel you were completely bald down there this time.
youâve never seen sukuna so genuinely confused. his usually bored, irritated expression had faded, eyebrows raised in curiosity.
"brat, where is it."
you look over at him, shrugging. "whereâs what?"
he feels around a little more, double checking, nope â not a single hair. âdonât play dumb with me, woman. the hair. where is it."
you were just as confused as he was. did he really love your bush that much?
âi shaved it?âŠ" you respond, watching a slight frown form on his face, similar to a grumpy cat â honestly, anyone else would look at him and assume his entire family had been killed or something.
in your defense, you just felt like changing it up, assuming he wouldnât care much at all. if you knew itâd affect him this much, you wouldnât have plucked even a singular hair away.
"why the hell would you do that," he growls, his initial confusion quickly turning into irritation. âput it back, i donât find this amusing."
you canât help but let out a soft giggle, feeling sukuna pull his hand out from beneath your panties, two arms crossing in silent annoyance like a kid whoâd just had their candy stolen.
"kunaâ, itâll grow back⊠i didnât realise you liked it so much," you smile, leaning in to press a soft kiss to his cheek. his expression remains the same, though he doesnât push you away, silently accepting your affection.
"donât let this happen again," he demands.
"awwh! you miss it," you tease, poking his chest playfully. he catches your wrist in his hand, grip demanding, yet not firm enough to hurt.
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A loud knock jolts you from your focus, your stationery practically shakes from the force. You murmur to yourself, âWhat now?â Irritation evident in your voice as you push yourself out of your seat at your desk and head towards your dorm door.
Youâre met with a very groggy, very out-of-it Satoru.
âSatoru? What are you doing here â why have you got gauze in your mouth?â
He pushed past you with a groan and flopped down onto your bed as if he owned it. âJust got my wisdom teeth removed, sweets.â His words were slurred, almost incoherent. You stared at him, pondering why on earth your fuck buddy was coming to your dorm out of all places after just having his teeth extracted.
âAren't you going to cuddle me?â
You snorted at his garbled words, the idea being so foreign that the only reasonable reaction was to laugh. âSatoru, we never cuddle after you visit, we high five and one of us leaves after getting dressed.â The white-haired manâs eyes nearly popped out of their sockets at your words, âBut⊠why would I not want to cuddle my girlfriend?â
Hold on, girlfriend?
How many painkillers was this guy on?
You moved closer to him, sitting at the edge of the bed and rubbing your hand up and down his shin. âWe arenât dating, Toru. We just hook up sometimes, remember?â You tried to sound as kind as possible, lowering your voice so as not to embarrass him. Satoru however just shook his head, drool slipping from the sides of his mouth as he sat up.
âNuh uh, we are dating because Iâm sooo in love with you, pretty girl.â He tried to smirk but his cotton-stuffed mouth prevented that, instead, he ended up looking a tiny bit lopsided.
You froze, eyes wide, mouth agape at his confession. âYou donât mean that, youâre practically high from how many meds youâre on.â You tried to get up but he grabbed your hand and pulled you back onto the bed with him. âNo, I love you.â He repeated in a sing-song voice, nuzzling his head into your hand.
âMy girlfriend, let me love you...â You felt him starting to fall limp against your hand, eyes wavering as he fought a drug-induced sleep. You signed, leaning closer in to press a soft kiss to his damp forehead. âWe can talk about whatever that was tomorrow, Toru.â
âLet me love you⊠donât you give up, nah-nah-nahâŠâ
âYou listen to Justin Bieber?â
âSuguru played it in the car, told me to serenade youâŠâ
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summary: late-night âgroup studyâ in the empty physics lounge was supposed to be about cramming for midterms. but when itâs just you and the infuriatingly hot know-it-all gojo satoru, whoâs been teasing you all semester with his stupid smirks and rolled-up sleeves, your bratty comments about his âbig brainâ finally make him snap. he decides to demonstrate a very hands-on lesson in friction, momentum, and why opposites attract⊠right on the study table.
warnings: college au (both uni students), mutual pining/teasing, semi-public risk (empty library lounge at night), unprotected sex, degradation + praise, size kink, glasses kink, light dumbification (he teases you for being âso smart but so cockdrunkâ), overstimulation, brat taming, table sex, implied aftercare.
word count: ~2.9k
The physics department lounge was dead silent except for the hum of the vending machine in the corner. Everyone else had bailed hours ago, midterms were tomorrow, and most people werenât masochistic enough to pull an all-nighter in the windowless basement study room. But you? You were stubborn. And apparently, so was he.
Gojo Satoru sprawled in the chair across from you, long legs kicked up on the table, glasses slipping down his nose as he scrolled through practice problems on his laptop. His white hair was a mess from running his hands through it all night, sleeves rolled to his elbows, top two buttons of his shirt undone like he owned the place. Which, letâs be real, he kinda didâguy had a 4.0, TAâd half the intro classes, and still found time to be stupidly pretty.
You slammed your textbook shut louder than necessary. âIf I have to look at another goddamn wave equation Iâm gonna lose it.â
He didnât even look up, just smirked. âAw, having trouble with superposition? Need me to explain it again, princess?â
You rolled your eyes. âI donât need your big brain to hold my hand. Maybe if you werenât so distractingââ
That got him. Blue eyes flicked up, sharp and amused behind those glasses. âDistracting? Me?â He leaned forward, elbows on the table, chin in hand. âCare to elaborate?â
You leaned in too, close enough that your knees brushed under the table. âThe sleeves. The hair. The way you push your glasses up like some anime protagonist. Itâs annoying.â
His grin turned wicked. âAnnoying⊠or hot?â
You bit your lip to hide the smile. âJuryâs still out.â
He laughed low, then suddenly stoodâtowering over you in one fluid motion. Before you could react, he rounded the table, caging you in with one hand braced on the back of your chair, the other tilting your chin up with two fingers.
âLetâs settle the jury then,â he murmured, voice dropping an octave. âBeen watching you stare at me all semester. Think I didnât notice?â
Your heart hammered. âAnd if I was?â
He leaned closer, breath warm against your lips. âThen stop being a brat about it⊠and let me give you what youâve been begging for with those little looks.â
You barely had time to inhale before his mouth crashed into yoursâhungry, messy, like heâd been holding back just as long as you. Hands flew to his shirt, yanking him closer. He groaned into the kiss, tongue sliding against yours as he hauled you up onto the table in one smooth lift. Textbooks and notes scattered to the floor with soft thuds.
âLesson one,â he panted against your neck, teeth grazing skin, âfriction generates heat.â
His hands shoved your skirt up, fingers hooking into your panties and tugging them down in record time. You kicked them off somewhere behind him. He stepped between your thighs, grinding the hard bulge in his jeans against your bare heat.
âFeel that?â He rocked slowly, deliberately. âThatâs what happens when two forces keep pushing each other⊠eventually somethingâs gotta give.â
You whimpered, hips chasing the pressure. âThen give already, Gojoââ
âSatoru,â he corrected, nipping your earlobe. âSay it.â
âSatoru,â you breathed, and that seemed to flip a switch.
He yanked his belt open, freeing himselfâthick, flushed, already dripping. Your mouth watered at the sight. He stroked himself once, twice, eyes locked on yours through his glasses.
âLook how hard you make me,â he rasped. âAll because you couldnât stop running that pretty mouth.â
He lined up and pushed in slowâinch by torturous inchâuntil he was buried deep. Your head fell back on a choked moan; he clapped a hand over your mouth.
âShh, baby. Libraryâs quiet hours. Wouldnât want the night guard hearing what a needy little slut you are for the class nerd.â
He started movingâdeep, rolling thrusts that hit just right every time. The table creaked under you. One hand stayed over your mouth; the other slid under your shirt, palming your chest, thumb circling your nipple.
âSo fucking tight,â he groaned. âSmart girl like you⊠but look at you now. Cockdrunk on my dick already.â
You clenched around him hard, nails digging into his shoulders through his shirt. He hissed, pace picking upâfaster, harder, the slap of skin echoing in the empty room.
âNewtonâs third law,â he panted, smirking even now. âEvery action⊠has an equal and oppositeâfuckâreaction. You tease me? I fuck you stupid.â
His free hand dropped between you, fingers finding your clit and rubbing tight circles. Your legs shook, thighs clamping around his hips.
âCome for me,â he ordered, voice wrecked. âCome all over the cock youâve been eyeing since week one.â
You shatteredâback arching off the table, muffled cries against his palm, pulsing around him so hard his rhythm stuttered. He fucked you through the aftershocks, glasses fogging slightly from the heat.
When you went limp, trembling, he pulled out only to flip you overâchest pressed to the cool wood, ass up. He slid back in from behind with a guttural sound.
âLesson two,â he growled, hand fisting your hair gently to arch your back. âMomentum⊠conserved until I fill this pretty pussy up.â
He pounded into you relentlessly nowâdeep, punishing strokes that made the table rock. You babbled his name, pleas, half-formed physics jokes that made him laugh breathlessly against your shoulder.
âFuckâgonna come,â he warned, thrusts turning erratic. âGonna mark you so everyone knows who you belong to.â
He buried himself deep and came with a low, broken moanâflooding you with heat, grinding lazily to push it deeper. His grip on your hips softened as he caught his breath, pressing soft kisses along your spine.
Finally, he pulled out carefully, turning you to sit on the edge of the table again. He cupped your face, thumbs brushing your cheeks, all the smugness replaced with something softer.
âYou good?â he asked quietly, pushing his glasses up with a sheepish grin. âDidnât break you, did I?â
You laughed weakly, leaning into his touch. âA+ tutoring session, Satoru.â
He smirked, kissing you slow and sweet this time. âGood. Now letâs clean up this mess⊠and maybe next study session youâll actually focus on the material instead of my dick.â
(But you both knew you wouldnât.)
a/n: reblog if youâd fail midterms for nerdjo 𫊠iâve lwk been too scared to post on here for some reason, but here we are!!
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summary: staying late for âoffice hoursâ with your strict, too-handsome professor was supposed to be about academics. instead, your bratty teasing pushes Nanami past his limitâand he teaches you a very different kind of lesson right on his desk.
warnings: age gap (collegestudent!reader x professor!nanami), desk sex, semi-public risk, unprotected sex, degradation, praise kink, light power imbalance, size kink, suit kink, overstimulation, brat-taming, aftercare implied.
word count: ~2.7k
The classroom had emptied twenty minutes ago, but you were still perched on a desk, swinging your legs and pretending to study. Professor Nanami sat at his own desk, grading papers with his usual rigid composure, sleeves rolled up, tie loosened just enough to make your stomach flip.
âYou couldâve emailed me your questions,â he said without looking up, voice clipped but tired.
You hummed, leaning forward so your skirt rode higher up your thighs. âBut then I wouldnât get your undivided attention.â
That made him look up, glasses catching the overhead light. His gaze flickered down to your bare thighs before snapping back up, sharp as ever. âThatâs inappropriate.â
You smirked, kicking your heels against the desk. âSo? You gonna write me up, Professor?â
The muscle in his jaw ticked. He went back to grading, trying to ignore youâbut you didnât let him. Sliding off the desk, you sauntered to his, leaning down so your cleavage dipped into view as you set your paper in front of him.
âCan you⊠go over problem three with me?â you asked, voice dripping with false innocence.
His pen stilled. âYouâre playing a dangerous game.â
âI donât know what you mean,â you teased, propping your chin in your hand.
That was the last straw. Nanami shoved his chair back, grabbed your wrist, and dragged you onto his lap before you could blink. His grip was firm, commanding, as his lips brushed your ear.
âYou think youâre clever?â he muttered, voice low and dangerous. âDressing like this, teasing me during office hours? Youâre just a reckless little brat begging to be taught a lesson.â
Your smirk faltered, heat pooling low in your stomach. âM-Maybe I like pushing your buttons.â
His hand slid up your thigh, fingers digging into the soft flesh. âPathetic,â he growled. âYou sit here with your skirt hiked up, legs spread, and act like youâre not desperate for me to ruin you.â
You gasped when his fingers pressed against your pantiesâalready damp. His lips curled. âJust as I thought. My needy little student.â
Before you could retort, he shoved papers aside, bent you over his desk, and yanked your skirt up. The cool air hit your ass just as his fingers pushed your panties aside.
âStay quiet,â he ordered, lining himself up. âThere are still faculty in the building. Unless you want everyone to hear how slutty you sound for your professor.â
You bit your lip to stifle a moan as he pushed inside, stretching you wide. His tie brushed your back, shirt still on as he held your hips in a bruising grip.
âGodâyouâre so fucking tight,â he hissed, thrusting deep. âAll this attitude, and you melt the second Iâm inside you.â
âF-Fuck, Professorââ
âLouder than I told you to be,â he snapped, slamming into you harder. âYou canât even follow simple instructions. How do you expect to pass my class when you canât keep your mouth shut?â
You whimpered, tears pricking at the corners of your eyes as the desk creaked beneath you. His hand tangled in your hair, pulling your head back so you had to meet his eyes when he leaned over you.
âLook at me while I fuck the brat out of you,â he growled. âYou wanted my attention? You have it. Every single inch of it.â
Each thrust drove you closer to the edge, his words and his pace overwhelming. You clawed at the desk, body shaking as your orgasm crashed through you.
âGood girl,â he praised, voice softening as he fucked you through it. âMy perfect little student.â
But he didnât stop. His thrusts grew rougher, faster, chasing his own release until he spilled inside you with a guttural groan. For a moment, the only sound was your ragged breathing and the faint thud of music echoing from another building.
Nanami pulled out slowly, tucking himself back into his slacks, his shirt and tie still perfectly in place. He adjusted his glasses, then gently fixed your skirt back down, his hand brushing your hip.
âYouâll stay after again next week,â he said matter-of-factly, smoothing your hair. âAnd youâll behave. Understood?â
You could only nod, dazed and trembling, as he pressed a surprisingly soft kiss to your temple.
âGood girl,â he murmured again.
a/n: hii itâs zarin again đ first time writing professor nanami smut sooo hope yâall enjoyed, reblogs & comments mean the world <3
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cw. age gap (toji), stepdad dynamics, teacher x student (gojo), workplace power imbalance (nanami), voyeurism / filmed porn style pov, degradation, dubious consent, rough sex, breeding kink, size kink, anal, overstimulation, possessiveness, brat taming, dirty talk, creampie, general pornhub-cringe themes
âmomâs boyfriend folds you in half against the wallâ â TOJI
the clip opens up to a close-up of your bare leg hooked high over tojiâs thick arm, your foot flexing and toes curling every time his hips slam into you. the shot shakes with the force of his thrusts, catching the obscene stretch of his cock dragging in and out of your slick cunt â fat and heavy, disappearing into you like your body was made for it.
the mic picks up everything â the wet slap of skin, your hitched breaths, and his low, filthy grunts.
the camera angle shifts and thereâs no mistaking the size difference â heâs a wall of muscle pressing you flat against the hallway wall, one hand gripping your ass possessively while the other holds your thigh in place like you weigh nothing. youâre bent just enough for the camera to catch the outline of his cock pressing into you with every stroke.
âfuck, look at that,â he mutters, smirk curling on his lips, âsplittinâ you open so easy. bet no boy your ageâs ever filled you like this, huh, sweetheart?â
youâre too gone to answer. every thrust is sharp, deliberate, like heâs determined to fuck the air out of your lungs.
he pulls back slow â enough to make your stomach tighten â before slamming home again, forcing a sharp moan out of you that the camera picks up crystal clear.
âyeah, there it is. thatâs my girl. let your mom wonder why youâre walkinâ funny tomorrow.â
the angle drops lower, focusing on where your bodies meet â his cock glistening, your cunt gripping around him, the creamy ring building at the base. every thrust makes more of him disappear into you until his hips are flush against yours, the head of his cock hitting deep enough to make your leg shake in his grip.
he doesnât slow down when you start to go limp in his hold â if anything, it only makes his grin widen.
âgonna keep you full of me. fuck, sweetheart, iâll make sure youâre drippinâ all night.â
his pace turns rougher, heavier, until he buries himself deep and groans low in your ear. the camera catches the subtle twitch of his cock as he fills you, his hand sliding between your legs to keep you spread while he stays pressed to the hilt.
he pulls out slow, letting the mess spill down your inner thigh before swiping his thumb through it and pushing it back in with lazy, satisfied circles.
cut to black.
âprivate lesson with your favorite teacherâ â SATORU
the clip opens up to the hem of your short skirt bunched around your hips, the pleated fabric wrinkled from where satoruâs fist is gripping it tight. the cameraâs angled low, catching the slow drag of his cock sliding into you from behind â thick and veiny, stretching you open inch by inch until his hips are flush against your ass.
your breath hitches in ragged gasps. you whine, voice shaky, âmm⊠mr.gojo⊠pleaseâŠâ and the sound only seems to egg him on. the camera catches your face turned slightly, mouth open, cheeks flushed, eyes half-lidded with need. your hair falls into your eyes, strands sticking to damp skin, you can hear him laugh under his breath, that cocky, too-pleased sound, as his free hand drags up your spine and yanks it back, making your chest press harder to the desk.
the shot tilts just enough to catch his face â blindfold loose around his neck now, white hair falling into his eyes as he smirks at the lens like he knows youâre watching.
he rolls his hips slow, letting you feel every inch, before snapping forward hard enough to make the table youâre bent over creak.
âaww, donât tell me thatâs too much for you,â his toneâs teasing, dripping with fake sympathy, âiâve seen you take notes faster than this. câmon, keep up.â
the camera zooms down again â each thrust shoving you forward, your hands scrambling to grip the edge of the desk. your knee socks are slipping, one shoe half-off, and his palm lands on the curve of your ass with a sharp smack that makes you yelp.
he leans forward, chest pressed to your back, his mouth right at your ear.
âthink youâll remember this lesson better than the others, huh?â
you can barely form words, just soft, needy sounds, ây-yeah⊠yesâŠâ and the pressure of his chest against your back makes you arch, hips pressing down into every thrust. the desk creaks under your weight, your hands slipping slightly, skin slick with sweat and anticipation.
his pace picks up, fucking you hard enough to make the desk scrape against the floor. the sound of skin on skin is loud in the mic, mingling with your breathless whimpers and his low groans.
he tilts his head toward the camera, grin lazy, and mouths: watch this.
the next thrust snaps forward hard, deep and precise, hitting that spot that sends your legs shaking. your fingers curl around the desk edge, knuckles white, as your body trembles uncontrollably. a shuddering gasp rips from your throat, and a wet whine follows.
âthere we go,â he mutters, satisfied, âpassinâ with flying colors.â
he stays buried as he cums, the camera catching his hips pressed tight to yours, the slow pull-out revealing the creamy mess spilling down your thighs.
satoru smirks at the lens one last time before tucking himself back into his slacks, giving your ass one last squeeze like a teacher dismissing class.
cut to black.
âstrict boss keeps you late and uses your throat in his officeâ â NANAMI
the clip opens with the faint hum of the city â car horns below, muffled by glass walls that stretch from floor to ceiling. the office is dark except for the warm lamplight at kentoâs desk and the skyline glowing behind him. his jacket and glasses are discarded neatly on the leather chair, but his loosened tie still hangs against his chest, an undone reminder of how long heâs kept you here.
the camera is set low, angled perfectly to catch you on your knees in front of him. your pencil skirt is bunched high on your thighs, stockings slipping at the knees as you lean in, lips stretched obscenely around his cock. spit glistens at the corners of your mouth, dribbling down your chin and soaking the lace of your blouse.
kento holds the back of your head steady, thumb pressing firmly into your scalp, his other palm splayed flat against the cold glass beside him. the reflection shows his cock driving into your mouth with every deliberate thrust, your throat bulging around the sheer thickness of him.
your gagging is loud â wet, messy chokes picked up by the mic. each time he pushes deeper, you claw weakly at his thighs, nails dragging down the fabric of his slacks. a muffled, garbled âmmphâhhhnnghâ escapes your throat, cut off as he buries himself down to the base.
âthatâs it,â kento mutters, voice low, frayed with restraint. he tips his head, jaw tight, sweat glinting at his temple in the lamplight. âtake it all. you wanted to prove you could handle overtime, didnât you?â
a whimper catches in your throat as your eyes water, tears streaking your cheeks while you try to nod around him. your nails curl into his thigh, body trembling with every sharp thrust.
the camera zooms closer â spit stringing from your stretched lips to the thick vein of his cock when he pulls back just to rut forward again. each thrust sounds obscene, wet suction and gagging echoing through the otherwise silent office.
you try to gasp around him, choked whines spilling out, âmhmâhhhn, pleaseââ but theyâre cut off instantly as kento presses you flush to his hips. your throat bulges as he holds you there, groaning low, deep in his chest.
the glass reflection shows your ruined, desperate face, mouth stuffed full while he uses you with a steady, ruthless rhythm.
âgood girl,â he mutters under his breath, voice rough, âyouâll stay late for me, wonât you? keep earning that paycheck.â
the clip ends with him grinding deep into your throat, holding your head still as he lets out a ragged curse under his breath, voice breaking, âfuck⊠just like that.â
the skyline behind you glitters like an audience, catching every second of you being broken in on the floor of your bossâs office.
cut to black.
âyou take it from behind from the king of curses!â â SUKUNA
the clip opens up to you pinned beneath sukuna, his huge, inked arms locking you in place as he grinds into your tight asshole. veins coil under his tattoos, flexing with each thrust, his red eyes blazing with lust.
âfuck⊠you feel so tight,â he growls, leaning down to press his mouth to yours, teeth grazing your lip as his tongue claims yours. âyouâre mine, little slut⊠mine to fuck, mine to ruin.â
you whimper, gasping as his long, calloused fingers find your clit, rubbing in harsh circles while he slams into you harder, hips snapping. âahhh⊠sukunaâtoo much!â you moan, voice trembling, legs trembling as they hook over his arms.
âtoo much?â he laughs darkly, voice low and rough, each word vibrating against your ear. âyouâre just getting started. i havenât even begun to make you scream.â his other hand digs into your ass, gripping and spreading, feeling every inch of you around him.
he leans back just enough to watch your face twist with pleasure and desperation, smirking. âlook at you⊠canât handle me, can you? your ass is mine, your pussy is mine, your soul⊠all mine.â
your hips jerk, clenching around him as he teases your clit, overloading your senses, and you cry out, âyes! please⊠donât stopâŠâ
he growls, thrusting one final, merciless time, filling your tight asshole with hot ropes of cum, your juices mixing and soaking the sheets. âthatâs it,â he rasps, chest heaving as he pins you beneath him. âmine⊠all mineâŠâ
the camera lingers on his smirk, tattoos glinting, fingers still teasing you, eyes full of dark triumph, leaving you utterly wrecked, whimpering beneath him, knowing heâll return to claim you again.
cut to black.
âangsty pretty boy ruins you like its a cry for helpâ â CHOSO
the clip opens up to your back arching beneath choso, every nerve on fire as his hands roam over you, black-painted nails pressing into your hips, dragging slow lines across your heated skin. you can feel the weight of his tattooed arms, the cool metal of his rings and studded bracelet catching the candlelight as he moves, deliberate, almost holding himself back â but the fire in his dark eyes tells you heâs barely containing himself.
his cock slides inside you slick and heavy, and you gasp, nails digging into his shoulders, feeling every inch of him press deep. the rhythm is slow at first, teasing, testing, like heâs savoring the way your body melts around him.
âfeel that?â choso murmurs, voice low and rough, âthatâs me⊠trying not to lose it.â
you whine, breath hitching, toes curling as he grinds a little deeper, fingers still teasing your hips, pinching and dragging over sensitive skin, each touch lighting sparks across your body. the way heâs holding you close, chest against your back, heat radiating from him, makes your pulse hammer in your ears.
your hands clutch at his arms, nails scraping across tattoos and cold metal as you try to anchor yourself, your thighs trembling around him. every breath you take is shallow, ragged, voice breaking into soft, needy sounds: âfuck⊠harder⊠pleaseâŠâ
he leans down, brushing his lips against your ear, teeth grazing your lobe, whispering just for you:
âi donât say much⊠but you make it impossible to hold back.â
the pace picks up, more urgent now, hips snapping into yours with a controlled ferocity. you squeal, body shaking with overstimulation, clit and asshole on fire at the same time, nails digging in so hard it leaves marks on his skin. your eyes roll back as he catches every shiver, every moan, his hands moving like he owns you completely.
âyouâre mine,â choso growls low, âall of you⊠every inch.â
he snaps over the edge hard, dragging you down with him, hot, heavy, overwhelming â spilling inside you as you cling to him, trembling, utterly wrecked. your breath mingles, skin slick and sticky, and the camera lingers on his messy black hair falling into his eyes, lips parted, chest heaving, a rare smile tugging at the corners of his mouth as he presses close, almost⊠tender.
warnings: oral (f!receiving), fingering, semi-public risk, size kink, overstimulation, light degradation, praise kink, creampie, dirty talk, rough sex, bed frame slamming, possessive bf Suguru, aftercare implied, a lil bit of dacryphilia (reader crying from pleasure).
summary: being the nerdy girlfriend of campusâ hottest frat boy has its downsidesâmainly, him constantly trying to drag you to parties. when you finally give in, suguru makes sure you never regret itâŠ
word count: ~2.3k
You shouldâve known better than to give in to him.
Suguru had been begging you for weeksâno, monthsâto come to just one frat party with him. âCome on, princess, live a little. Itâs not like Iâm gonna let anyone touch you,â heâd whine, tugging at your sweater while you studied. Tonight, somehow, you caved. And now you were standing in the middle of a sweaty, crowded house that smelled like cheap beer and weed, clutching a red solo cup like it was a lifeline.
Suguru, of course, looked completely at home. Backwards cap, loose jersey, chain glinting under the dim lightsâyour boyfriend was the picture of frat royalty. Every person who passed by stopped to dap him up, yell his name, or try to drag him into some drinking game. And yet, his hand never left the small of your back.
âYou good, baby?â he leaned down, lips brushing your ear over the bass.
You nodded quickly, though your eyes darted everywhere but his. âItâs⊠a lot.â
He smirked, knowing damn well it was overwhelming you. âTold you Iâd make it worth your while.â
âWorth my while?â you echoed, skeptical.
âMmhm.â His hand slipped lower, palming your ass right there in the crowd. You squeaked, smacking his chest, but he just grinned. âYouâre cute when you get shy, you know that?â
Before you could scold him, he tugged you upstairs, ignoring the protests of other frat brothers guarding the hallway. âRoomâs taken, bro,â someone called, but Suguru just waved them off. âNah, itâs my room.â
He pulled you inside, shutting the door behind him, and suddenly the muffled thump of music made the silence between you deafening. You crossed your arms, glaring. âSo this is why you wanted me to come? Toââ
ââfuck you in my jersey after showing you off downstairs?â he cut in smoothly, stepping closer until your back hit the door. âYeah. That was exactly the plan, actually.â
Your face burned. âYouâre ridiculous.â
âRidiculously in love with you,â he countered, but the smug tilt of his grin gave away his real intentions. âCâmon, baby. Youâve been teasing me in that little skirt all night.â
âI wore this because you said it was casual!â you hissed, tugging at the hem.
âCasual for me means easy access.â His hand hooked under your thigh, hitching your leg up around his hip before you could protest. You gasped, grabbing his shoulders for balance as he ground against you, the hard line of his cock pressing right where you were starting to ache.
âSuâSuguruââ
He kissed you hard, swallowing the rest of your words. His mouth was hot, desperate, tasting like beer and mint. When he pulled back, his eyes were dark, pupils blown wide. âGod, you donât get it, do you? You walk into my world lookinâ like this, all innocent and nerdy, and you expect me to behave? Not happening, princess.â
You whined as his hands slid under your sweater, pushing it up until your bra was exposed. His thumbs brushed over your nipples through the lace, and you arched into him despite yourself.
âThatâs it,â he praised, voice low and hungry. âMy good girl.â
Your knees nearly buckled when he lifted you effortlessly, tossing you onto his unmade bed. The mattress creaked, and you gave him a scandalized look. âPeople downstairs will hearââ
âLet âem.â He shrugged off his jersey, muscles flexing under the dim fairy lights strung across his room. âThey already know youâre mine.â
He crawled over you, caging you in. âNow,â he murmured, kissing down your throat, leaving bruises where no one could miss them, âlet me prove it.â
Suguruâs bed dipped under his weight as he crawled between your thighs, dark hair falling into his face. You squirmed, tugging your skirt down like it would save you, but he just smirked.
âDonât hide from me, princess,â he murmured, gripping your knees and spreading you wide. The position had heat shooting up your spineâyou felt exposed, vulnerable, and completely at his mercy.
âSugu, wait, people areââ
âDownstairs,â he finished for you, kissing the inside of your thigh. His lips dragged higher, hot breath making you twitch. âTheyâre not up here. They donât get to see this. Only me.â
Before you could argue, he pushed your panties aside and licked one long stripe up your cunt. Your back arched instantly, a broken gasp tearing from your lips.
âFuckâSuguru!â
âMhm.â He hummed against you, tongue teasing your clit before circling it slow, lazy, like he had all night. âGod, you taste so good. Could eat this pussy every day and never get bored.â
Your hands shot to his hair, tugging hard when he sucked your clit into his mouth. He groaned at the pull, burying his face deeper like he wanted to drown in you. The mix of sloppy wet sounds and muffled music downstairs made your head spin.
âS-SuguâahhâI canâtââ
âYes, you can,â he growled, sliding two fingers inside you without warning. You cried out, legs trembling as he curled them just right. âCâmon, baby. Be a good girl and cum for me.â
Your thighs clamped around his head as the coil in your stomach snapped, pleasure crashing over you in waves. You screamed his name, shaking while he fucked you through it, tongue flicking mercilessly at your clit.
When you finally slumped back, panting, he pulled away with his chin glistening, licking his fingers clean like he hadnât just wrecked you.
âGood girl,â he praised, kissing your thigh one last time before standing. You blinked up at him, dazed, watching as he shoved his sweats down to reveal his cock straining, thick and leaking.
âAlready so fucked out,â he teased, gripping your hips and flipping you onto your back again. âBut Iâm not done with you, princess. Not even close.â
You barely had time to gasp before he lined up and slammed into you, bottoming out in one rough thrust. Your nails clawed at the sheets, the stretch burning and addictive all at once.
âFuck, so tightââ he hissed, head dropping to your shoulder. âAlways so perfect for me.â
The bed frame banged against the wall with each snap of his hips, loud enough to make your face burn. You tried to muffle your moans, but Suguru grabbed your jaw, forcing you to look at him.
âDonât you dare get quiet on me,â he warned, pupils blown, sweat dripping down his temple. âI wanna hear you. I want everyone downstairs to know whoâs making you scream like this.â
âSuguruâahh, fuckâI canâtââ
âYou can,â he grinned darkly, rutting into you harder, deeper, until the only sound you could make was a sob of his name. âYouâre my nerdy little princess, remember? All dressed up in your cute little skirt, letting me fuck you stupid.â
You whined, clinging to him, and he groaned like it was the hottest thing in the world. âGod, I love you like this,â he panted against your neck. âSo messy, so mine. Gonna cum for me again, baby?â
Your answer was another cry as your body tightened around him, orgasm ripping through you harder than before. Suguru cursed, hips stuttering as your cunt clenched him like a vice.
âShitâfuckâyouâre perfectââ
He buried himself to the hilt, spilling inside you with a low, broken moan. The room was filled with the sound of your mingled gasps, the bass downstairs still thumping like a soundtrack to your ruin.
When it was over, he collapsed beside you, pulling you onto his chest. His grin was smug, cocky as ever, but his hand stroked your hair gently.
âKnew Iâd make this party worth your while,â he whispered, kissing your forehead.
You smacked his chest weakly. âYouâre an asshole.â
âMaybe,â he said, smirking, âbut Iâm yours.â
bsf!gojo who canât stop jerking his cock each time he sees a new picture of you. itâs an obsession at this point. he canât get enough. just seeing your smile on the picture gets him rock hard. fist moving in a quick motion, sweat dripping down his toned abs, pink lips slightly opened. heâs huffing, heâs needy.
bsf!gojo who cums on his phone, on your instagram picture. thick ropes of cum falling down onto the screen, his dick still heavy in his hands. the veins on his dick prominent, he bites his lips. âoh she would be disappointed,â he chuckles, wiping his screen off.
bsf!gojo who steals your panties and fists his dick with them. picture of you again on on his phone, eyes locked on your pink lacy thong wrapped around his dick. âa-ah fuck,â he gasps, rolling it around his tip.
bsf!gojo who canât handle being around you without a boner. âwhatâs up?â youâd ask him. he would just blush and glance away, ânothing.â his reply was short, but the way he tugged his hoodie down told you enough.
bsf!gojo who manages to fuck you after a stupid dare. youâre sprawled under him, your pretty lips formed in a small âoâ as heâs manhandling you in the angry mating press. his dick sliding inside of you, thick plush tip fucking into your cervix, making you cry out.
bsf!gojo whoâs hands are too busy on your body. his fingers circling your pretty little clit, his free hand massaging your boobs. heâs lost in it, whimpering. youâre so tight, perfect little pussy milking him for all itâs worth.
â gojo satoruâoneshot â FROM THE SUBWAY TRAIN.
SYNOPSIS ââ The blue spring of their youthsâand everything after it ends. Your story told from the perspective of your closest friend since childhood, Shoko Ieiri.
PAIRING. ââ gojo satoru x reader
TAGS. canon jjk timeline, (or at least as accurate as possible) coming of age, sorcerer!reader, angst, fluff, slice of life, mutual pining, friends to lovers, nostalgia, hidden inventory timeline, the tokyo five plus you, emotional vulnerability, dreams and nightmares, missing scenes, domestic fluff, megumi and tsumiki / dad!gojo dynamic, we love and adore shoko ieiri on this blog
WARNINGS. ! manga spoilers ! depictions of grief & loss, canon typical violence (described but not in detail), use of cigarettes and smoking, character deaths
WORD COUNT. 13.2k
mae's note. my debut work !! thank u for all the support on 'of love & lesson plans', the first chapter will be out by tomorrow hehee but i wanted to share a project i've been working on for over a year now <3 i also PINKY PROMISE my other fics won't be this sad jsjdjskd but i love u all and i'm so sorry in advanced ... but likes and reposts are much loved mwah mwah mwah
inspired by âȘ from the subway train, vansire đ€Ł.đ„§.đĄŒ.â ââ ao3 version. playlist. header art twt/@5booosa. dividers by @cafekitsune
The air in December tastes like endings, bitter like smoke and cold enough to hurt.
Shoko stands alone beneath the harsh fluorescent glow of a streetlamp, cigarette trembling faintly between gloved fingers, the embers burning quietly, steadily, a small star of comfort in between her fingertips. Snow falls in careless spirals, catching in her hair, dusting her eyelashes, melting against her skin.
She watches her breath leave her body, a faint cloud in the chill, and thinks about how strange it isâhow terribly quiet the world becomes when thereâs nothing left but memory.
She swears it wasnât always this cold.
i. november, 1989
You were both born in early November, five days apart.
Shoko firstâsmall, silent, blue around the lips. Her mother would later tell her she hadnât cried, not even once. She just blinked up at the ceiling, like sheâd already seen too much of the world. You had come days afterâred-faced and furious, shrieking like youâd already been wronged.
Balance, their clanhead called it. One to make, one to unmake.
They grew up in a quiet prefecture, tucked between the mountains, where fog collected on windows in the morning and everything smelled like pine and old rain. Their family was not a traditional jujutsu clanânot in the way the Zenins or the Gojos wereâbut they still had blood that remembered power, blood that ran strangely cold.
Shoko discovered her technique earlyâreversed cursed energy, delicate and warm, the ability to stitch together what others could only destroy. It made her quiet, made her thoughtful, made her feel too responsible for things she didnât understand. You, on the other hand, were all forward motion and fury, manifesting offensive cursed techniques with raw instinct and terrifying precision.
You burned. Shoko cooled. A soldier and a healer.
It wasn't rivalry. It wasn't even contrast, really. It was rhythmâtwo halves of a heart, orbiting each other, moving through childhood in tandem. You protected her from bullies, from curses, from the dark under the bed. Shoko bandaged your scraped knees, held your hair back with her small hands when you threw up after manifesting your cursed technique for the first time, whispered questions into your shoulder late at night about whether theyâd ever be normal.
Neither of you wanted normal. Not really.
So when your mothers had suggested both of you for Jujutsu Techâyou didnât hesitate. It is the slight chill that Spring of 2005 that Shoko remembers most. Fifteen years old, uniforms theyâd taken customized to their liking just a month beforeâShoko, with her wide turtleneck and midi skirt. You, in a well-tailored blazer, and much to your motherâs disapprovalâa short skirt.
Even after the arguments and bickering, their mothers had cried. Their fathers had barely nodded at them. The train took them away to Tokyo with petals sticking to the window, and their only belongings in duffle bags at their feet. Shokoâs hands were cold where they held yours softly.
She was afraid. You werenât.
You had always loved the idea of being chosen, and Shoko just didnât want to be left behind.
And maybe thatâs how it all beganânot with power, or fate, or bloodlines. Just two girls stepping onto a train together, one chasing strength, the other running away from a world sheâd one day have to hold together with her hands.
ii. april, 2005
Jujutsu Tech was nothing like Shoko expected.
She thought it would be colder, older, more like the hospitals sheâd passed on the trainâtall and sterile and gray. But it was⊠softer. Vines curling around wooden buildings, laundry strung between windows, the hum of cicadas already testing their voices in the trees. it smelled like dirt and chalk and something faintly sweet, like sakura or summer air caught in the stairwells.
She didnât talk much those first couple of days. Neither did Suguru Geto.
They met on their first day of class, standing awkwardly apart. Shoko was pressed against the wall, you beside her like a shield, when she noticed himâblack hair long just at his shoulder, eyes unreadable, hands folded neatly behind his back like he was waiting for something more important than small talk. He caught her looking, and they didnât smile, but something passed between them anyway. A kind of shared silence.
Then came Gojo.
She had heard of him before, of course. the honored one, the destined boy of the Gojo Clan. He arrived like a stormâmessy white hair, too-tall frame stuffed into the uniform like it didnât quite belong to him. He talked too much, laughed too loud, tripped over his own shoes, and still managed to radiate something untouchable. He was awkward, undeniably gifted, and absolutely convinced he had nothing to learn from anyone.
Shoko didnât really like him.
You despised him worse, found him amusing. You would say he was infuriating, sureâbut interesting.
âHe thinks heâs better than everyone,â you whispered one night, grimacing into your pillow. âBut his ears turn red every time I catch him staring.â
Shoko rolled her eyes, gave you a half smile. âHeâs insufferable.â
âYou're just mad that he said you would look better if you grew out your hair.â you teased.
âThat's not true. I like my hair.â
âI like it too.â
âThen why does it matter to me what he thinks?â
But slowlyâso slowly it almost escaped her noticeâhe changed. He started making jokes with them. And regrettably, Shoko would sometimes laugh at something he said. He started sitting with them at lunch. Picked up Suguruâs habit of folding napkins into strange little birds. Borrowed Shokoâs pens and returned them. Awkwardly, with both hands. always with a muttered thanks.
He began learning them. Their rhythms. Their silences.
It was the end of summer when it started to feel like something real.
Missions were few and far between in those first months. They trained hard, sweat and bruises under the cherry blossoms, sparring on grass that still held morning dew. Shoko hated sparring. She wasnât built for itânot the way you were, with your reckless cursed technique and even more reckless joy.
But she tried. Because she had to. Because she wouldnât let herself be the weak link.
And Gojoâhe always held back when they fought. Even then, before he understood how to be gentle, he understood that she needed to win sometimes. Needed to prove that she could. He let her land hits, not because she needed help, but because he saw the way she looked at herself compared to the rest of them. She knew that Gojoâthe freak of nature he was with those blazing blue eyesâsaw her beneath her dry sarcasm and grins and tired eyes.
Suguru, on the other hand, never let her win. But he gave her pointers after. Explained why she slipped, what her stance betrayed. His feedback was quiet, clinical, never cruel. Always gave her a nod and a smile. Shoko trusted him for it.
Those were their blue springsâtheir youth washed in cloudless skies and laughter and rain-soaked uniforms drying on sun-warmed rocks. Those were the days of early friendships, of discovering who they were becoming.
They took the train into Tokyo for missions, packed into cars half-asleep, heads knocking against windows. You would always take the window seat. with your far too expensive mp3 player and ratty wired earbuds, youâd hum under your breath, fingers tapping a beat on your thigh. Gojo sprawled across two seats, his head inevitably ending up in someoneâs lap. Suguru read novels and pretended not to notice you and Gojoâs helpless bickering.
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The first storm of the summer comes sudden, like most things that mattered back then. Sheets of water turning the courtyard into a lake, petals plastered to the stones.
Gojo didnât run for cover. Of course he didn't. He stood in the middle of it all like some idiot, arms outstretched, hair plastered white against his forehead, laughing so loud it made the rain sound shy.
âYou'll catch a cold,â Suguru called from the walkway, voice dry as the towel slung around his shoulders.
âColds are a myth,â Gojo shot back, spinning in a circle, water flying from his sleeves. It wasn't rare back then for Gojo to turn off his infinity, especially for rain storms he used to practically bathe in.
Shoko watched from the step, dry under and an awning with a cigarette between her fingers. Smoking was a new habit sheâd picked up, in spite of the protests from her friends, in spite of the distaste and the mini interventions and scoldings youâd given her. All these years later, she canât really remember where it started from.
You had taken the cigarette from her fingers that day and threw it in the rain, leaving her a little frustrated. Then she watched as you tried not to smile, and bolted straight into the storm after Gojo, shoes kicking up water like wings.
The both of you were soaked in secondsâshrieking, colliding, their uniforms clinging like second skin. Grinning too bright for the gray sky above them.
â
They went on their first mission as a full team in late October.
A cursed spirit in a temple in the countrysideânothing particularly dangerous, but big enough to warrant the four of them. The four of you, as it turned out, had garnered somewhat of a reputation in the Jujutsu world by this point, even though it had only been a couple months into your first year. There was Gojo, being who he was, and then there were you and Geto, two special-grade hopefuls, and then Shoko, with her reverse cursed technique abilities. It was hard not to hear the excitement, the chatter from your seniors and teachers and higher-ups and worse, the curses, as they marveled at what potential the four of you possessed.
On their first mission together they took the train, bundled in thin jackets, feet tangled under the seats. You sat next to Gojo this time, their knees knocking occasionally as the train curved through the mountains. They didnât talk much, just passed a packet of rice crackers back and forth, you opening them with your teeth and Gojo laughing, soft, like he couldnât help it.
Suguru fell asleep with his head against the window. Shoko watched the landscape blur, temples and fields dissolving into dusk.
She remembers that October day clearly â because the first time they saw a body together was on a bridge, the river swollen black beneath it, the cold gnawing at their ankles. The mission shouldnât have had civilian casualties. It wasnât supposed to be anything. Yet their world didnât care about supposed to.
Shoko stood back as Suguru exorcised the curse, her hands clenching the strap of her med kit, heart banging against her ribs like it wanted out. When it was over, the corpse of the victim lay sprawled against the guardrail, mouth full of frozen air. A little girlâher hair so matted in blood Shoko couldnât tell what color it was anymore.
Gojo tried to crack a joke, to distill the buzzing in the airâsomething stupid about ghosts haunting bridgesâbut no one laughed, not even him. You touched Shoko's arm, light as breath, and for the first time Shoko wondered if maybe they werenât weapons at all. Maybe they were just kids with blood under their nails and no way out.
It's that night she remembers all these years later, coming home from the mission. They stayed up talking until sunrise. They lay on futons in someoneâs dorm room, the windows open, moths circling the lights.
âDo you ever think,â you had asked, staring at the ceiling. âThat weâre not meant to survive this?â
There's a quiet that fills the room, uncomfortable, like understanding the inevitable.
âDon't say that depressing shit,â Gojo said sharply, but his voice still held a hint of something that couldâve been mistaken for vulnerability.
âI'm serious. We're weapons. Tools. They'll use us until we break.â
âThen we donât break,â Suguru said quietly.
âOr we break together.â Shoko said, so softly no one answered.
That first year, they were just kids. Cursed kids, sure. But kids.
And even though Shoko knew betterâeven though she could already see the shape of blood and bodies and burials in the futureâshe let herself believe in nights like those. The four of them sprawled on the floor, laughing at someoneâs expense, playing cards and cheap candy wrappers littered on the floor.
In the way Gojo looked at you when he thought no one else saw.
In the way Suguru never raised his voice, but always listened.
In the way you gave your heart like the world hadnât hurt you yet.
In the way they all leaned on each other like scaffolding, like maybe if they held tight enough, they wouldnât fall.
iii. june, 2006
Summer in Tokyo hit different when you were sixteen and almost certain youâd die before twenty.Â
They werenât supposed to go outâthey had curfews, missions stacked like bones at the start of their second yearâcurses growing restless, schools asking for protection, strange whispers threading through reports about ancient prisons and shifting power balances. Still, they trained. Still, they laughed. Still, they stole naps on rooftops and dared each other to eat expired convenience store pudding.
Still, they were kids.
Gojo whined until Suguru sighed and gave in, and you had tugged Shoko by the wrist before she could protest.
The festival was a crush of lantern light and smoke, sweet batter curling through the air, fireworks cracking open the dark. You darted ahead, yukata swaying, hair pinned up with something glittering like starlight. Gojo stuck by your side, wolfing down skewers two at a time, Suguru following at a distance with his hands tucked in his sleeves, gaze flicking toward the crowd like a man always counting exits, but still roaring in laughter as Gojo almost chokes on his third kebab.
âTry this,â Gojo said, shoving a stick of candied fruit under Shoko's nose.
âI donât want your leftovers,â she muttered, unimpressed. But after a bit of nagging she took it anyway, quietly unwrapping it and biting through the sugar shell and pretending it wasnât goodâjust to spite him.
Fireworks bloomed overheadâwhite, then red, then a scatter of gold that turned every face strange and beautiful. For a moment, Shoko saw them like strangers: Suguru haloed in crimson, Gojoâs grin carved bright in the dark, and you tilting your head back to watch the sky like it would never fall.
The boom of the next firework swallowed her thoughts, and she let it.
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Shoko always thought the end would come like a fireworkâloud, blinding, impossible to ignore.
But it hadnât. It came instead like fog. Slow, creeping, impossible to trace where it started.
By the time they noticed it was already over, the fog of it had already filled the room.
She thinks she can trace every lamentable moment of her life back to that August of 2006.Â
Gojo, Geto, you and the star plasma vessel mission she hadnât been a part of. When she thinks back on it, she canât exactly understand what happened in that week to have changed the course of their entire lives. Was it before Gojo died in a bloody mess? Was it after he came back, blood-stained, eyes dark, buzzing with an energy that she acknowledgedâwith bated breathâhad finally crossed to godhood?
Gojo was stronger. Far stronger. Six eyes sharp as knives, his cursed technique threading into infinity like it had always been waiting for him to catch up. The elders watched him nowânot as a student, but as a threat. You noticed it too. Started staying closer to him, stepping between him and the higher-ups during briefings.
âThey're grooming him,â you told Shoko once. ânot for leadership. for war.â
Shoko looked at youâat the calluses on your hands, the scar on your jaw you hadnât let Shoko heal.
âThey're grooming all of us.â
You didnât deny it anymore.
â
There are softer things that year, where Shoko canât remember the exact moment things changed.
Only that something had slowed, gone hazy. Like the last layer of frost on a windowpane, melting so gently it almost went unnoticed.
It felt like fall had come early. The leaves on the techâs old trees went gold and red like theyâd been waiting to burn. There were still wounds to be tended to, and there were still things they couldnât talk about from the end of that summer.
But Gojo had grown taller over the summer, like his body had finally remembered he came from giants. His hair had grown shaggier, uniform didnât fit right anymore, and he refused to ask for a new one. Shoko watched him adjust his cuffs every morning like it was some kind of ritual, then pretend not to notice when you offered him your spare hair tie for his sleeves. He took it without meeting your eyes, and wore it like armor.
Shoko noticed the shift in the air. Maybe it was the way that you had started lingering after training, towel around your neck, laughter caught in your throat like a secret. Or the way Gojo stood straighter when you walked into a room, blinking too slow, like he hadnât meant to look. Maybe it was how the two of you had stopped fighting in that way you used toâloud, fast, like lightning cracking open the skyâand started teasing instead. Light, easy, ridiculous. Like you didnât know how else to be near each other.
Shoko noticed it in the quiet, in the pauses between conversations, and in the way you touched your own wrist absentmindedly whenever Gojo spoke, like grounding yourself. She noticed how Gojoâalways so proud of his attention spanâstarted forgetting what he was saying mid-sentence if you laughed too loud.
âYou're obvious,â Shoko told you one evening, as you stood in front of her dorm mirror brushing your teeth. It was practically your dorm now, too.
You spat into the sink. âHeâs worse.â
âYou're both insufferable.â
âHeâs insufferable. I'm charming.â
âHe told Nanami you punched him in the throat during training.â
âI did, so what? He totally deserved it.â
âI just canât believe he let you in the first place.â Shoko shook her head, and thought of the infinity around Gojo, the invisible barrier between him and humanity. The thing that put him closer to godliness. A smile curling at her lips despite herself, understanding the implications of Gojo turning it off around you. âAnd yet you still gave him your last Milkis at lunch.â
âIt was strawberry-flavored.â a shrug. âI don't like strawberry.â
Shoko didnât say anything else. Didnât point out the way you lingered when Gojo wasnât around, or how your voice got quieter when you talked about him. Didnât say that sheâd seen Gojo staring out windows when he thought no one was watching, fingers tapping the rhythm of your laugh on his thigh.
There was something sacred about their closeness. Something fragile and half-formed, still soft at the edges. Shoko didnât want to break it by naming it too soon.
She just watched. Just remembered.
Suguru was the only one who never commented.
He saw it tooâof course he didâbut he never overtly teased, only gave a knowing smile quietly to Gojo who would glare back, but never really poked at the obvious tension between the two. Maybe because he understood it, or maybe because he was the kind of person who noticed things and let them be.
He grew quieter that fall, but not in a way that worried her yet. It was more like he was watching, gathering. She felt like something was shifting behind his eyes, too slow and too early to name yet. He still joked with Gojo, still helped Haibara with his footwork, still spent long evenings reading next to Shoko in the common room without saying a word.
But he didnât smile as easily. And sometimes, when he thought no one was looking, he would close his eyes like the world was too loud.
Shoko didnât ask. She didnât know how.
Maybe she should have.
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It's late November and the mission went fine.
They exorcised the spirit, cleansed the space, burned the remains. but it was what happened after that stuck.
They stayed overnight in a small inn at the base of the mountain, just two roomsâboys in one, girls in the other. The floors were tatami, and the air smelled like cedar and sulfur from the hot springs nearby. it shouldâve been peaceful.
But Shoko couldnât sleep.
You lay on your side, back to Shoko, eyes open in the dark. She listened to the wind outside, the drip of water from a leaky faucet, the quiet hum of something that felt like change.
And then, sometime past midnight, you slipped out of bed.
Shoko didnât move, just watched the shadow cross the room, slide the door open, and vanish into the hallway.
It wasn't long before Gojo left too.
You werenât subtle. Maybe you didnât want to be.
Shoko waited a full minute before getting up. Her feet were cold on the floor. She didnât know what she expectedâto interrupt them, to tease them. She heard echoes in the hallway, but couldnât make out a word. Just the shuffling of feet, and the wind blowing against the door.
But when she found the two of you â you werenât touching.
You were standing in the snow-dusted garden outside the inn, facing each other, breathing visible in the cold. Your arms were folded tight across your chest. Gojo's hands were shoved deep into his coat pockets.
You werenât saying anything, but she felt this air around you two. In your distance, in the heavy breathing and puffs of smoke between your lips, like you had run out of words to say.
Now, you were just looking.
And maybe that was worse. More intimate, somehow.
Shoko didnât move. She stayed hidden by the shadows, her breath caught somewhere in her throat.
Then you reached forward.
Your hands touching Gojoâs cheek, just barely.
He flinched.
Not away. Not exactly. Just â startled. Like he hadnât expected you to be real.
Shoko could see it thenâhow scared he was. Not of you, but of what it meant to want something in a world like theirs.
âYou donât have to say anything,â you said quietly.
Gojo looked at you. âI should.â
âYou never say anything you donât mean.â
âI donât know how to mean this.â
A pause. Your breath hitched.
âJust donât look away.â
He didnât.
And she watched as you leaned in, closing your eyes for your first kiss. How his lashes had brushed against your cheek as he let you pull him in, his hand finding its way to hold your waist.Â
Shoko had left after that â witnessing a moment so intimate she felt shivers just watching it, intruding in it. Or maybe it was the cold that got her. But, she waited to sleep until you went back inside. Waited until you crawled into bed beside her again, colder than before, but smiling softly into the dark.
Neither of you said a word.
Shoko stared at the ceiling and tried not to think about how everything had already started to change.
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The next few weeks felt warmer, somehow. Like something had opened in their group that wasnât there before. Not just between Gojo and youâbut all of them.
They trained harder. Laughed more. She wanted to believe they were healing the cracks from that August, that the feeling of finality sinking into her wasnât real.
Even Suguru seemed lighter again. He stopped frowning at the radio when the news came on. Started humming again while he read. He taught Haibara about a complicated binding technique in the training yard one afternoon and let out a laugh when Haibara tried it himself. There was a momentâa brief, impossible momentâwhere Shoko almost believed in forever.
They sat on the school rooftop one evening, all four of them, sky streaked violet and pink and gold. Someone had brought a speaker, and someone else had brought a bottles of various soda. Music played low. She noticed that you had rested your head on Gojo's shoulder, and he didnât move, just leaned into it like gravity.
Suguru was telling a story about a curse he saw shaped like a crab. Shoko laughed. The wind was cool and sweet. The world didnât feel like it was ending yet.
âYou ever think weâll get out of this?â Suguru asked, voice low, cigarette between his lip.
âOut of what?â you asked.
âThis. Jujutsu. Destruction and death and chaosâwhatever it is.â
Gojo stared at the sky. âNo.â
âMaybe,â Shoko took the cigarette from Getoâs lips, and took a puff. âbut not whole.â
They sat in silence for a long time after that.
The sun set, and Shoko watched the light disappear behind Gojoâs glasses, behind your smile, behind the quiet curve of Suguru's mouth.
It felt like a beginning.
But all she could think about was how beautiful things always seemed, right before they broke.
iv. march, 2007
Itâs cruel to her, how the missions only seemed to get worse after that.
Higher-ranked, more volatile, more death. More nights in strange towns with blood on their hands. They started seeing each other less and less. In the aftermath of Riko Amaniâs death, after last August, that Gojo had been assigned onto more missions aloneâacknowledged for the first time in finality as the strongest. Started carrying all the mission files himself, memorizing them down to the street corners. Shoko started collecting more tools, more supplies, more sutures for the clinic at the tech, where she stayed more often than not now. She stopped wearing earrings because they got in the way of her face mask. You had learned how to kill without hesitation.
And she swore Suguru never complained about the missions he went on alone. But now he flinched when they passed playgrounds. Tensed when civilians asked for help. The curses he swallowed grew sharper, crueler. nastier, he had once told her late one night, the word leaving his tongue like he had coughed up bile.
âDon't let them suffer,â he said once, without blinking. âFast is better.â
Shoko nodded.
She didnât ask what he meant.
â
The last mission they took together was in the early spring of 2007, before the start of their third year.Â
A cult in Hiraizumiâdark rituals, civilian disappearances, cursed users hiding behind holy symbols and incense. They traveled light, only the four of them. It felt like the early days again, for a momentâsuitcases and jokes and Gojo making dumb puns as they checked into a cheap ryokan.
But the mission itself was ugly.
Children locked in closets. Blood on the temple floors. Curses formed from fear and starvation, clinging to walls like rot.
Suguru lost control halfway through.
Not of his technique. Not of his mind. But of his restraint.
He killed too quickly. Didnât wait for surrender, and didnât leave the last cursed user breathing long enough to answer questions.
Gojo grabbed him by the collar after.
âWhat the hell was that?â
âThey were killing kids.â
âThey were running away.â
âAnd they wouldâve kept going.âÂ
Gojo's hand tightened. his voice dropped. âWe follow orders.â
âDo we?â
Suguru's eyes burnedâhotter than Shoko had ever seen. âWhose orders, Satoru?â
Shoko watched you step between them. A hand on Gojo's chest. Your voice low. âNot here.â
Gojo dropped his hand, and Suguru had turned and walked away, scoffing.
The two of them didnât speak again the rest of the trip.
â
Haibara died not long after.
He had been brightâsun-bright, laughter-bright, too-young-to-fall-bright. He said âgood morningâ like it mattered. He addressed them all formally even when they told him to stop. He sparred with you like he was dancing, ate lunch with his mouth full, had dreams about being a sorcerer who saved people and meant it.
The mission was supposed to be simple.
Shoko remembers the call. A cursed womb, grade 3, nothing extraordinary. She remembers you saying, âtheyâre strong. Nanami'll be with him. theyâll be fine.â
They werenât.
What came back wasnât a body, not really. It was a mess of limbs and red and something too silent to be the Haibara she had known.
Nanami carried him. Wouldnât let go, even as his uniform soaked a darker shade from the blood.
Shoko stitched Haibara's body together with shaking handsânot to save him. Just so his mother could recognize his face.
You threw up in the courtyard after the funeral. Gojo didnât speak. Suguru didnât cry.
Grief had finally split the group like glass under pressureâfracture lines running between them, invisible until the light hit just right.
Gojo got louder. More obnoxious, more ridiculous. He made jokes during meetings, fell asleep in class, tripped over his own feet just to make you laugh.
And you did laugh. Loud and real and reckless. But there was something sharp underneath it. A glint in your voice. A kind of defiance.
Suguru got even quieter.
Not the peaceful kind of quiet. Not the kind that meant calm or ease.
This was the kind that clung to him. That narrowed his eyes when he passed civilians on the street. That curled his lip when they reported to elders who hadnât lifted a hand in battle in years. That made him look at Haibaraâs photo like it was a question that would never be answered.
Shoko felt it most at night.
Suguru used to accidentally fall asleep reading in the common room, head tilted back, glasses slipping. Now, he sat up long after everyone else had gone to bed, staring at nothing, fingers curled like he was still gripping a weapon.
She said something once. Tried to, at least.
âAre you okay?â she asked quietly, as they stood in the hall one night. She canât recall why, or where, but she remembers this moment because there has never been a part of her that hadnât wished she had pushed back harder.
Suguru looked at her.
His smile was soft, fake. âYeah.â
By then she knew he was gone.
â
A couple weeks later, in the midst of an August heatwave â Suguru Geto disappears.
He left a note on the dorm kitchen table and a photo of the four of them.
Just one sentence: I can't do this anymore.
The rest was silence.
Shoko found it first. She read it twice, then sat down at the table and stared at the handwriting until you walked in and asked where everyone was.
Gojo didnât say anything after meeting with Yaga. Didnât come out of his room for the rest of the morning.
Though itâs the last time she sees Suguru, she understands this is it.
She had heard, just a little after reading his final note, what heâd done. A town massacred, burned to the ground and cursed residuals that couldnât have been anyoneâs but the man next to her â his own mother and father killed by their only sonâs hands.Â
Yet here he was, lighting her cigarette for her and laughing. At least she could pretend for a moment that this didnât have to be over.
She gives Gojo a call and waits with Suguru for his best friend to arrive and she wonders if Gojo could change the outcome of this. If Gojo Satoru could save Suguru Geto from himself. But another glance up at him, long hair disheveled, the purpled skin under his eyes deeper than sheâs ever seen, and the emptiness behind his smile, that she realizes she doesnât know the man next to her. Not anymore. Maybe not at all.
So he waves goodbye, and she nods and lets the smoke cloud her lungs.
And she never spoke to him again.
â
That winter, the sky felt heavier. The air full of ghosts.
You stopped wearing bright colors. Started sleeping in your uniform, like you expected to be called into battle at any second. Gojo trained until his hands bled, and didnât let Shoko bandage them.
âWhat if heâs right?â he asked her once. His voice barely audible. âWhat if weâre just killing things to delay the inevitable?â
Shoko didnât answer, because she didnât know. (Because something in her still wanted to believe.)
But by the end of that year she had found herself alone more often.
In the morgue. On the roof. In the silence between patrols. She smoked less, not because she wanted to live longer. Just because it didnât feel worth the taste anymore.
You had stopped talking about the future.
Gojo stopped calling himself the strongest.
They were eighteen then. Too young to have seen so much. Too old to unsee any of it.
v. 2008
The years felt blurry after.
Like the sky after a firework show, after the beauty of it wears and you are left with the remains. Of the sky billowed in smoke, and the ground covered in ash. Shoko remembers the firework show during the summer festival in their second year, how she had watched the lights change your faces. How when she thinks of Suguru, she remembers him back then, hair in a half bun, wearing a yukata, his profile cast under the red glow of fireworks.
Mission after mission. Report after report. Half-empty dorm rooms. Birthdays that passed unnoticed. Names that became numbers. More curses. More blood. Fewer friends.
By then she had stopped smoking entirely, not because she wanted to live. But because you had always hated the smell.
And for a long time after Suguru left, Shoko couldnât sleep without dreaming of the morgue.
The lights were always too bright. The steel trays too cold. Her gloves slick with blood that would never dry. In the dream, you always walked in firstâwhole, alive, laughing. And Shoko would reach for you. Call your name. But you would just smile, step onto the autopsy table, and lie down.
âYou're early,â Shoko would whisper.
âI know.â you would say.
Then the door would swing open, and Suguru would walk in next. But his face would be hollowed out, eyes dark like tunnels. He'd sit beside your body, light a cigarette, and say nothing at all.
Shoko always woke up with her hands clenched tight around the sheets, fingers aching.
â
Gojo never talked about Suguru.
Not once.
Not even on that day all those years ago when he came back from the confrontation in Shinjuku with blood in his nails and grief in his eyes.
He got stronger. Faster. Untouchable.
The elders stopped looking at him like a student and started looking at him like their greatest tool. He didnât flinch, just started smiling bigger, make louder jokes, wore sunglasses indoors, and flirted and teased and deflected.
Shoko could see it, thought. In the slump of his shoulders, or the way his laugh caught wrong in his throat.
He was grieving like a dam breaking. Slowly and inevitably.
But never where anyone could see.
You stayed close to him after that. Stopped being fire and became gravity. Quiet and steady. The only thing that could bring him back when he started spinning too fast. You were the one who waited outside meetings. The one who kicked open his door and pulled him out of bed on the days he refused to get up, muttering, âIf you donât move, I'll set your curtains on fire.â
He always moved. Shoko thinks that itâs less because he believed in your vague threats, and more because he just believed in you.
Shoko watched it all from the edge.
The way you stopped waiting for him to say how he felt. The way you just stood thereâopen, unwaveringâuntil he stopped running.
The two of you never made it official. Not with labels. Not with grand declarations or anything, But Gojo started showing up late to meetings because he walked you home.
Shoko didnât know if it was healing, but for a while, it was peace.
vi. april, 2009
Around this time, the Fushiguroâs arrived.
Megumi. Six years old. Too serious. too quiet. walked around everyone like he was ready to hit, or be hit. His older sister, Tsumiki. Not older by much, just eight years old, but she was sunshine, warm and motherly beyond her years. Shoko saw that you took to her instantly, buying her hair clips and braiding her hair â showing her how to throw a punch if she ever needed to.
Gojo brought them to the school with a box of takeout and a stubborn glint in his eye. "Don't say anything weird,â he told you and shook. âHe already thinks Iâm an idiot.â
âHe's not wrong,â you smiled, and Gojo pouted at you.
Shoko bent down to meet the boyâs eyes, unsure of what to say. âHmm. Whatâs something you like?â
He shrugged, and gave her an unimpressed look. âI like dogs.â
âMe too,â she said. âTheyâre honest.â
That night, they all sat in the common room eating cold noodles. Gojo told a story about a cursed tanuki that stole his left shoe. Megumi didnât laugh, but he leaned into his sister when she did. Shoko watched as he leaned by Gojo's side as the lights went out.
You and Gojo had opened your arms and made space for the two of them.
Or maybe you had filled in the spaces left behind.
â
Gojo cooked more, and wasn't great on his first try, surprisingly. Shoko had to supervise so he didnât poison anyone, and you wouldâve eaten anything Gojo cooked, regardless.
Shoko watched as the four of them fell into something like a rhythm. Not a family. Not quite.
But something softer than she had become used to.
The kids brought color back to the halls when they came to visit. Laughter that didnât feel borrowed. It wasn't like beforeâbut nothing ever was.
Gojo had bought an apartment for Megumi and Tsumiki, and the two of you stopped by almost everyday that year. You and Gojo made bento boxes. You went on grocery runs. You argued over what show to watch on Saturday nights. When Shoko would come over, Tsumiki would beg to paint Shokoâs nails, and once she had given in with her nails painted badly in rainbow and glitter, and you and Gojo had made fun of her for weeks when Shoko didnât wipe it off.
You stopped wearing your uniform outside missions. Started wearing sweaters with loose sleeves, earrings again, mismatched socks.
You started reading books and magazines and things that werenât just mission reports. Bought a plant for their windowsill. Put post-it notes on the fridge.
Shoko found one once that said, âSatoru, if you forget to buy me dorayaki again, I swear to God.â
He forgot anyway, but he came back late that night with flowers.
Shoko watched from the couch as you opened the door, just to see you blinking down at the bouquet like it had grown a second head.
âThey didnât have dorayaki,â he said, sheepish. âBut they had these.â
You didnât speakâjust grabbed the collar of his coat and stepped into the apartment hallway with him, shutting the door without looking.
Shoko looked away, and gave them the evening. She hung out with the kids, because they were cooler, and let them sleep on the couch watching movies.
Itâs after they had fallen asleep, and you and Gojo were nowhere to be seen, that she sat on the balcony and watched the city lights flicker, listening to the hum of traffic into the night.
For the first time in months, she felt⊠full.
Not happy. Not yet healed.
But full, like maybe all her pieces had stopped rattling.
Just for now.
â
She still worked long hours, because the clinic never slept.
New students. New injuries. New names she tried not to memorize.
She stitched and cut and stabilized and cleaned. Practiced her technique until it no longer felt like a gift but a reflex.
She stopped praying, though she had never been good at it anyway.
But every time a body came in, not yet cold, not yet gone, she held her breath.
Please, not them.
â
They didnât talk about the past. At least not often.
But sometimes, when you had already fallen asleep and the wind whistled through the hallways, Gojo would sit next to her on the balcony and say things in a tone older than his twenty years.
âHe liked soba more than ramen. I never knew that.â
And Shoko would nod.
âHe read faster than anyone,â sheâd add. âeven me.â
âHe believed in this more than we did.â
âYeah.â
Then silence.
Then the night.
Then the world turning, regardless.
â
Shoko isnât sure what time it is now, but it feels like a bit past midnight. In here, itâs just the two of you on the couch with the weight of exhaustion like a second blanket. The balcony door is half-open, and the September chill is blowing in softly. Thereâs a glass of wine balanced precariously on the edge of the coffee table, that she keeps forgetting to drink, and youâve got your legs tucked underneath you, hair damp from a shower, wearing one of those shirts thatâs probably his â though neither of you ever acknowledges it out loud.
Shoko tips her head against the back of the couch, eyes tracing the ceiling like itâll tell her the future, and mutters, âI feel so old.â
You laugh, soft, incredulous. âWeâre twenty-one.â
âExactly. And yet my back feels like Iâm fifty.â You give her a side glance, smiling.
âMy back feels perfectly fine, granny.â
âThatâs because you have two little minions who give you back massages whenever you ask. And they canât say no because you house and feed them.â
You nudge her knee with your own, half-amused, half-affectionate. âTheyâd starve if it wasnât for us.â
âTheyâd at least learn how to cook instant ramen properly,â she fires back, though her tone is fond. She knows it as well as you doâhow Megumi sometimes falls asleep at the kitchen table with his homework still out, how Tsumiki always insists on washing the dishes even when her fingers are pruned from her bath. How the apartment has begun to feel not just like a place to sleep, but like the kind of home you were never supposed to have.
It makes her chest ache.
She glances at you again, more carefully this time. âYouâre happy, right?â
You blink at her, then tilt your head like you donât quite understand the weight of the question. âHappy?â
âYou know what I mean.â Shoko shrugs, too casual. âWith all this â and with him.â
There it is. Not accusatory, just curious, like sheâs been holding this thought in her mouth for months, letting it turn over until it smoothed into something she could say without breaking it.
Youâre quiet for a moment, your gaze lowering to the glass of wine you still havenât touched. âItâs not simple.â
âNothing ever is with him.â She huffs a small laugh, but she doesnât look away from you.
âSometimes,â you admit, your voice softer, âit feels like weâre still kids, sneaking out after curfew, daring each other to jump rooftops. And then sometimes I look at him and I feel likeââ You break off, shaking your head as though itâs too fragile to name.
âLike what?â
You exhale slowly. âLike he already belongs to the world, and Iâm just borrowing him for a while.â
That hits Shoko harder than she expects. She shifts on the couch, watching the way your fingers worry at the hem of your sleeve. Thereâs something unguarded in the way you say it, something that makes her throat tighten.
Shoko leans her head against the couch cushion, her glass dangling loosely from her fingers. âYou talk like heâs a library book or something. Checked out, due back in three weeks.â
You laugh, though itâs small and tired. âMaybe thatâs all love really is. Borrowing someone for as long as theyâll let you keep them.â
âMorbid.â
âHonest.â You glance at her, and your smile is crooked, fond. âYou know him. Heâs⊠a hurricane in human form. Everyone wants a piece of him, and half the time I feel like Iâm just holding on, hoping he doesnât blow past me.â
Shoko hums, noncommittal, but her eyes are sharp. âAnd yet youâve been holding on for who knows how long. Most people canât even last five minutes with him in a room.â
âDonât remind me,â you mutter, though your lips curve. âHe still leaves his socks everywhere. Still eats candy for breakfast if I donât stop him. And heââ You pause, and the softness of your voice betrays you. âHe still looks at me the same way he did when we were sixteen. Like he canât believe Iâm real.â
Shoko conceals her smile, and masks it with a sip of wine. âHeâd be an idiot not to.â
âI think about it sometimes,â you admit. âIf we hadnât met so young. If we hadnât been thrown together in that pressure cooker of a school â would it have still been him? Would he have still found me?â
Shoko stretches her legs out, her gaze slipping toward the ceiling. âI think he was always going to be yours, you know. Some things just⊠fix themselves in place before you even notice.â
You fall quiet, staring at the wine in your glass, watching the way the light fractures against it. When you speak again, itâs hushed. âIâm scared, Shoko. Iâ I think Iâm scared of losing him. Of the day the world asks for more than he can give, and I have to watch him walk toward it anyway.â
Shoko doesnât answer right away. She looks at you â really looks â the girl who grew up at her side, who always chose kindness even when it cost you. You, who Gojo has loved since he was growing into his height, awkward and half-feral with grief and brilliance. You, who still look at him like heâs worth the trouble.
Finally, she says, âYou know, when we were teenagers, I used to wonder if youâd grow tired of him. If one day youâd realize it was too much.â
You blink at her, startled. âAnd now?â
Shoko shrugs, her expression softening. âNow I think â if anyone was ever built to love him, it was you. Stubborn, patient, stupidly brave. Heâs impossible, but youâve always made the impossible look easy.â
Your laugh catches in your throat, trembling somewhere between joy and sorrow. âDonât make me cry, Shoko.â
âWouldnât dream of it.â She lifts her glass in a lazy toast. âTo you and him. To sixteen and twenty-one, and however long you can keep borrowing each other.â
You tap your glass gently against hers, the sound ringing low and warm. âTo growing older.â
Shoko watches the way your face lights up at the thought, and takes a long sip from her glass. She tries for levity, though it comes out a little rough. âWell, if he breaks your heart, I get to kill him. Thatâs the rule.â
You laughâreally laugh this time, the kind that crinkles your eyes and warms the air between you. âYouâd have to fight him first.â
âPlease,â she scoffs. âHeâs all bark. Iâd win.â
âYouâre funny, Shoko.â You smile a little sleepily, and lean your head against her shoulder, the way you used to when you were girls hiding from the elders in the back hallways of the clan compound. She doesnât move, just lets you settle there, the weight of you a reminder that some things never change.
Thereâs a long stretch of silence, broken only by the city hum outside. Then, almost shyly, Shoko says, âWell, I hope he loves growing old with you as much as I loved growing up with you.â
You still against her, then let out a breath that sounds dangerously close to a sob. She doesnât look at you, doesnât push. Thatâs never been your language. Instead, she reaches for her wine, takes another sip, and adds, almost casually, âAnd if he doesnât, then screw him. Youâll still have me.â
You laugh again, watery this time, and lean closer. âAlways.â
â
In the mornings, she drank coffee alone.
In the evenings, she liked to come to your apartment to the sound of laughter, and nonsense on the TV. To the smell of your cooking, which had gotten better than Gojoâs after a couple months. to Tsumiki and her hands that grabbed Shokoâs wrists and led her to the dining table. To Megumi, who Gojo tried so hard to make smile at his awful jokes.
Sometimes, she let herself believe it could last.
Sometimes, she let herself want more.
That was enough.
vii. 1997
When they were seven, you and Shoko built a grave for a bird.
Theyâd found it after a storm â a small thing, all bones and feathers, collapsed in the mud beneath a persimmon tree in the compoundâs garden. You crouched beside it, poked it with a stick. âIs it sleeping?â
âNo,â shoko said. âIt's dead.â
âHow do you know?â
âIts chest isnât moving.â
âHow do you know?â
Shoko didnât answer. Just knelt down, tiny hands damp with soil, and began to dig.
They buried it beneath a square stone, lined the edges with pebbles. You picked wildflowers and bundled it with twine from the kitchen. Shoko pressed her fingers to the earth and whispered something she didnât really understand â a wish, maybe, or a prayer.
They sat there until the wind died down, until your mother called them in, until the sky turned the color of ash.
âWe shouldâve saved it,â you whispered, wiping your nose with your sleeve.
Shoko didnât say it, but she knew it then: sometimes youâre too late.
â
january, 2014
The call comes at 2:19 in the afternoon, a higher-upâs voice, clipped and formal.
âSheâs been recovered. Weâre bringing you the body now.â
The world doesnât spin, it just stills. Though Shoko sits at her desk for a long time after, the phone silent in her lap, her hands empty.
Shoko doesnât ask whose, because thereâs only one person left.
She's already standing.
Her coatâs already on.
Her teaâs gone cold. The light in the infirmary has gone muddled and slanted, painting long shadows over everything like a warning.
Her hands move automatically. Clipboard.Pen. Gloves.
The air starts to feel static.
The mission was supposed to be easy. âA clean-up.â A second sweep.She repeats, and repeats. Yet how many other times has she thought this?
You werenât supposed to go alone, but someone backed out last minute, and you were never one to wait around.
Grade one curse. Warehouse District.
Shoko remembers the briefing because she was in the room. Because you had smiled â tilted your head, chewing gum, loose-limbed and tired. âIâll be home quick.â
But when she sees the body, it doesnât feel like you.
Not you. Born five days apart. The soldier to her healer. Balance, the clanheads had once called them. One to make and unmake.
Not the same girl who used to share her shampoo, or talk in her sleep. Not the girl who burned bright and reckless and kissed Gojo Satoru like it was the only truth left in the world.
The word balance keeps running through her head as she stares at your face. So still.
No, it wasnât you. This body is cold, and broken in ways Shoko doesnât have the words for.
Her gloves are on. Her cursed energy thrums at her fingertips.
But itâs all useless.
The wounds are clean. Carved into you like declarations. Chest collapsed, Ribs fractured inward. Shoko's already cataloging the report in her head. Trachea crushed. Internal hemorrhaging. Cursed lacerations across the sternum.
Then she moves.
Like a surgeon. like a healer with something to prove, even if thereâs no one left to prove it to.
She doesnât try to bring you back. Not really. She's seen too many bodies to believe in resurrection.
She stitches muscle back together like itâll matter. Seals split skin. Brushes blood from your scalp. A ritual, maybe. or penance. And as she runs her fingers through the ends of your hair, she thinks of being five years old when you had taught her how to braid it.
When she feels her vision blur she whispers, âdonât be stupid,â just like you used to.
Her voice doesnât tremble until the end.
Too late, she thinks, and she sees a dead bird cupped in your small hands. Wildflowers wrapped in twine.
Too late, too late, too late.
She writes the report with mechanical precision.
Her handwriting doesnât shake.
She signs it, and place it on top of the clipboard.
Then folds your arms across your chest, straightens your uniform collar, uses a towel to wipe a smudge from your chin, and the drawer of the morgue clicks shut with a hollow finality.
And she finally lets herself cry.
Just once.
Quietly.
Like a confession.
â
Shoko takes the train without really knowing why sheâs chosen this route over the school car. After she explained what she was doing, Ijichi had told her he could drive her with a solemn look in his eyes, always so insistent. She had declined, so now she sits by the window, forehead pressed to the cold glass, the tunnel lights strobing against her reflection until her own face starts to look like a strangerâs.
She's still in her work clothes, still smells faintly of antiseptic and smoke, and the folder in her lap feels heavier than it should. She keeps one hand pressed flat to its cover like sheâs holding a wound closed.
People filter in and out of the train at each stop, their chatter muted, just faint shapes moving through her periphery.
She doesnât meet anyoneâs eyes. The only thing she lets herself look at is the glass, and the snow on the other side of itâeach flake blurring against the motion of the city, small and perfect and already gone.
Yaga had told her, after, that Satoru wasnât told yet, but she wonders if he already knows. If some part of himâwhatever raw, uncanny instinct makes him the strongestâregistered it the moment your heart stopped. Maybe he felt it like an earthquake deep in his bones, the sudden, wrong absence in the air. Maybe he was sitting on their couch, turning toward the door without knowing why.
Her mind drifts, unspooling memory:
Summer afternoons, the four of them sitting on the roof with drinks to cool the sweat on them. Your hair tangled from the wind. Gojo leaning back on his palms, his sunglasses pushed to the top of his head so she could clearly see the way his gaze snagged on you like he didnât even notice he was staring. The quiet shift over months from banter to something slower, gentler, like theyâd started speaking a language that Shoko didnât know but could still recognize in the spaces between words.
A late night after a mission, all of them exhausted, half asleep in the common room. Shoko had woken to see them leaning together on the couch, your head on his shoulder, his hand resting loosely on yours. The kind of touch that wasnât accidental.
There had been other momentsâquieter, private ones she hadnât meant to seeâthat told her this was the thing that had changed him. He'd always been brilliant, unbearable, untouchable. but with you, his edges softened. He laughed differently. He listened.
Now she wonders how much of that sheâs about to take from him in a single sentence.
The train slows into her stop, brakes screeching. She rises, folder in hand. She doesnât know why she carries the hardcopyâmaybe it makes it feel more real, more final, more like evidence of something she already failed to prevent.
She had stopped by a gas station and bought a pack of cigarettes and a small black lighter for the first time in almost six years. Thereâs now a cigarette clamped between her teeth, though she hasnât lit it.
Snow is falling.
It catches in her hair, her sleeves, her lashes.
When she reaches their apartment building, she stops at the bottom of the stairs and thinks about turning around. But she doesnât. She climbs each step like sheâs approaching a grave.
The lightâs on under the door.
She raises her hand.
And knocks.
â
The door opens almost immediately.
And for a second â just one, flickering, incandescent second â Shoko sees the look on his face.
Gojo Satoru opens the door like he expects you to be behind it. Not Shoko. Not grief incarnate. But you. The woman he loves. The only thing in the world that could quiet his mind and hold his entire future in her palms.
He opens the door like someone in love. Like someone relieved. Like someone who still dares to hope.
And then he sees Shoko.
And everything stops.
His face doesnât fall.
It freezes.
She watches the hope die in his expression. It doesnât vanish â it dies. Like something physically collapsing inside of him. A structure caving in, silently, under its own weight.
His shoulders lock, and she watches his jaw tense. He doesnât move aside to let her in, doesnât say a word.
Just stares.
He looks at her like he had known this would be how it ended all along, but still â still, deep down, some piece of him had been holding on. Had left the light on. Had made her side of the bed. Had waited.
Shoko clears her throat.
The words donât want to come.
"Iâm sorryâsheâs gone.â
That's all it takes.
Gojo doesnât flinch.
But she sees it in the way his hand clenches around the edge of the door. The way his breath leaves him â sharp, shallow, wrong. The way he looks past her, like heâs trying to reframe the hallway, the scene, the moment.
Like maybe he can rewind it.
Undo it.
See you behind her, scolding her for delivering bad news so bluntly.
But Shoko is alone, and the silence is loud.
He steps back, and turns.
Walks into the apartment like everything inside was knocked over.
Shoko follows and shuts the door behind her.
The apartment is dim. Bathed in soft warm light. The heater hums gently in the corner, and there are two mugs on the table, one empty and one half-drunk. Your sweater is still hanging over the back of the couch, sleeves inside out. Your boots are by the door. The windows are covered by sheer white curtains, but the shade of blue that appears just after sunset peeks through, framing the room the same color as melancholy.
Shoko wants to scream.
Instead, she places the folder on the table.
Neither of them look at it.
She taps the folder once, not to push him, but to make its presence undeniable.
âAre you going to read it?â
His back is still to her. She can see the angle of his spine through the thin cotton of his shirt, every muscle tight, like heâs bracing for impact.
With no hesitation, âNo.â
Shoko expected that answer, but she still feels something drop in her chest.
âYou sure? Itâs not⊠itâs not just medical jargon. I kept it clean. No gore.â
He turns his head just enough for her to see one sharp eye over his shoulder.
âYou want me to read the autopsy for the love of my life?â
She pauses, feeling herself hold her breath.
âI want you to know what happened,â she says, voice level. âExactly what happened. Without the stories youâll tell yourself later.â
He scoffsâa sound halfway between disbelief and exhaustionâand shakes his head.
âThe story I want is that youâre lying.â
Silence.
He pushes away from the counter, crosses to the table. His height makes the space between them smaller without him even trying. He puts a hand on the folder like he might open itâthumb brushing the edge, fingers curling.
And then he just⊠freezes.
Shoko watches him, and for the first time she sees itânot the usual walls, the sarcasm, the easy dismissal. This is different. This is a man standing at the edge of a cliff, staring down, knowing thereâs nothing but rocks and cold water below.
âI can't,â he says finally, and itâs not defiance. It's quiet. almost gentle.
âWhy?â
he swallows, eyes still on the folder.
âBecause the second I read it, itâs over. She's gone in ink. In numbers. In your handwriting.â he glances up at her, and thereâs no shield in his expression now. âIf I don't read it, sheâs just⊠late coming home.â
Shoko's throat tightens.
For a moment, she wants to tell him she understands. That sheâs done the sameâtaken certain pages out because the words make her feel sick. But she doesnât. She just nods, takes the folder back, tucks it under her arm again.
He exhales like heâs been holding his breath the whole time.
Heâs not moving.
Not breathing, maybe.
His hand rests on the counter like itâs the only thing keeping him upright and she watches his shoulders shake.
Once.
Then still again.
His face is unreadable.
But his eyes â god, his eyes.
Shoko has known him for more than a decade, has seen him bloodied and laughing and blind with pain and victory. But she has never seen him like this.
Not even after Suguru.
Not even after Toji.
This isnât rage.
This isnât despair.
This is something else.
Something jagged. Something bottomless.
He looks at her like sheâs the executioner. Like she didnât just bring the news â but she made it true. But maybe, in some way, heâs right to feel that way.
âYouâre sure that sheâsâ?â he asks, voice quiet. She couldâve mistaken his tone for desperation.
Shoko nods.
That's when it happens.
He laughs.
Short, ugly, and bitter.
An instinct, like flinching.
He runs a hand through his hair. Leans back against the counter.
The quiet settles like dust.
Shoko sits down on the couch. something crackles beneath her â one of your notebooks. She picks it up, flips it open without thinking.
The last page is filled with sketches. a little cartoon version of Gojo, grinning, speech bubble saying âhave you seen my honey?â
Her throat tightens.
She doesnât speak.
âI thought I had more time,â he says. Shoko doesnât have it in her to speak.
âI wanted to take her to Okinawa again. Not for a mission this time. Just because.â
He closes his eyes.
âShe never got to see it in winter. She wouldâve liked the cold.â
And she stays the night on their couch. Like old times, except there is no wine and no laughter and your warmth isnât beside her. Shoko never really registered that sheâll never see you again. Even now, it feels like youâll call her at any moment and ask her if she wants a drink.
But that first night without you, she doesnât think she could really fall asleep.
And he doesnât really cry.
But in the morning, he makes coffee with hands that wonât stop shaking.
She drinks hers cold, and so does he. But she watches him press your mug to his lips and set it down again, like it burned him.
â
august, 2014
Gojo is twenty four, and heâs older than he was meant to be. More tired than he lets on, and somehow still waiting for something that already ended.
Sometimes, when itâs late, and the city is loud, and the stars donât show themselvesâShoko catches him leaning against the doorway of his apartment balcony, looking at the buildings and cars and passerbys like heâs trying to remember the shape of your face.
And that, she thinks, is love.
Not flowers.
Not vows.
Not even the waiting.
But the remembering.
The carrying.
The way his world stopped. The way he never quite leaves the doorway, just in case you might still come home to him.
viii. 2015
Grief, when it lingers long enough, becomes routine.
Shoko wakes the same way every morning: early, cold. the city a dull hum outside her window. The kettle clicks on. She measures out coffee. Drinks it black, because thatâs how you liked it, and then cooks konnyaku because you hated it.
The irony keeps her company.
The mornings are always quiet now. The kind of quiet that settles into your bones and stays.
And Nanami leaves the Jujutsu world around that time.
Quietly. Respectfully. Without fuss.
He came to her clinic on a Tuesday, knocked once, sat down across from her, and said, "I'm leaving.â
She didnât ask why, because she felt like she already knew.
He was twenty three and already looked like heâd seen the end of the world twice.
âYou'll be good,â she said softly. âToo good for this place.â
Nanami looked away. âI just want to live like a person.â
She envied him for thinking it was still possible.
Before he left, he placed a small paper-wrapped gift on her desk.
Inside was a lighter, clean, silver, unused.
She held it in her palm for a long time that night.
But she didnât smoke.
Not yet.
â
She sees Gojo more often these days.
Not because they talk more, and not because they seek each other out. Just because thereâs no one else left.
They donât need to make plans anymore. They just end up in the same places. The clinic. The faculty room. The convenience store on that street with the broken traffic light.
Sometimes he brings her canned coffee. Never says anything when he hands it to her.
She drinks it anyway.
Itâs the only thing he offers that she can still take.
And he laughs a little more now, but itâs not the same.
When he does, itâs wrong. Jagged. Like something trying to escape from under his skin. It reminds her that heâs still grieving, even when he tells her âheâs over it.â
The students adore him. Still think heâs invincible, and think the blindfolds and wit and charm are who he really is.
 But Shoko knows better.
â
december, 2017
Suguru's death didnât come like she expected, though to her, Suguru Geto had died the August they were seventeen.
From the outside, he went out in flame and fury.
But then again, it feels like he went out quietly. Gently. By Gojoâs own hands.
Because, in the end, that was the only way it couldâve happened.
Not in hatred or vengeance, but in recognition of what theyâd been. Of what theyâd lost. Of the thin line between who you are and who you become when the world stops making sense.
âIt was quick,â Gojo told her afterward, his voice steady, eyes blown wide with something far beyond pain.
Shoko believed him. Not because she trusted the words, but because she trusted the silence between them.
â
She thinks of Suguru now more than she admits.
Remembers how he used to hum under his breath while taking notes. How heâd hand her highlighters during meetings without looking. How he used to let them braid his hair on missions just to make them smile.
Remembers the way he stood the last time she saw him, on the night of the cursed paradeâback straight, curses curling around him like smoke, eyes tired in a way that made her want to scream.Â
He broke long before he died.
Shoko knows this.
She also knows he wouldâve been a wonderful teacher.
If the world had been kinder, and if someone had stopped to tell him that softness wasnât weakness. That wanting to save people didnât make him naĂŻve.
That watching them die wasnât his fault.
â
Gojo comes to dinner sometimes.
Not often or predictably. Sometimes he just knocks, steps inside, doesnât take his shoes off properly, and drops onto her couch like he owns the place.
She used to yell at him for that, but now she just lets him.
He eats whatever she makes. Doesnât complain, even when itâs instant ramen or cold rice or nothing at all.
They donât talk much during those nights.
But sometimes, he falls asleep.
And sometimes, she covers him with the old blanket you used to use when you were over â just because. Just to remember what it felt like to care for someone who was still breathing.
There's one night that she remembers, after a long day of treating a couple injured sorcerers in the midst of a mission, that she finds him already waiting.
In the kitchen, cutting vegetables.
âWhat are you doing?â she asks, flatly.
âTrying to give you a break,â he says.
âBy mutilating my carrots?â
âThey fought back.â
She puffs a breath from her nose and smiles.
Itâs the closest sheâs come to laughing in days.
He makes curry. It's too spicy. The rice is slightly undercooked â but itâs not half bad.
She eats every bite, and doesnât thank him for showing up.
Theyâre not close, not in the way people imagine. They donât tell each other secrets. They donât hug. They donât reminisce out loud. Their bond lies in the memory of what it meant to be sixteen and still whole. Of how it felt watching the strongest boy in the room slowly learn how to be gentle. Of seeing him break and build and break again.
Of surviving the wreckage together.
He keeps her from vanishing. She keeps him from shattering.
They exist near each other.
Orbiting.
Keeping each other tethered.
â
Shoko's the only one who doesnât have a grave.
Not really.
Haibara's is now marked in a clean Kyoto cemetery. Suguru's ashes were never recovered, but thereâs a stone for him outside his old temple. You have a simple plaque under the oak tree they used to study beneath.
Shoko visits them all, but she doesnât linger.
Because itâs not the places that hold them.
Itâs the way she still turns her head when someone says âGetoâ in a briefing. Itâs the way she keeps chopsticks in her drawer for four, not one. It's the way she wakes from a dream, disoriented and reaching for an image of herself, of when her hair was cut to her chin and she is surrounded by people who were once her home â before she remembers that no oneâs coming.
Though, there's a new photo on her desk now.
Four teenagers. Uniforms on and grins wide.
Gojo has his eyes closed. Suguru is pretending to look annoyed. Youâre flipping off the camera. Shoko is mid-laugh, mouth open, eyes crinkled.
She doesnât remember who took it.
Doesnât remember what they were laughing at.
But she leaves it there.
Next to the medical files and the pills and the list of new students.
Itâs a reminder â not of who they were, but that they were. That at one point in time, the four of them had existed together. That at some point, that was all that mattered.
ix. december 24, 2018
The first snow falls unceremoniously. No warning and no wind to carry it.
Just flakes, slow and fat, drifting sideways over the rooftops of Shinjuku like ash from something thatâs already burned.
Shoko watches it from the roof.
She doesnât move.
Not yet.
It's the holidays, and she hates this time of year. Thereâs too much pretending, too many bright windows, too many mouths grinning like the world hasnât ended five times already.
This year, the snow comes early.
And with itâhim.
She thinks the city is strange under snow. Not soft. Not pretty. Just muffled, hollowed out. Sirens echo longer. Footsteps vanish quicker. The skyline dissolves behind a white veil, lights blurring like bruises.
She walks through it alone. Past vending machines glazed in frost and power lines sagging beneath the weight. There are paper lanterns swaying over shuttered storefronts, their glow smudged and dim.
Her boots crunch the snow like something brittle and alive. She isnât wearing gloves. She likes the cold biting at her skin. It feels honest.
She finds him in the square.
Tall. Unmovable. Eyes like winter distilled into glass.
He's facing Sukuna, and thereâs no backup. No panic. No speeches or horns sounding in the dark. Just two gods standing where no man should be.
She doesnât call his name or break the silence. Only stands at the edge of it all, smoke slipping from her mouth, her eyes dry as bone.
He knows sheâs there.
He doesnât turn.
But he tilts his chin, barely, like a gesture carved out of stone.
And she understands, like she did all those years ago in August, when Suguru Geto had lit her cigarette. When he smiled and waved and she had turned away, for the last time.
That this is the end.
Not just of him. Not just of this fight.
But of everything that tethered them to a time when living felt possible.
Springtime in Jujutsu Tech. Sunlight tangled in white hair. You, singing too loudly, Suguru sighing like the world rested in his lungs. Sandos split in half. Train cars rattling at dusk. Leaves falling as soft as promises they never kept.
All of it.
Ending here.
Under a sky in a city stripped down to bone.
He burns too bright, even now. Bends space like a god, cuts air like a blade, shoulders the infinite and makes it look like art. And stillâSukuna is cruel. patient. inevitable.
Shoko watches as it begins: sharp, merciless, a brilliance that blinds and dies just as quickly.
She sees him hold and hold and holdâuntil he doesnât.
He doesnât scream.
He just folds.
Quietly.
Finally.
And the moment he hits the ground, the world doesnât shatter.
But something in her does.
Everything slows.
The air thickens. Her breath fogs in front of her. Her hands are shaking, not from fear, but because sheâs remembering. Nostalgia has always had its way of killing her, of creeping up on her and leaving her feeling sick. There is nothing left to reminisce now, as the last remaining part of her youth lies split in half in the show.
â
The lab smells like steel and antiseptic, like every failure sheâs ever catalogued. Fluorescent lights hum above her, sickly and bright, making her want to tear them out of the ceiling. She doesnât. She just sets the instruments in place, lines up scalpels with the precision of someone who cannot afford to think.
Yuta lies unconscious on the table, his chest rising shallow, his pulse steady under her fingers. Now, she moves over to the drawer, where she placed Satoruâs body after stitching it back together. When she pulls back the sheets, she touches his hair once, brushes it off his forehead the way she remembers you used to when he was too stubborn to sleep.
Now she stands over him, and for the first time in years, her hands shake.
Not from inexperience. Not from fear of failure.
But from knowing that if she succeeds, it wonât really be him. And if she fails, she will have killed the last piece of her friendâs legacy with her own two hands.
Her cursed technique hums, steady, inexorable. Flesh unravels, rewrites. Neurons glimmer under her touch like constellations in a dark sky. She threads them carefully, patient as a weaver, until she feels something spark. Until she feels him.
Not Yuta, not exactly.
But not Satoru either.
Something between.
A gasp, sharp and wet, tears through the air. fingers twitch. The body arches against restraints she swore she wouldnât use, but had to.
And thenâeyes.
Too blue. Too familiar.
Her knees nearly buckle.
Because for an instant it feels like the dorms again and being a teenager. Then for an instant, she is twenty two again, and she watches Gojo lean down to talk to Tsumiki and Megumi, to give them reassurance, to protect their youth.
But then the boy blinks, coughs, chokes on his first words, staring at his hands. and Yuta is suddenly speaking to her, from Satoru Gojoâs lips.
And itâs not him.
Itâs not him.
She forces her hands steady, swallows down the tremor in her throat. âWell, it worked.â She says, clinical, detached. Like she didnât just carve open time and stitch it into something monstrous.
The snow keeps falling outside.
â
Later, they ask her what happened. after transferring Yuta back to his own body, after dismantling Satoru, pieces lying on a table in her clinic â while Yuta walks, unscathed.
She gives them the facts. stripped bare, like bone. No softness. No poetry.
âGojo fought. He fell. He's dead.â
Nothing more, because she refuses to let them dress it in glory, refuses to let them write a hymn where there was only silence.
He was tired.
He died.
And thereâs nothing beautiful about that.
â
She cremates him herself. In the same furnace that once took you. Her gloves are soaked by the end of it, dark and slick, but she doesnât take them off. Doesnât cry either. Not this time.
x. éæ„
Tokyo feels different after. Like the city is holding its breath, waiting for something that will never come.
That evening, she stops beneath a streetlamp outside the school. Cigarette trembling faintly between gloved fingers. Snow catching in her hair, turning her into something ghostlike. Embers glow like memories in the dark.
For the first time in forever, she speaks. Not to anyone. Just to the cold, to the shadows that linger in her bones.
âYou win.â she whispers.
The lamp above her flickers once, then dies.
And Shoko stands alone in the dark. Utterly. Finally. Completely.
Yet that night, she finds herself dreaming in color that she thought had left her vision over a decade ago now.
Dreams not of blood. Not of battle, or of bodies in a morgue, or the harsh December air.
But of summer. The old apartment bathed in sunlight. Then, youâre next to her, seated cross-legged, fingers deftly braiding Tsumikiâs hair. Gojo at the table, laughing, trying to pry the cap off a bottle of soda with his teeth while Suguru shakes his head, pretending not to smile at him. Somewhere on your balcony, Haibaraâs voice rings out, bright with Nanamiâs deeper murmur tucked inside it.
Shoko feels a weight in her hands, and forces herself to look down for just a moment just to see that she is holding a camera. She lifts it. Frames them in her viewfinder â her whole heart in one room. Click.
A still life. A stolen moment that no one else notices.
Theyâre too busy being alive.
(ç”ăă) END.
When August comes, I donât count the days
Transitory views from the subway train
How strange, when life unfolds this way
In the drift less zone, skyâs prone to stay off-gray
Clouds are omens too, fading at the rate
That most pleasant memories do
mae's note. first chapter of "of love & lesson plans" out tomorrow, and i pinky promise it won't be this sad </3 likes + reposts are appreciated, thank you soso much for reading
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it was a million degrees out, and satoru was stuck in a sonic the hedgehog tank top. honestly, it wasn't his fault he was in this situation. thanks to his low-budget university, he was outside a gas station, washing cars to raise money for his robotics club.
in the grueling heat, he thought he might melt. and he actually did. not because of the sun, though. you pulled in, a fellow broke college student just looking for a cheap place to get your beat-up car cleaned. and⊠it was for a good cause, right?
so, was it still a good cause when you found yourself in the dinky, one-person bathroom of that same gas station, with satoru bending you over the (probably not-so-clean) sink counter?
maybe. maybe not. you were definitely willing to find out.
"ohâgojo, fuck!"
"câcall me satoru. 's fair enough, if i'm fucking your guts out," he grunted, digging his fingers into your hips. his sweaty bangs were plastered to his forehead, a flush creeping up his neck. his thick cock filled you, and your knuckles turned white from the fists you'd made.
a choked whine left your throat, the closest thing you could manage to a 'yes.' his teeth sank into your shoulder from his position behind you, making you gasp. "goâs'toru!"
"shit, ah, yeah, that's much better," he grunted, his breath hitching at his name coming from your mouth. your back was arched, and his thrusts were deep. he was big, and you'd known him less than an hour, but he was hitting spots your long-term ex-boyfriend didn't even know existed.
"you're so tight," satoru groaned. "you ever even been fucked right?"
the right answer was "no," but that felt embarrassing. then again, the fact that you couldn't physically produce an answer anyway... was also kind of embarrassing.
you figured that if it weren't for his strong arms keeping you in place, you wouldn't be able to stay upright. his hips slammed brutally against your ass, the cool slab of the sink digging into your skin. your palms were slick with sweat as you desperately tried to ground yourself.
his stamina was scarily strongâto the point where you wondered how many people he'd fuckedâand even when you came, he didn't let up. not until he did too, shooting sticky ropes into your poor, overstimulated pussy.
satoru dropped his head onto the back of your neck, gently rubbing your thigh.
"um, do i still have to pay for the car wash?" you panted, a glimmer of hope in your voice.
"yeah, sorry. just consider this a tip?" a pause from satoru. "but, hopefully, i can pay for dinner."
âi donât understand how i canât bring boys over but youâre free to bring home that girl for a quick fuck. itâs not fair!â you yelled at him.
itâs been hours of the same conversation and he was getting sick of it.
âbaby, i didnât bring that girl over to fuck.â
his hand reached up to his face, sliding off his glasses to set them on the counter that he was leaning against. âi came home with her because we had a project to do in my class, you know this because i mentioned it that morning.â
âshe was so clearly into you tho.â
âand what if she was? doesnât mean i did anything intimate with her. i donât see how her little crush on me has anything to worry you about.â
âand i donât know why me bringing a boy over concerns you either.â you shot back.
âwatch that tone.â he warned. his previously blue eyes that would bright up a dark room have now darkened enough to match the darkness that was seeping into the kitchen thanks to the rainy weather peeking into through the window.
you could feel tears threatened to spill out of your eyes because of how frustrated you were.
âbaby..â he repeated.
âdonât call me that. weâre just roommates.â
now his eyes have completely darkened and a cold atmosphere surrounded him. his face was serious. âjust roommates hm?â
he was hurt of course.
âwhat was your goal when you brought home that boy huh?â
you stayed quiet.
âto make me jealous? to pay me back? we both agreed on not bringing people over for sex. were you jealous of the girl from my class?â
all you could do was nod.
âif i hadnât made it clear enough, youâre the girl i want. why would i be stupid and put my dick inside some sorority girl.â
his dirty words made you clench your thighs together.
âwhen i all ive ever wanted to do is to put it in you.â
your cheeks heated up. âsatoru..â
ânow let me ask this again. are we just roommates?â
of course not. roommates donât just ride each other like rabbits in heat like the way youâre doing.
your clothes were discarded on the floor, hands shakily rubbing down and up his abs all while he just watched.
he was still leaning back on the counter, taking sight of your pretty tits before moving back to your face.
âplease.. mâsorry toru.. ngh mâsorry.â your apologies fell upon deaf ears. this was your punishment.
âyer gonna ride me and im not gonna help for shit.â
and he kept his word. he hasnât done more than let out a small grunt so far.
it was pissing you off.
âplease..â you begged, leaving sloppy but sweet kisses on him. you tried everything. picking up your pace or slowing it down. nothing worked.
not until he saw you begin to sob, hiding into his neck. he immediately softened up.
âshh darling. i forgive you shh donât cry.â he cooed, hand rubbing up and down your back encouraging you to keep going.
you were wrapped in an embrace all while you continued chasing your orgasm. you both finished at the same time.
âgood job baby. good job. donât you ever think that shit again okay? cmon, letâs head to the bedroom.â
you fell asleep cuddled up next to your roommate boyfriend.