C’est La Vie

✨Welcome to my chaotic tumblr that I’ve been using since 2011 and have somehow managed to be active with this entire time!✨

🌟Username Change!🌟

⭐️ashyyboyy >> go-for-egg⭐️

My name is Casey Freya (please call me Freya), I’m 31, nonbinary, and I’m pansexual and ambiamorous.

My pronouns are they/she.

I’m neurodivergent, but that is all I will say on that topic. If I trust you enough to talk about it, you will know more details. Because of this though, I sometimes am away from my blog when things aren’t going well for me mentally or offline.

Please feel free to reach out if you want to or need to though, I will get a notification.

Single.

I’m known among my friends for being the chaotic, memelord friend who likes making people laugh and sharing stories with them!

I am multifandom, a multishipper, and I share memes like there’s no tomorrow! I also really love snails.

I try to tag everything I post for both myself and others if related to shows, movies, games, etc.

Please be aware that if I use the tag ‘read later’ on your writing, it’s my archive tag for fanfiction and blurbs that I REALLY enjoy! I worry someone may question it, and I promise you I’ve already read it, and shared it and saved it because I enjoyed it so much!

I’m a MASSIVE Joe Keery fan! I love everything he’s done so far and I have a tattoo of his song ‘Go For It’ on my left collarbone, as well as a second one, but with his handwriting to me saying ‘Go For It’ and with a little heart he drew. I also have ‘You just gonna let fear take that?’ from his song ‘Egg’ on my right collarbone.

STEVE HARRINGTON IS MY BABY. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!

Kenny McCormick from South Park is also my baby, I have a tattoo sleeve in the making of him and he makes me happy.

Asks are open and encouraged!

Anonymous Messages are welcome.

Please do not message me if it is to harass me about fictional characters/ships you do not like, or if it is about people I know in real life who have no place in my life anymore.

TERFs, racists, ableists and bigoted people have no place here, and will be fed to the demo-dogs.

Please be at least 18+ if you want to follow my blog.

🎶Current Music Constantly Running Through My Brain🎶

Porch Light // Noah Kahan

Merry Go Round // Carol Ades

Egg // Djo

Ooh La La // Faces

Dead End // Snail Mail

Purgatory Silverstar // Djo

Icarus // Olivia O’Brien

Oxygen Thief // Knox

I Wouldn’t Know // Daphne Browdy

the cure // Olivia Rodrigo

I met Joe Keery on October 19th & October 20th 2024!

In Loving Memory of Snom the Snail, you gave me a reason to live again. I love you.

i took meds to sleep.

i set an alarm ti change my tampon later and to rebandage the cuts and medicate them again.

im not ok, i dont want to live, i have to force myself no matter how incredibly painful im findign it to be to live.

I wish i was someone else. I wish i wasnt like this. i miss me. this isnt me. i dont think me exists anymore, me died when stephan broke me. me died when caity ghosted me after being my best friend for years. i died when i realized im broken, the kind of broken that cant be fixed fast enough for anyone else in order for them to love me or want to be around me.

i am so sorru for anyoe whos reas myposts having a breakdown. I shouldn’t be doing that. i dont want to hurt anyone or trigger anyone unintentionally, i dont want to cause a problem again, take care of yourselves, please, even if can barely do it for myself.

i love you all. I really do. Im so fucking sorry for having to make you see me spiraling right now.

i accept it. i accept it even though i fight so hard not to.

no one reaches out or notices im not ok except on here.

i feel like im just such a problem and im trying to fix myself. i hate myself, does no one see that this isnt on purpise? Does no one see how hard i try and have stuck with therapy, with working? Consistently? doe sit matter

i dont even have reasons to live.

i feel like all i do is fuck up and like all i am is an unwanted, replaceable, annoying, suffocating, broken presence that takes up space that is supposed to be there.

i dont like being alive. i watsed my entire life. everything i do is a mistake. Everything i am is a failure. I try so hard to fight and make it better but i dont know if it’s possible for me.