Hate that they're so accommodating for bullshit. Like I'm ruining the mood by freaking the fuck out for no reason and then was making everyone worried cause I was trying to silently chill out once we arrived
I hate my self sometimes cause why do my ears need to be so sensitive to sound and pitches to the point I start being in pain? It's not even that high. It's fucking stupid. I ruin everything and everyone's time cause they have to change the music from what they like cause I'm too sensitive. I'm just waiting for them to drop me so they can listen to whatever they want again.
I enjoy hanging with them, but I always feel like I don't belong. Either I'm not educated enough on things, too out of the brain rot and memes, or just have tastes that don't align with really anyone. I try so hard to not let it affect me but it makes me sad. There's no reason why I should be fucking crying over meaningless bullshit, but it always happens and that brings down the mood MORE. I'm just tired of this. Don't think they really wanna hang out with someone who does that anyway.
Whatever. It's fine. They got each other and I got my cats