Heart Of The Ocean

Guess we both did.

my brain melts to the thought of knowing that she is my girl

This wasn't usually the case ime, but it's sweetly worded and reminds me I am lucky you loved me anyway. Im greatful for your patience. I'm sure you'll disagree I'm any kind of monster, but not for lack of trying. I feel like I must work against the instinct constantly around you. But maybe I've just learned wrong from the monsters who bit me because they never learned right, and maybe its their intrusive thoughts , not my own, that I fight out my mind. Everytime I go to bite I see me in your place and then it's very obvious how to love. I've never desired anyone more but here you remain in one piece no matter the vulnerability you honor me with. So you may have a point.

"i would die for you" this, "i would kill for you" that. what about "i would live for you" what about i would smile for you, find joy in small things for you, i would endure, hope, survive, thrive for you. i would dive head first into this unknown, terrifying inkwell known as existence for you.

Oof. Maybe I should say this to you instead next time i'm driven into a frenzy about how little of what I feel I know how to express.

And for us, literally and figuratively, it's both, lmao

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