PICK UP THE PHONE FUCKER

when it comes down to it everything is about ghosts except ghosts, which are about love

ugh life sucks right now so I gotta read about 2 guys touching each other inappropriately

let’s speak about the time loop!!!!!

the craziest thing is even blackberry is autofictive for him. he couldn’t actually just make a biopic about a smartphone he instead went what if I split my personality into three characters and had them accomplish a goal together (make a movie) and then see what would happen if those three characters (parts of my personality) got out of alignment with each other and failed (to make another movie)

and then an interviewer will be like it’s so sad that these characters all metaphorically die at the end because they’re separated and none of them get to accomplish their dreams and he’ll be like actually I think they’re all happy in the end. they’re all heroes and successful to me

i do think that matt probably had some kind of complex about nirvana the band vs his ambitions back in the day. like even to this day he makes it clear that he thinks ntb is kind of dumb and unserious. at times he’s even called it meaningless. obviously this is not true to him, to him it’s the most meaningful thing in the world, but i think when he looks at it from an outsider’s perspective he sees it as stupid compared to “serious” art. and i think he has always wanted to be taken seriously and especially when he was younger wanted to do something that would really prove himself to be a serious person, to make all his craziness worth it by making an objectively good movie. and so i just wonder if that’s why he started to have problems with jay, and why they disagreed so strongly on whether they were ever gonna do more nirvanna the band. i feel like matt probably wanted to move into the serious era of his career at that point and maybe felt like he couldn’t do that with ntb, especially after the failed pilot. and jay didn’t go to film school and the characters matt & jay could play were always inevitably going to be these stupid guys and anyway jay could do anything he wanted in the world of music, and he was attractive and people always liked him, so he didn’t have to be as crazy as matt. he didn’t have to prove himself like matt did. meanwhile matt had already failed at his original ambition in life (magic cards) and now had to make sure he didn’t fuck up his only other shot at significance (filmmaking). and matt who cares so much about whether people have good taste and whether his friends like the same things he likes and whether artists have integrity told jay on camera “everything you think is funny is stupid.” matt who apparently for years believed that if jay ever got famous he would never speak to matt again. matt who joked that he was so successful after the dirties he deleted jay from his phone but jay came crawling back. matt who clearly thinks jay doesn’t need him, who makes an entire show about this insecurity. and then you have jay insisting he’ll be in every matt project coming up, telling matt he would’ve shot a life-threatening scene with him when no one else would. jay at matt’s side every day making blackberry, the movie that arguably legitimized matt in the eyes of the world. matt crying uncontrollably when he edits the ntb movie to end with a confirmation that he and jay have indeed succeeded in making their ambitions their life. their shared life. like i just

Mutual Tycoon gacha game where you pull mutuals that have a higher chance of making good posts or having team synergies with other mutuals to support them, and if you can network them together and get them to date that's another synergy bonus. I think I'd be a 3-4 star posting specialist mutual. pretty weak reblogging stat though you'd have to build around me

mind you i’m doing this shit while employed. never give up