saccredâ:
shiloh smiled at that, shaking his head. â thank you, â he said, much to soft for what was meant to be sarcastic. but he couldnât help it, not this time. not anymore. â not a big deal ? â he repeated incredulously. â i wouldâve been stuck with a really shitty public defender if not for you. i donât feel completely doomed anymore, and i appreciate now having that sort of assurance. i need as much as i can get in here. â well⌠at least he now was going to do down in a slightly more dignified way with this big shot lawyer helping him out. of course, as dignified as someone with an impending guilty sentence and battery and assault and whatever the fuck else spencerâs lawyer figured out to charge him with could be. oh, God, what if he got a charge of trespassing, too ? fuck. â doesnât really feel like iâve been taking good care of you lately, â he scoffed slightly, fiddling with the cord on the phone. heâd made her cry in the past two months, for fuckâs sake. theyâve fought a lot, more than they ever have and thatâs â not what a good friend does. he matched her hand placement again, palm against palm through the glass and smile small, sad. this was going to be the hardest part of all of this, wasnât it ? alex could visit him all she wanted in prison but eventually the meetings would trickle down and space out as she moved on, got swamped with med school and meet a nice guy. losing his freedom was one thing â losing his lifeline was something else. â really ? â shiloh smiled a little more fully at that, amused. â âŚso, you two are⌠done ? or are you still a thing âcause he finds hulk-you super hot ? â casual.
alex shrugged her shoulders and tucked her bottom lip between her teeth. it didnât feel like a big deal to her. in fact, it seemed like the absolute least she could do considering this entire mess was her fault. âyou are not doomed,â she said quietly, flickering her gaze to his face. âweâre going to get through this. no matter what happens.â she couldnât imagine not seeing him everyday because, to be honest, when they were apart she still saw him everywhere. in the way cupcakes held icing, in the way books bed paper, in the way a couple looked like they were still next to each other when they were across the room from each other. there wasnât ever an escape from missing him, not for one goddamn second of the day. âcome on, wonder boy,â she frowned slightly and shook her head, âthatâs not fair. itâs been...a rough couple months for all of us.â the corner of her mouth tugged into a small smile as he pressed his palm (( almost )) against hers. âdo you remember when you pushed noah butler off the swings because he made fun of me for using the word neanderthal? youâve been taking care of me since day one. i literally donât know what iâd do without youââand i thought that i knew everything, so this really sucks.â a smile that sad shouldnât ever be on shilohâs face, alex mused. shiloh shouldnât ever be anything other than exceptionally happy because thatâs what he deserved, and thatâs how he made her feel. âwe were done before the locker room,â she said quietly, shrugging her shoulders. âbut hulk-me is super hot,â she added with a grin just because she wanted to see shiloh smile again.








