anyway,

“Soon you’ll realize that many people will love the idea of you but will lack the maturity to handle the reality of you.”

My reasons to live

“fuck movies like the notebook and titanic because the world doesn’t work that way. the world wants you to believe everything will fall into place. it won’t. because i believed my first kiss would be electricity. it wasn’t. because i believed the first time i had sex it would be making love. it wasn’t. because i believed my first date would be absolutely perfect. it wasn’t. my first kiss was in the middle of a mall with a person who used me. my virginity was lost in the back of a truck while i was completely drunk. we didn’t kiss. it wasn’t romantic. i did it to get it over with. my first date was meaningless kissing. nothing more and i felt nothing from them. so fuck stories like the notebook and titanic. because god knows it wont ever work out that way.”

“I'm sorry i got into drugs and alcohol and depended on pain pills to sleep. I’m sorry i was an inconvenience to have around but look all i was trying to do was feel something, anything agin.”

… and jesus brown eyes were just eyes until i melted into yours and i didnt think i could ever feel at home when someone wrapped their arms around me or kissed my neck and i dont know anything about myself anymore but i think i love you