i can't be trusted with sour gummies i'm guzzling this shit down like a hog that's tasted blood

Recovery doesn't mean changing your behaviour overnight and being healed. It's a long process with ups and downs, mistakes and sucesses. Going 10 steps forward and 3 back. Struggeling, but having a goal in mind for a better life. You can do this.

you will mention your favorite color is yellow and people will be practically jumping at the chance to let you know how hideous it is to them. just SALIVATING to look you in the eye and tell you it’s fucking ugly. like man what do you want and expect me to do here. change my mind? i have to laugh

it is a happy color. daffodils are yellow. pompompurin is yellow. do you hate him? pompompurin? do you think he’s hideous? do you want pompompurin to die? is that it? you sick fuck

btw. to any kids for whom hearing your parents move around the house is terrifying. at some point hearing the door open because someone's home will make you smile. youll hear voices in the other room, or youll hear footsteps down the hallway, and it won't be scary, it'll be comforting. like i dont wanna be That Guy Who Says "It Gets Better" but im almost 27 and ive found the people im gonna spend my life with — hearing my roommates in the house is natural and normal in a good way. i know it feels like everything will always be awful but i promise you WILL make it out of your parents' house, and the life you can build for yourself will make you happier than you ever knew was possible. at some point someone standing in your doorway will be because you love them and want to talk to them. itll be worth it, i promise.