The Fullest

Ohhh this song is my anthem these days.

I always mean to take a food picture or a smoothie picture, but that stuff gets eaten long before I think about picture. So picture in your mind:

-a bomb ass stir fry

-a mango-rita smoothie

-cold thai salad turned soup

-avo-nana smoothie

I asked my husband to pick up some things from the store the other day, including some spinach, but what he came home with was broccoli leaves.... which slightly altered my smoothie taste, but w/e. He tried. 

Did not join the gym. Apparently they need a check/or for you to know your bank acct # and routing #. Ain’t got space for that. Will try again this weekend. 

Here’s a baby:

SW - 215

Last week - 210

This Week - 206

Today has been one of awkwardness - 

I’m planning my husband’s birthday get together with his cousins, and I invited all of their SOs. But I get a semi-panicked text from one saying that she didn’t tell me, but she and her bf have broken up. And I invited him. And he saw. :/ And then I awkwardly uninvited him. Wahhh

AND THEN - I’m talking to my sis-in-law, and she asked me what Jericho wanted. To which I laughingly joked about men being hard to shop for and I have to get a father’s day AND a bday gift. Then she immediately starts trying to sell me some of the products she’s a rep for. (SEACRET - like a million dollar version of Avon) Gurl, he don’t use no man face scrub. And I know I just should’ve said that, but instead to be nice I looked at her catalouge and now I feel like I made it worse by leading her on like I was gonna buy something. lol DAMN

Yesterday was June 1 and also a Monday. Is there a better time to start something?? I decided to do the green smoothie challenge. lol Nothing that big, but I needed something to help me up the veggie intake as well as shake up my snacks. I’m pretty much a one trick pony when it comes to healthy food, I get in a rut. And who doesn't love a nice smoothie in the summertime?

Good morning!

First day of June and it is super cold and cloudy today! Whaaat?

This weekend was pretty chill. Jericho and I had a “date night” Saturday. We ordered pizza and watched a movie baby free! I made some peanut butter blondies (originally almond butter blondies - it’s paleo). Yum! Sunday was meal planning/grocery shopping, but I realllly don’t think I want to go grocery shopping on the weekends anymore. HO-LY GEEZ was it packed with people. 

I think I will do my weekly weigh ins on Wednesday, because weigh in Wednesday sounds cool. I originally wasn’t going to have weigh ins and just celebrate non-scale victories, but I have decided to go ahead and do it. Seeing the scale go down actually motivates me. 

Next up - gym thoughts. When I was pregnant I canceled my gym membership. Lol I for sure never went and there’s no reason to be paying $30 every two weeks if I’m not going. But now I’m thinking about renewing it. I've been doing small at home workouts for the past few weeks, but I’m getting to the point where I want to have a bigger challenge. It’s gonna be tough though because I will have to super plan with King Baby around. I can do it!

Got about 4 hours of sleep last night. (thanks little dude) I’m dying.

So basically my goals today are - make dinner - get in a small workout - and I will call today productive. 

Last night I made chicken cacciatore ( a whole30 recipe), and I made enough for lunch today. Score. 

Ok so babies are a lot of work, and it’s taken me about 2 months to get my shit figured out. But here I am, ready for round two of Nikki gets fit! 

Story time about my weight. So as most of you know, I created this blog to document my weight loss journey back in 2012/2013. I went from 208 lbs to 135 lbs and learned a lot about myself along the way. Then I kinda fell off tumblr, got preggo, and had a baby. (yay!) So I’ll kinda fill you now on what went on with me weight-wise during this time. 

At the end of 2013, I got pretty sloppy with food/exercise. October-December are the 3 months that create a perfect storm. I pretty much celebrate my birthday the entire month of October. November is my anniversary month, and then of course there’s December and those two months are nothing but holiday parties and lots of family get-togethers. So my weight crept from 135 lbs to 155 lbs.  At the beginning of 2014, I fell back into a depression of sorts, which pretty much lasted 3 months. I kind of bounced out of it when I went on vacation in April. Through this, I maintained 155 lbs. Once vacation was over, I just completely let go of my healthy lifestyle, and my weight was 175 lbs by the time I found out I was pregnant in July. 

Ahh pregnancy. I didn’t like it. It kicked my butt!! For basically the entire 40 weeks, I was sick, or laying in bed. I couldn’t bring myself to cook any food (or do anything else really) which meant my husband would pick up food on the way home most days. The result? The day I gave birth I weighed 235 lbs. Highest weight ever. (Don’t worry, he’s a happy healthy baby) About two weeks postpartum, I was 215 lbs, and I’ve been sitting there since. 

I started eating healthy last week, doing minimal exercise, and I’ve already lost 7 lbs. (water weight guys) But I just took some pictures today at 208 lbs and I’m ready to give it my all again.

This time around will be different. I’m starting out loving myself and even if I can’t say I love how my body is looking right now, I can say that I appreciate the hell out of it, it has gone through so much for me. Last time I hated it and lost weight solely for that reason, but now I’m doing it to be healthy! 

40 weeks pregnant. Almost done baking this booger.

What have I been up to? Well a few weeks back I had some weird realization that I will have a tiny human depending on me for some time. Best way to cope with that? Play through all of my Zelda games. Check. Of course once that was done I had to finish my ‘to do before Baby comes’ list. Also check. And now I play the waiting game. Mainly me sleeping and eating. Yooo. 

For those who are curious, here are some nursery pics. (finishing this room was on the to do list)

Also Charley hates me. 

Orange chocolate herbal tea, meal planning, and tumblring. 

So I have that reading list that's floating around tumblr and I decided to go for it. This week was - a memoir, and a book that's banned, once banned, or challenged. (I read two in each category this week, cuz I'm cool)

Memoirs - 

A Mountain of Crumbs, a memoir By Elena Gorokhova

Really liked it. I think it's interesting to learn how people live in other countries. Different foods, governments, priorities, etc. Makes you appreciate what you have. 

Daughter of the Ganges By Asha Miro

Out of the four I read this one is probably my favorite. Asha was adopted from India, and grew up in Barcelona. This book is about her traveling back to India to discover her roots. It made me want to adopt about 300 kids and give them a loving home. 

Banned Book/Once Banned/Challenged

Lady Chatterley's Lover By D.H. Lawrence

I'm not sure what to say about this one, except for WHAT KIND OF ENDING WAS THAT?? Also I think some things just go over my head, but the old school philosophical bantering got boring for me. 

The Perks of Being a Wallflower By Stephen Chbosky

Yes I know, I had not read the book or watched the movie until this week. But ~ possible unpopular opinion ~ I don't see why it was made into a movie. The book was ok, I expected more. Guess I got drawn into the hype. I just didn't relate very well to the characters. I watched the movie too, but most of the book is the main character writing about his feelings and how do you portray that in a movie?