Bookworm

“Zindagi Gulzar Hai, Yeh Ishq Ka Darbaar Hai, Kisi Ke Gham Ko Batnaa Hi Pyaar Hai" 

But I will never tell you how I feel.  I will laugh at each one of your promises, I will make fun of everything you say.  If you think of me as being hard-hearted and cold, then I will allow you to continue with that impression. Because I can’t allow myself to stand in front of you like a wall of sand; I am too afraid of falling apart.

Zindagi Gulzar Hai + writing 

Zindagi Gulzar Hai

— Zindagi Gulzar Hai 

Sanam and Fawad in Zindagi Gulzar Hai (Urdu television show, 2012-2013)

Zindagi Gulzar Hai (2013)

inspired +

…what?

“..Aur ab main, main apne aap se darne lagi hoon. Kisi se mohabbat insaan ko bohot kamzor kar deta hai, bohot bebas, majboor. Aur mujhe inn saari cheezon se nafrat hai. Lekin uske bawajood, tum meri zindagi ka markaz bante jaa rahe ho. Tum mujhse poochte ho ki mujhe tumhari kya baat achchhi lagti hai. Main tumse yeh kaise kahoon, ki mujhe tumhari kaunsi baat achchhi nahin lagti? Apne irdh girdh tumhara ghumna. Mere wajood se naa hatne wali, tumhari gehri nazrein. Tumhare har waqt ki tawajjo. Tumhara jaan chhidakne wala har andaaz.. har baar. Jab tum mere maa baap ke liye, ehtraman khade hote ho, toh main tumhare saamne jhukne lagti hoon. Aur kya kuchh nahin? Ek chhote se ghar ke iss pankhe wale kamre mein, tumhari yeh gehri neend. Mineral water bottle ko dhoond ne ke bajay, nalke ka paani peelena. Hand wash chhod ke, ek saste saboon se haath dhona. Apni plate ko, meri maa ke haath ke pake khaane se baar baar bharna. Par main yeh sab tumko kabhi nahin bataungi. Tumhare har wade par hasungi. Tumhari har baat ka mazaak uraungi. Tum mujhe sang-e-marmar samajhte ho, toh samajhte raho. Main tumhare saamne ret ki diwar nahin ban sakti. Mujhe toot jaane se khauf aata hai..”

Misty

you’d fall and i’d jump

I never wanted us to be a tragedy

Even during a press con, Kim Nam Joo’s pantsuits are 💯

I love you. You will love me. I can make it happen. Let’s get married. / It’s not her fault. I’m the one who’s lacking.