| * luciana

con: it's not, you guys are adults and he made a decision for himself

con: i'm glad you guys are trying to make it work. well, nc is still the states so you can fly here and there for work and stuff right?

luci: i know, it's just all so delicate and i constantly break things

apollo: oh um i’m sorry

apollo: no, i don’t, haven’t for over a year i think. it didn’t feel like i needed to anymore

luci: dont be sorry, it's not a bad thing. i think it'll be good to stay in one place for a while. if ur sister and dad like me of course

con: babe, i don't think he should put any blame on you. look, idk everything, but i think he's just focused on himself and his own relationship rn. he still cheated on his gf with you, he knew what he was doing.

con: oh wow. that's a big move. im glad you guys are working things out though. honestly, i think this year i'll keep to the states. i'm looking at some properties in the hamptons, so we might end up there. you're invited if you wanna visit some time, obviously

luci: he doesn't. i just put the blame on myself bc it feels like its my fault.

apollo: really? how do you feel about that?

apollo: no, i just saw her for a bit after my mom died, she was a friend of my advisor at unc

luci: ... sounds like something someone who is trying to psychoanalyze me would say

con: you hurt isco? he’s as much to blame about this as you are. if he’s hurt then that sucks for him

con: it doesn’t matter. if you wanna make things better, you can luci

luci: i didn't tell him about apollo. and the only reason i was there is because he asked me for help. it feels like i took advantage of the situation. i didnt mean to, i just feel icky about the whole thing

apollo: i don't think that's bad, it's not exactly like you've lived in nc your whole life like me

apollo: oh i haven't seen her in like a year, year and a half so it's no big deal

luci: you know if we move in together its gonna be like the longest ive ever lived in one place

con: i doubt that

con: you're not selfish, you help me and ezra all the time and we don't give it back to you like we should

luci: daphne. mia. isco. apollo. naomi. probably even ethan.

apollo: she’s around chapel hill so it’s still kinda a drive from the banks

apollo: should i not be okay with it?

luci: is it bad that i dont know where that is

apollo: okay i’ll send it

apollo: she’s really good, i promise

luci: i guess it’ll be good to have one in nc since i’ll be living there

apollo: i think i still have her number saved in my phone, if you want it?

apollo: i do, actually, she’s just back in north carolina

apollo: well could i help in some way?

apollo: maybe a little bit, but honestly i just want to be there for you, not psychoanalyze you

con: i’m aware of that. and clearly you regret it and you feel bad about it already. i don’t look at you any differently

con: sometimes i remember how easy everything was before we came to this house, do you ever miss it?

con: we should be able to be there for you anyway

luci: i think you’re the only one who doesn’t

luci: life wasn’t exactly peaches before this. i don’t know this is kind of a break from my real life i guess

con: who isn’t sensitive in this house? you’ve been going through a lot, no one should put all the blame on you

con: i know i am. i’m sorry i made you feel shitty before. i focused on ezra and i a lot because of everything that happened last season and didn’t realize i wasn’t there for you

luci: im not the victim here, i did something really bad and i hurt a lot of people

apollo: you know i’m gonna worry about it, so telling me not to is pointless, honestly

con: i didn’t mean anything by it. i just see the way you guys talk sometimes and i thought it hurt you. but we’re all different and only you guys know what’s going on in your relationship

con: so are you

luci: i mean, yeah. but its not his fault that im upset. its not anyone fault im just too sensitive