Fearless Biped

I’m sorry for all the “fitspiration” posts.

I’m sorry for comparing myself (and others) to society’s unrealistic standards.

I’m sorry for making myself feel like my weight is important or relevant.

I’m sorry for the calories I counted and for the days I didn’t eat enough.

I’m sorry for labeling meals as “cheats”.

I’m sorry for the angry and hateful words I said to myself in the mirror.

I’m sorry that I fell for the completely cruel and unforgiving diet culture.

I’m sorry for not seeing my beauty and my worth sooner.

Years ago, this blog was created to document my weight loss journey. I thought it was keeping me healthy, but it was actually making me sick. I was unhealthily obsessed with being healthy. I had a goal weight. I wanted to be skinny. I thought that it mattered.

I am cleaning out hundreds of old posts that scream diet culture or that stemmed from my unhealthy and potentially damaging behavior. No more. 

I am still learning. 

There are days when I forget how to love myself - times that I give in to negativity and allow doubt to overshadow my dreams. 

I am guilty of speaking unkindly to my body, hiding my face beneath a false mask of pretty and trying to change the truths of my heart. 

But I can forgive myself, and that is what makes it okay.

For I have many mistakes left to make and I am still learning. 

*blush*

Thank you.