the only part of Eddie's army past I want to be explored is him being a horrible husband and essentially a deadbeat dad
because he enlisted for one reason and one reason only: to run away from the life he had in El Paso. From his parents, from Shannon, and from Chris. So, he was a 19 year old kid who got himself into a mess he was too young for and then enlisted in the army that had no place in his life. That wasn't the life he'd wanted, so he ran from it. that's a very realistic response.
he also left a 19 year old girl (after she just gave birth) by herself with an infant that has special needs. the only help Shannon had was Ramon and Helena Diaz from who Eddie ran away on another continent and who he left his wife with. I am older now than both of them were when they got married and had Chris. You know nothing about life or about yourself when you're 19. There's not much more you learn by 21 too.
and the show portrayed Eddie as a broken man that made choices and faced the consequences. which is good I guess but not enough. a lot of Shannon mentions are about how she died and Chris was left alone again or how Eddie can't move on.
what I want to see is guilt, regret and eventually acceptance. I want Eddie feeling guilty for leaving Chris when he was younger than Theo. when he helps Buck out and does that so eagerly which didn't happen with Shannon and Eddie feels overwhelmed with how much energy taking care of a toddler really takes. I want Eddie admitting he was very wrong for what he'd done to Shannon when he left her with a kid she didn't know how to take care of properly. I want Eddie accepting that he did make the wrong choices and had no one's best interest at heart then. that Eddie being, well, Eddie, hurt Shannon and Christopher
because Shannon Diaz deserves more than haunting Eddie through a random woman that resembles her. Eddie should feel like he has no right to grieve her because he wasn't a good person in her life. Eddie should be haunted by what he did to her instead of vice versa. and he needs to learn to forgive himself for that because he was only 19 years old too. Shannon Diaz deserves acknowledging that she was sad and exhausted and burned out and even though she left Chris, she wasn't the first one to make that choice. the choice that was influenced by her mom having cancer on top of all. Eddie left before the worst had even started and for all the wrong reasons.
Eddie deserves to let go of his first marriage and I think that's only possible with him admitting that Shannon was abused in that marriage.
Shannon made bad choices too, but she had been essentially punished for that all throughout season 2. Eddie made it clear that she was a traitor for leaving, despite the fact he broke her trust first
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