just in ma head

It is your universe.

There is no one else here, just you, and nothing is being withheld from you.

You are completely on your own.

Everything is available for direct knowing.

No one else has anything you need.

No one else can lead you, pull you, push you or carry you.

It all comes rushing in

And I can’t contain it.

Feeling so empty

Yet overflowing

Like I’m not moving

Yet I’m running like hell.

I don’t know how to explain it

Because it doesn’t even make sense.

Something in my mind just falls apart

And I don’t know how to fix it

Because I can’t find all the pieces

And I don’t remember how to

Reassemble me.

i was waiting to find something that helped me find a meaning to life, when i met you i found out there was a door to a world i never gave into, and it was beautiful

now im past the door without you, were you just the doorman to a life that wasn't meant for you to stay?

I pick up my pen and I write,

I write and write and write about the trees and birds and flowers.