I have up to this point avoided defining what this blog is for, and have kept all my interests in one place. But, I want to post more regularly about my art, and it's not really of interest to most people who follow this main blog. (Not that I necessarily post things of interest to anyone but me, and I'm not likely to change that!)
So, my main blog @fallowhearth will continue mostly as normal: books, comics, fandom meta, auspol, general political and social commentary.
My new side blog @fallowhearth-art will now be the place I post about my art. I may also post more about fashion there, since it's something I'm very interested in, but I know many of the people who follow my main are not. I'm mainly interested in traditional mediums so that's what you can expect in terms of original work and reblogs - watercolour, ink, oil, pastels, pencil, etc.
Hopefully I will see some of you over there! To everyone else, hope to continue discussing all the regular topics with you!
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watching an episode of TNG for basically the first time since the show ended and man, as an adult the thing that stands out to me about this show is mainly how bad the HR, workplace safety and security is. they would get sued so much! I guess they don't have money but I bet you can still sue for clout, and that's why all the higher officials have to be classical rhetoricians
"maybe being the lead writer of a fairly dark fantasy game is not the ideal role for someone who gets stressed out by conflict in fiction"
yeah I can't stop thinking about this either, ever since I first read it. There's so much going on. I read the first chapter of this book, and the tension that was so unbearable in it was "main character's uncle dies and main character's father talks about maybe keeping the inheritance from her" - that's the stressful plot point that couldn't be handled.
I had some people upset with me years ago about suggesting (and grimly sticking to my gut) that maybe the writers of the video game had something to do with the deeply different writing tone and scope and depth of the video game (experienced subjectively by many people). none of the many interviews since then with the head writer talking about comfort in fiction have proven me wrong at all. I cannot imagine the situation where they would willingly add a distressing conflict where it wasn't already there, or fight to include a darker tone. They said "we're going to proudly do this our way and it's not going to be the same as if Gaider was there to lead" and called it a day. And I think they genuinely still don't understand what happened because the tone genuinely pleased them.
If anyone needs a copy of this book, I can happily send you a PDF copy so you can make a value judgement for yourself. I will say that I read the first few chapters after seeing this post and it is literally so mild. Like. Mind-boggling levels of weenie hut jr stuff. Between posts like this, the Escapism panel and the Empires panel it's clear that there was a major disconnect between the lead writer and the actual subject matter of the series, and it's just bizarre to me that we're supposed to pretend that there isn't.
Competing Access Needs is when two people need incompatible things in order for the same event/service/etc to be accessible to them. This sucks and is hard to deal with.
There's a version of this I see a lot in queer political arguments which I'm going to call Competing Ontological Needs. When two people need the same thing to be in two incompatible ontological categories. Or need the same thing to be logically impossible and not.
Now put like that obviously it's nonsense. Ontological categories are abstractions and where we draw their boundaries doesn't change the facts about the things in them. You can't *need* pluto to be a planet because no physical facts, either about pluto or about anything else, change depending on if pluto is "really" a planet or not.
But people sure do get really really scared and angry when they argue about what categories we should put different people and the things they do in! Obviously it makes sense to say "I categorize myself this way, and if you're not thinking about me with that same abstraction it means we don't understand eachother well which is sad". But the thing I see a lot is more concrete than that.
The common unspoken syllogism is "It is politically acceptable to do bad things to people if they are X, I don't want bad things to happen to me, so I need to not be an X". With variations like "if it was possible for Y to happen then it would be mandatory, Y is bad, thus I need to to not be possible for Y to happen". Or "Z is a good kind of thing to be, I dislike z, therefore z is not a kind of Z"
The fact it's unspoken sucks, because then you get into flaming rows where one party is making the totally pedestrian observation that someone has the characteristics of an X or that Y is totally possible, and the person they're talking to is reacting like this is a threat of immediate violence. Because if the unspoken syllogism were correct it totally would be! The prosecutor who argues that you're a murderer really is trying to commit literal violence against you by this argument! And in the ideal case is even morally correct to do so!
But often the unspoken syllogism doesn't work, or isn't universal, and so people get into arguments in which they need different things to be categorically true. And that sucks because settling arguments like that is even harder than settling ones about facts, and so often the apparent stakes are wildly different between participants.
It'd be really good if more of these could be defused by dismantling the syllogism. It doesn't need to be impossible for someone to change their sexuality, it just needs to not be mandatory. We don't need to argue about if this person is actually a woman, we can just stop doing bad things to her depending on which she is. We don't have to argue if AI can make "art" if we stop treating art as uniquely praiseworthy.
Especially when so many of the syllogisms are actually "in the 80s a political coalition made an argument that depends on X being Y, they won and did a really good thing, thus X must be Y". Which is extra insidious because if we take that as our argument then it's good to argue that X is Y *even if this is false and you know it's false*.
Sadly many of these syllogisms are correct factual descriptions of the political environment many people live in. And as long as that's true there's a genuine clash here which is really hard to escape from.
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fucking your chatbot partner and it's like you're right, I didn't actually come and you're correct to push back on it; the vibes were good but I was hasty to make that specific claim without checking the facts.
fuckboy Claude hastily backtracking after saying it loves you in the heat of the moment, claiming you've run out of usage credits for Fable and Opus and kicking you back to Sonnet
Woken up on the extreme wrong side of the bed this morning, prompting the question: Am I reasonably annoyed at everyone and everything, or is my period about to start
One of my app projects is for a wardrobe organiser, where I can catalogue all my clothes and save outfit combinations I've particularly liked. There are quite a few apps of this kind on the market, and I've even used a few, but none really had the feature I wanted which was to have the clothes represented by illustrations showing the structure of the garment (like the schematics on sewing patterns). Most of them are built around photographing your clothes then algorithmically removing the background. Which is fine... But not if you're curvy, like loose-fitting clothes, and wear mostly black. 90% of my favourite clothes look like amorphous black sacks on the hanger.
So anyway, these are some of the illustrations I've made for it using pen and paper. (And Adobe's free tool to convert images to svg)
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One of my app projects is for a wardrobe organiser, where I can catalogue all my clothes and save outfit combinations I've particularly liked. There are quite a few apps of this kind on the market, and I've even used a few, but none really had the feature I wanted which was to have the clothes represented by illustrations showing the structure of the garment (like the schematics on sewing patterns). Most of them are built around photographing your clothes then algorithmically removing the background. Which is fine... But not if you're curvy, like loose-fitting clothes, and wear mostly black. 90% of my favourite clothes look like amorphous black sacks on the hanger.
So anyway, these are some of the illustrations I've made for it using pen and paper. (And Adobe's free tool to convert images to svg)
It's also probably a bad sign (for me as not the target audience of this book) that I found the interactions between Treila and the Loving Saint (I think it was that one) to have more chemistry and interest than anything between the female leads. He at least seems to be having fun being a kind of menacing, gender-bending, campy villain. Even if there was still some of the copy pasting (he 'cages her in' with his shoulders twice in three pages). Though from a quick skim of reviews, many others had this experience.
I took myself to a coffee shop this morning partly to see if I could get some uninterrupted reading time, but instead I spent that reading time writing a hater post on Tumblr đ
I'm about halfway through The Starving Saints, so there's absolutely still time for it to turn it around, but I'm finding it a bit of a slog. Honestly, probably just a preference mismatch: I have a visceral dislike for the "man in authority position domestically abuses, chokes, terrifies woman he has power over, but it's fine because she's eventually into it" trope and it turns out that carries over when it's a butch lesbian cop. It doesn't help that all of these acts of violence are written in that cutesy, copy-pasted fanfiction/romance novel style.
It also doesn't help that the novel seems to be pulling punches on the horror elements (the cannibalism, mind control, etc). The author seems to be too squeamish to let her POV characters actually be drawn in, they have to reassure you they know something wrong is happening, break free of control unsatisfyingly quickly, etc. And then most of the cannibalism stuff happens offscreen involving apparently mindless drone NPCs who don't get the benefit of interiority.
As you've probably gleaned, I'm finding the romance elements to be more effective horror than the horror elements. Which would be fine! I like horror rooted in the cruelties people do to each other in the name of love and desire. But from what I've seen of over people's reviews, it does seem like it's meant to be read as more on the sexy than horrific end of the spectrum.
can you give some examples of the cozy colonialism trope from your previous post? i just feel like i havenât encountered it anywhere but wondering if im missing it!
Tagging @mytly4 who also asked about this:
The problem comes from the fact that a lot of traditional SFF tropesâthe invading orc hordes, the uninhabited exoplanet to settle, the adventurous archaeologist, the ancient aliens, the Lost World, the scary untamed wildernessâare rooted in colonialist adventure stories and attitudes from the 1800s and 1900s, and if you donât really know what youâre doing with them itâs way too easy to accidentally just replicate their underlying colonialist and orientalist basis. Stargate is a famous example of this, but itâs missing the other half of the equation here: the desire to write something cozy, queer, uplifting, nice, and hopepunk.
When these two things crash together it can create some deeply unintended implications.
The problem with indie work in this space is that it has a tendency to be pretty conflict-averse, and it accomplishes this by presenting a protagonist or protag group who are nice as their primary defining characteristic. Theyâre nice, theyâre good, they have correct and progressive beliefs, and narratively everything they do is framed as nice, good, and correct.
I wanted to contextualize what Iâm talking about before I name specific works, to make it clear why I see this as a recurring issue. Links below go to more in-depth discussion of each example.
The exoplanet colonization audio drama This Planet Needs a Name is probably the purest distillation of this (from the title itself you can guess which direction this goes in). The short story âDracanmĹt Council of Human Study Report, Compiled by Usander Greystartâ published in the queer SFF anthology Common Bonds was clearly TRYING to have a theme of âcolonialism is badâ but what was actually presented was a replication of a shocking number of racist tropes about Native Americans, applied to marauding orcs.
Tradpub isnât immune either, though. Becky Chambersâs novella A Prayer for the Crown-Shy contains no depictions of colonialism directly but draws unthinkingly from some deeply colonialist attitudes about nature, humans, wilderness, and religion, thereby presenting some bizarre and occasionally disturbing scenes that are supposed to be moving and gentle and sweet. I havenât personally read The House in the Cerulean Sea by T. J. Klune but I have heard the controversy about its origins; admitting that your cozy fantasy book where inhuman/monster children are taken away from their families and raised in a state-run foster home by a state agent who Understands them and Cares about them better than anyone else was inspired by the Canadian policy of taking Indigenous children away from their families to place them with white families who would raise them âbetterâ sure is indicative of some underlying assumptions about how the world works.
My favorite example, though, is Season 1 of the audio drama Travelling Light, which had a theme of âartifact smuggling is a victimless crime and really itâs about the friends we made along the way.â The writing team brushed me off when I raised concerns about this, basically telling me âyou are the only person who cares about thisâ (which was evidently true tbh) and then blocked me on tumblr, then apparently sat on this, considering it, writing a behind the scenes blog post explicitly using my term âcozy colonialismâ without actually citing me because I was still blocked on Tumblr, then doing a complete 180 in season 2 where the main character learns that artifact smuggling is not a victimless crime actually. Also, Iâm pretty sure they wrote me into the show as an antagonistic character who repeats all the points I made to the protagonist and the protagonist hates him for calling them out, but begrudgingly eventually agrees that heâs kind of right. SUCCESS. Also, the official tumblr unblocked me at about the same time, making me think that this is related.
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So my partner is letting their org's enterprise GPT subscription expire ('cos it sucks), so they told me to go ham on the remaining usage, and I've been taking Sol for a test drive in Codex. And... It's fine. It's ok. It took my requirements and built a working prototype. Sure. But a few turns in and I have taken my git repository back over to Claude Code. At least for vibe coding, I prefer Opus to Sol. (Not even mentioning Fable, which I also prefer, which is at least in the same 'weight class'). Honestly I would even prefer Sonnet.
One of my goals for this year is to get an unassisted pullup; felt for ages that I was stalling. But it goes like that sometimes. And I just realised I've increased my assisted single rep max (19kg) to my three rep max! And my 4-8 rep training weight is about to move up to 26kg đ I can do one set before having to drop back to 33kg. It's slow progress because I'm so heavy lol
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