half agony / half hope

(no drinks in) who wants me

Yeah sorry I can't come into work today. I accidentally heard Primadonna by Marina formerly of and the Diamonds. So I need the day to be a primadonna girl. Yeah it's going to be the whole day.

i feel so guilty for this but i really just want an easy life and i always have. like i hate discomfort i hate striving i hate constantly trying i don’t have much ambition i don’t like it when things are hard. it never built my character it actually just gave me more problems on top of the pre-existing ones. i want very badly for it to feel simple and light and comfortable

What jobs even exist

"don't assign human morality to non human things" is so true except when it comes to printers. they know what they are, they understand dilemmas and ethics and morality. they choose to be how they are, they choose to be evil, at their very core they are rotten

Having a "stupider people have done this" attitude about the things you want to do can open so many doors

The four most interesting parts of time loop are when the person kills themselves for the first time, when they kill someone else for the first time (in a fuck around kind of way, this doesn't count if they already were killing people outside of the loop), how they break the loop, and the weeks afterward where they loose their fucking minds in an entirely different, significantly more damaging to the world around them way. And yet I rarely see anything done with that last one. People leave time loops and are all happy go lucky 'oh boy'. Where's the grappling with people you know who will never know you? Where's the knowledge that the safety of the loop is gone, and you can't fix any mistakes you make? That's the good angst I want