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i would like a hug…. JUST KIDDING! i would like TWO hugs. (suddenly becomes cold and standoffish) i don’t need anything or anyone and i don’t want to talk about it.
please wear sunscreen!!! I've seen "fuck the beauty industrial complex" posts about complicated skincare regimens and am 100% with them except sometimes they mention sunscreen and no. no. absolutely not. sunscreen is a wonderful supportive friend who wants to keep you safe, and you should let her do it. throw out all your other cosmetics and skincare products if you want, but keep your sunscreen. and if you're not wearing sunscreen, start wearing it!!!! this is not about terror of aging, this is not about every tiny imperfection our fucked-up culture has made you feel insecure about, this is about protecting yourself from skin cancer. wear the damn sunscreen.
my mother had to basically have her upper lip removed and reconstructed during her surgery to get rid of skin cancer. it looks great now, but it was a traumatic process that left her insecure because her lip doesn't look the way she was used to it looking for 71 years
for HER mother, it was a large section of her nose (again, reconstructed, but still)
wear. the. damn. sunscreen.
Does anyone know what to do about the temperature and also the prices

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the main reason girl grace is so compelling to me is not just because of the way misogyny now tinges everything related to her getting ousted from academia but also that grace's own awareness of that misogyny colors her reaction to it and justification for her own lack of personal growth. because OBVIOUSLY the entire reason she got thrown out of a professional scientific conference for saying some extremely out of pocket shit to a colleague in an academic forum after titling sections of her work intentionally inflammatory statements, is purely because of misogyny. she's right, they're wrong, and they just can't stand that it's a woman telling them that. it's got nothing to do with her immaturity, or abrasiveness, or arrogance, and she will not allow it to affect her sense of self surety at all. because that would mean that the reason she doesn't have any close friends, the reason no one stood up for her, the reason she is still so incredibly lonely, is all her fault. and it can't just be her. it can't be.
the thing about grace is if you give her a single avenue through which to deflect responsibility for her own personal flaws she will take it. she will weaponize a very real issue in the culture and internal structure of academia that does very real harm and genuinely does fuck over people's careers for no reason other than prejudice. and girl grace definitely has actually experienced misogyny in her field, and the chip on her shoulder is much larger as a result and some of that is justified, but she also just SUCKS as a human being because she hasn't gone through her central character arc yet, and it is probably infuriating to be another woman in STEM listening to her complain about being barred from work because of her gender when you really just want to tell her no rylynn its because nobody fucking likes you. and a very scared little part of her brain knows this. but she will never acknowledge it never confront the elephant in the room because when grace gets scared she runs
Why the fuck do burger recipes assume you’re grilling out for a family and not planning an elaborate 2 week baby trapping scenario in which you still don’t exactly know what the baby in this situation would be because you’re gay and he definitely can’t get you pregnant. Not that you’d want to get pregnant of course. But you do think it’d be the easiest means of convincing him to stay. there’s never a recipe for like 4 burgers max.
imagine being called a bottom twink by the kid who moaned when you telekinesis-ed him to his knees in the 70s. armand should be worse

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yknow I'm feeling a bit brave so I will venture to say what this blighted essay's pitch actually is: reading project hail mary (novel and film) as a ravishment fantasy. in both main threads of the narrative grace is brought wildly out of his element and pulled into the orbit of a mysterious foreign stranger who is significantly stronger / richer / more powerful than him, forced to accept unsolicited lavish gifts and personal praise despite protests and discomfort, and made to live in isolated locations in extremely close proximity to these people with no say in the matter, all of which are common motifs in ravishment fantasies. on her own, stratt also brings in other common motifs of restraints, drugging, being above the law, multiple kidnappings (I'm doing crazy things with the classical definition of "rape" as in "abduction" and its shared etymology with "rapture" as in "being taken to the heavens"), and the very specific yet still common motif of "otherwise trustworthy partner goes too far and doesn't take 'no' for an answer." rocky on his own brings in the overprotective flavor common to a lot of dark romance novel heroes, i.e. "I make sure you sleep and I like to watch you while you do it, I make sure you eat enough even if you've got baggage about it, I make inhuman displays of strength when you're injured, and as long as I'm around I'll make sure nothing bad ever happens to you ever again."
the issue I was running into with researching this a few weeks ago is that almost all of the scholarly writing on the content of people's forced-sex fantasies focuses solely on women's fantasies and starts with the research question of "why would women enjoy imagining such a horrible misogynistic thing?" despite surveys often showing that men have force-fantasies (where they are the one being forced) at very comparable rates to women. my hypothesis for a bit was "either men's fantasies are exactly the same as women's or they're completely different in [x] way," which was disproven interestingly when I did finally find something about men's force-fantasies: in content they are almost exactly the same as women's fantasies but the emotional motivations are often different in [y] way, which I hadn't expected. and [y] also super applies to my buddy ryland, perhaps even more than my original [x] hypothesis.
my hopes for writing this are twofold: a) to address the question I sometimes see phm audience members come away with of "if grace likes his life by the end and doesn't seem that mad about all of that, is the message supposed to be 'violation of bodily autonomy is good, actually?'", and b) to lightly resist one of the prevailing notions in the study of forced-sex fantasies, that ravishment fantasies are solely abstracted and fantastical and pleasurable and are completely 100% separate from fearful paranoid imaginings of / flashbacks to realistic sexual violence.
oh also: the most common interpretation of why people have ravishment fantasies is that it allows the fantasist to disavow a desire they feel ashamed of because, in the fiction of the forcing, they don't *want* it at all, they're being made to do whatever it is and can't be considered at fault. as I allude to in my final paragraph of the original post, I think it's a tad more nuanced, but there's definitely a lot of truth to that. grace can tell stratt that he's not smart or important or capable or brave or selfless enough to do what she wants, but she'll ignore it, make him do it anyway, and kit him out with skilled staff members and expensive lab equipment and coffee just the way he likes it. it's a fantasy of being respected and heroic and good whether he likes it or not.
with rocky, the fantasy is of being forced to be loved and protected. rocky decides to initiate contact, he decides that he's moving into the hail mary, he decides that he's always going to watch grace sleep even if grace says he doesn't need it, he decides to gift grace the fuel to get home even when grace pretends he doesn't want it, and he decides he's not going to let grace die to save him even when grace says he's made his choice. the two scenarios allow grace to experience the rewards of being selfless without needing to be so gauche as to ever say he thinks he's that good of a person AND to experience the rewards of being selfish without saying he thinks he deserves to be cared for.
all academic writing is either addison rae reveals the meaning (see fig. 1) or a genre I call the "troubling industrial complex" where you identify something that engages hegemonic power in a way that is ambiguous and incoherent and instead of arriving at a coherent reading of it via the work of your thinking and writing (you know like the job that academic writing is supposed to do) you make a really emphatic but essentially contentless claim that it "troubles" that power structure. and often you start reading academic writing and you're like is this addison rae reveals the meaning or is it troubling industrial complex and they're like I don't understand and you pull out a diagram explaining what is addison rae reveals the meaning and what is troubling industrial complex and they laugh and say "it's good academic writing sir" so you read it and it's troubling industrial complex.
fig 1.
my joke answer for why movie!grace is so built even back on earth is that this is the one favor the universe has ever done for eva stratt. she's in the torment nexus and the earth is dying and she's selling her soul but at least the god she believes in sent her someone to hang out with all the time in the form of a guy who reportedly turned down being awarded "world's sexiest man" twice. does she have time to properly befriend him or initiate anything intimate? good lord no. but when it all gets a bit much she Can look at him for a few seconds.
it's a pity they didn't have a version of the "wait you AREN'T sleeping with stratt?" scene in the movie because we could have had the added layer of "okay yes you're capable and all that but so are a lot of other non-middle school teacher people so we kind of assumed she kept you around because you're. well. I mean."
the main reason girl grace is so compelling to me is not just because of the way misogyny now tinges everything related to her getting ousted from academia but also that grace's own awareness of that misogyny colors her reaction to it and justification for her own lack of personal growth. because OBVIOUSLY the entire reason she got thrown out of a professional scientific conference for saying some extremely out of pocket shit to a colleague in an academic forum after titling sections of her work intentionally inflammatory statements, is purely because of misogyny. she's right, they're wrong, and they just can't stand that it's a woman telling them that. it's got nothing to do with her immaturity, or abrasiveness, or arrogance, and she will not allow it to affect her sense of self surety at all. because that would mean that the reason she doesn't have any close friends, the reason no one stood up for her, the reason she is still so incredibly lonely, is all her fault. and it can't just be her. it can't be.
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because it's pride month I'm going to swing my favourite bat and my favourite hornets nest and remind you all that pansexuality is just bisexuality wearing a biphobic/transphobic hat. and if people had actually fucking read up on lgbt history and culture before posting bullshit on social media then there wouldn't be whole insulting labels in the mainstream.
I will never forgive the uwu mogai crowd for thinking they were SO MUCH BETTER than this bogeyman version of bisexuality based entirely on shitty stereotypes. I will never forgive them for thinking you needed a whole new sexuality to be attracted to trans people. and now their fucking churlish ignorant antics just created more division, more biphobia, and more transphobia. bisexuality was NEVER binary or about being attracted to the gender binary but its way too late to fix the damage and it makes me so fucking sad. all because people couldn't be bothered to read up on their lgbt history like the bisexual manifesto, or listen to trans people.
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