A sad hoe

Alternate-ish au, where saeyoung lives alone and his antics aren't just limited to the RFA, but the whole universe shall suffer. (rom-com) ________________________________________________________________ "Can you help me wear this tie?" you rubbed your eyes, making sure you were actually awake.

It's only been about three days since you have moved to this neighbourhood, and it was 6 am in the effin morning when this man started banging on your door, scaring the shit out of you. He was looking at you with pleading puppy eyes, not usually voilent but you surely wouldn't mind throwing a punch right now.

Who the hell wakes up their neighbour, whom they've never met before, and don't even introduce themselves or greet properly before-- SHIT, was he some kind of psycho freak? Serial killers do odd things to lure nowadays-

"I know I'm cute, but could you stop staring? I REALLY need to get going, so if i could have my tie tied quickly." he said, sheepishly scratching the back of his neck.

She looked him up and down, is scratch a sign for nervousness? or a bad liar? i don't remember shit from that "how body language talks" masterclass whatever-

"Are you crazy? You were about to break my door for a tie!? Who even are you??" she asked, livid.

Meow.

You & Jason on the thread-line of friends or more. Redhood saves you and Jason's now mildly jealous of himself. _____________________________________________________________ ৎ Lit!Major Jason who is smitten with you, platonically or romantically? He doesn't know doesn't want to admit. You've been good friends for a while now. You both take long walks across the campus, discussing a wide-variety of books, from classic to super absurd. You both study together at the library, and he adores your pout and how you roll your pen with your fingers when you're confused. He loves your smile and the headbop when you finally concquer a topic.

ৎ Lit!Major Jason who saves you from crashing out during exams, non-chalantly serving you with the best-and-most--helpful notes and summary pdfs that save your ass cause he probably takes all lectures properly ৎ Lit!Major Jason who tries out new burgers with you every friday, this friday was messy habibi burger. He can and does spend hours talking to you about any and every topic includingggg superheroes. Yuppp, he tries so hard to hide his stupidly big smile when you shit-talk batman, calling him hypocritical, almosttt a criminal himself, comparing him and all other heroes/vigilantes to little attention freaks. "A friend to everyone is a friend to none, so how can he save everyone's life without that leading to the ruin of some other lives? I know not my best analogy, but Gotham needs more long-term solutions, this short-team beat their bones and get applauded by everyone alone is no good." Jason nodded, as you continued. ৎ Lit!Major Jason who is out patrolling as redhood and sees a familiar face.

You're called by the principal cause your daughter resorted to voilence. Reader is a pissed-off, overworked nurse. (very basic plot w fluff) ____________________________________________________________

You came in a hurry, your ID card still hanging to your neck as your eyes spotted Jason sitting in the waiting room. His legs sprawled out, manspreading as always. "Did Mrs.Miller say something?" You said in fast-pace while collecting your breath, grabbing a seat beside him.

"Not yet, still waiting" he replied, as you took your water bottle out taking a few sips before continuining, "I wonder what's gotten into her." "You'd know more if you paid attention to her." he spat back. "well, my sincerest apologies for being busy working so that my child can have a good life. And fyi, i've taught my baby better than to just throw hands." "So you'd rather our daughter just silently put up with bullshit?" Because 'you've taught her better.' he mocked, using his fingers for air-commas. "OH, so YOU have gotten into her?" She questioned, glaring at him. "What, I can't look out for our daughter?" she hated his smug smile, "Just taught her not to tolerate shit." he mumbled. "Jason! You're impossible!" she scoffed. "No wonder bruce's concerned about you" red-code, red-code, she dunnit, she HAS dunnit, shitttt.

• No spoilers for the most part.

• Angst, angst and angst.

Jihyun's mind is still stuck between Rika and MC, but when you can't choose between your past and present. Doesn't it means they can't become your future?

:) It is unbearable (:

(Jihyun x MC )

It was just another lazy morning when V and you woke up, giving him a peck on the cheek.

You were in the kitchen, lost in thought, as you mindlessly flipped the pancakes.

After serving them on the table, you both sat on the chairs.

You were busy playing with the fork and food, as if the pancakes didn't reached your standard.

• "Mc?" V called out, with his calm voice. You looked up from the plate into his eyes and a tear made it's way down your cheek.

• "Mc.., you are you okay? Did you burn your hand, show me.. or did someone say something?

• V bombarded you with questions in 2x speed trying to look calm and got up from his chair, coming towards you to inspect.

• You looked back at the plate, and asked"Do you love me?" in such a low voice that it almost sounded like a whisper.

• "What?" V asked, even thou he had heard what you said.

• "Do you 'actually' love me?" You repeated but this time, a little more firmly.

• "Just say no, and I'll leave. There's no use of crying over spilled milk, is there?"

He was about to say something, but you continued again.

• "And please, don't. Just don't lie, please.."

you warned him, as you were already so tired of him feeding you lies just because he was conflicted between you and Rika.

• "I.. I'm.. I'm trying." V replied, with all honesty.

• "But please give me a little more time? I, I'm all yours. It's just.. it's just that I need a little more time maybe."

How should I forgive you for giving me hopes and never actually loving me back? Your mind wanted to scream in his face, but your lips didn't obey.

• "I'm trying to understand you, V but I don't think I can anymore. I genuinely can't, no matter how much I try .."

Or should I say that I'm fucking aware of the lies you're feeding me just because of your bad decision making and hiding it all using time as an excuse?"

• "I.." V tried cutting you in between but you didn't let him.

• You kept speaking a bit more loud now, "No, please no. Not again. Not more lies , god, You can't always escape from the truth." And the hurricane of tears rushed towards you.

• "You just can't!" You stood up slamming your head on the table, with salty tears running through your cheek.

Honestly, this was the very first argument where you were actually heated up because you both have always been extremely calm.

You sat back on the chair again, whereas V sat on the floor Infront of you holding your hands, as if his life depends on them.

• You sobbed into his chest unceasingly, hands clutching at his shoulders. And he held you in silence.

• Your tears soaked his shirt, your howls of misery worsening and the pain making it hard for V while you were taking short pauses for recovering breaths, and then you distanced herself back.

In between sobs and hiccups, you continue "Let's.. let's just talk okay? I.. I can't share you. Just as weird as it sounds it's the truth because I can't constantly think of myself as a competition. I'm a human who needs love, not a toy who should always be on edge about how his owner might abandon him anytime."

You took a deep breath and continued,

• "I love you, and I will always. I.. I promise, you've to be one of the best things in my life but it hurts a little too much. The more I try to control myself, the more it hurts. You dream of her, you wake up groggily calling her name, the pain gets worse when i see you looking back at your pictures, her texts, i see you reminiscing those memories. You're not over it.. that's fine, heart has it's reasons for which reason knows nothing." The silence was heavy. • But.. I can't give you more time, especially when you you're using that time to spend nights with rika."

And now V got the full picture as for why you so mad today. He never wanted to cheat on you, he cherished you, he did but.. he made a mistake, or should I say he repeated his mistakes and repeatedly felt guilty about it and it became a constant loop.

Him going to the asylum; visiting Rika. Her kissing him and he couldn't help but reciprocate, he just couldn't fucking help it despite the immense guilt.

He looked back at mc's tear-streaked face, his real face was infront of her. No more feeling guilty, hiding, sneaking.

But was he ready to loose mc? but he know deep down how star-struck he by Rika, even now, he just couldn't move on.

• "Jihyun" mc called out to him, softly, pulling him out of his thoughts.

• "I.. sorry, I don't know mc. I just couldn't.. But I'm trying, I am. And.. .. and I promise I'll get better, I'll get better for you, for us. I'll get better in to give YOU all my love. Iloveyou, please.."

V pleaded, squeezing your hands

"I love you." You replied, as Jihyun took a sigh of relief.

• "I genuinely do. I want you to be happy, but your confusion is a decision Jihyun. Love isn't a quiz, it's not the best choice answer, it's whatever answer you can't help but always choose at the end of the day.

Even you could hear how stupid your analogy was, but you had to speak your heart.

• "Please please please, don't leave me MC. I.. I get that okay? I. . I allowed her to mess with my mind, but it won't repeat okay? I'll I'll forget her, forget it please-"

• You had to cut him off, "I.. I don't blame her V and I don't blame you either, I know it's not easy to leave someone you love so much, but you've to love yourself too."

• She took a deep breath, "I can't do it anymore, I can't be a part of your confusion. I might not be the one for you, and I hope you'd find your someone." She smiled at him, holding his hand making him stand up.

• "A new and happy beginning, I genuinely pray you get that even if i'm nowhere in that happy beginning because.. because it hurts too much to stay."

And if I've to be more honest. It has become unbearable.

You stood up, and perhaps this was the last time you saw V before leaving his house, forever.

And perhaps, it was all for the best.

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1. “You've made it difficult for me to even look at you, without realising that you don't even look.. ashamed of what you've done.”

2. Drunk person; I'm tired of thinking that what can be the purpose behind murdering people?

3. “When you become a monster, you NEED another monster to wear you out” were the last words I said before chopping off his fingers.

4. “You can scream at me, as much as you want. But your brother will stop breathing, the moment you step out of this gate.”

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You were sitting at the corner of the bed, curled up like a tiny little ball with puffy eyes as the door creaked.

You knew who it was, there wasn't much variety in your social interactions anymore. Your whole body started trembling, at the sound of him keeping the plate with a thud. "let's eat" he firmly said, as you looked into his eyes, trying to find atleast an ounce of regret. For the unlimited scars, emotional and physical, and how he didn't stop even when you were screaming, begging for a drop of water to satisfy your burning throat.

"Start eating, what I did was the consequence of your own actions, you ought to be less stubborn yk?" He continued removing the rope from her right hand.

"You think you love me? she whispered

"Why else do you think I've kept you here?"

"THEN WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?" You screamed, as tears spilled

"Hey, hey. Shhh, you just have to be more obedient and affirmative and I promise we'll stay happy forever." He replied, while patting your head.

"No, no we won't, i'm loosing my mind here alrite? I don't want to live here, tip toe around you like egg-shells and try to be a perfect doecile human for you to fucking play with." He sat on the bed, grabbing the spoon, "let's eat, ok?"

"I can't sleep, I'm in constant fear, I hate your presence coming around whenever tf you want"

Silence.

"You ignore me when YOU want to, and love me when YOU want to. "

He threw the plate towards her feet, with a loud thud and stood up abruptly.

"You just keep treating me worse and I CAN'T take it any more. You aren't taking away my pain, you're.. you're giving me more pain."

Silence.

"Let me fucking live, if not with anyone else, then at least let me live with myself. LET ME SAVE MYSELF."

"You know how much it hurts, don't you?" she questioned again, as she saw him walk towards the door.

"Will you be happy if I'll give up? And you'll find me-"

He slammed the door shut, footsteps going away.

"Will he be happy, if he'll find me dead? Because I'm ready to go."

She took out the small shard of mirror she hid underneath her pillow.

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