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I didn't like Nesta in the first book like your sister is here looking after you and you're are nasty and not even grateful but ngl in the following books she had a certain appeal with her nasty behavior. (I think the difference to the first and the following books was that her behavior towards Feyre bothered me because I just found it unfair but I didn't care about it when it came to the IC, let's be honest they often deserved it) I learned to like her in Feyre's book and i learned to understand and love her in her own book.

But i still don't support it when some stans act like Nesta was a saint. They take away what makes Nesta so interesting and relatable. Her flaws makes her interesting, her flaws makes her real. (+ they also take away the whole point of her book when basically saying she was a saint. Her whole journey was about dealing with her supressed emotions and loving herself)

I love how complex Nesta as a character is. Like it or not Nesta is a queen without a throne. I loved how she was often described as queen-like in the books.

I relate to Nesta on a different Level.

I know the feeling when you have too much suppressed feeling inside of you and the moment just comes when you burst. I know the feeling when you take your anger out on the wrong person. I also had a Feyre for my Nesta. A person where I could let my emotions flow because I subconsciously knew I could let them out. The mix between gratitude for this person and also regret that I took my emotions out on her in the first place. A person where i know she still loves me even when in some moments i was not nice to her. I know the cycle of being angry and feeling numb. When you are angry you want to feel numb and when you are numb you want to feel angry because anger is better than feeling nothing at all or when you alone with you thoughts.

I don't exuse her behavior towards Feyre and Elain but i understand where she is coming from.

Do i understand that people still don't like her after her book? Yes i do.

Nesta is a complex character. I think Nesta is the kind of character you like/love when you feel connected to her in a certain way. I think this is also one of the reasons why Nesta stans are one of the loudest in this fandom simply because they relate to her on a personal level. I can understand when people say I read the books for fun and don't want to do character analysis but if some people just would look twice they would see how beautifully complex Nesta is.

Amarantha, Hybern, Ianthe, and Beron suck so hate them.

Everyone else gets so much hate (especially here) for like no reason. Because they all do something really really bad at some point. Every. Single. Character. All of them.

Rhys and Nesta I think especially so. Rhys consistently hides things from the people he trusts which hurts them and puts them in danger (pregnancy stuff, high lady, keir etc). Nesta is bitch and hits where it hurts and is kind of spoiled. But they both love harder and sacrifice everything for people they love. They just don’t value themselves.

Dislike them. I dislike mor because of the shit she pulled with az and cas but I’m not anti-mor.

Nesta gives them dance lessons! (They use the shiny magic iPod that Cassian got her for Solstice, and Feyre starts a huge leg warmers trend in Velaris)

Elain shares her favourite recipes with them! (It's mostly Elain explaining a new technique she discovered while Feyre and Nesta monch all the batches to "taste test")

Feyre teaches them how to paint! (It's a handy way to get Nyx's nursery decorated too! They'll make a huge mess and have Rhys clean up)

The Archeron sisters and Nyx

“Nesta.” His fingers grazed her shoulder. She couldn’t bear that touch. The kindness in it.

“Please,” she said. Her first word in five days. He stilled.

“Please what?”

She leaned from him. “Don’t touch me. Don’t-don’t be kind to me.” The words were a sobbing, rippling jumble.

“Why?”

The list of reasons surged, fighting to get out, to voice themselves, and she let them decide. Let them flow through her as she whispered, “I let him die.”

Nesta and Cassian - A Court of Thorns and Roses

That's why I love female characters like Nesta Archeron and Felisin Paran, who are bitter, who are broken and exist in sharp shards, who cut even the people who try to hold them because that is simply the form they exist in.

Through simple proximity they cannot help but hurt the ones they love, even though they don't want to

That is the realest, most human shit ever

But fandoms will always despise this in female characters because they expect them to have an sense of grace, a certain level of acquiescence, and an overt kindness to those around them

Fans often expect these characters to perform according to their expectations of femininity and completely ignore or brush over the internal struggles or moral values of these women. It is not enough for these characters to think or act for the benefit of others if it doesn't feel like a direct apology to the often male characters who are important to the audience

Fans ignore how words or actions may hurt these characters while magnifying how the characters words or actions hurt others.