SU Lapis mainly, Other shit sometimes

Coming to the end of my strange time in a strange land, and I honestly could not have gotten through all the pain and struggle without my biggest supporter BIG BOTTLE OF WATERBASED LUBE!!!!

Just took my third shower today, I'm in so much pain and am tired for the last week... But it finally actually hit me that my DICKS FUCKING GONE. I HAVE AN ACTUAL VAGINA. A very bruised and cut one right now but like... I've been too sore to realise, despite not shaving very well, I haven't had dysphoria for days, I haven't looked in the mirror and felt even a pang of disgust. Hell yeah to chicks with dicks but FUCK ME I've been taking psychic damage my whole life. I've been wanting this for so long I buried it by unlearning how to want but like I actually, genuinely, will be able to believe that things can get better now.