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I want to thank @rubyc7 for liking and reblogging todays special thing. You rock!
It's the 1st anniversary of DemonRose, the ship that @spiritsncrystals and I created. It's the crossover of Aki and Jehu. Thanks for all the support so far, and here's to another year of fun.
Hey! You just caught a pokemon! What could it be??
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Now that we have Sera in Duel Links, next unlockable character? Her brother Diva. Because Cubics do actually look like an interesting deck archetype.
Who's with me on this?

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I heard that someone has turned 16 today.
Happy Birthday @spiritsncrystals hope I smashed last years offering for you~
oh god what did i do
IT SUMMONS MAIL EVERYONE TRY IT
HOLY FUCKING COW.
OKAY ITâS TRUE
???
I THOUGHT IT WAS A JOKE
WHAT HOW
Iâve been wondering what message it sends for awhile now, apparently itâs random?
oh?
OH
#lmfao no way #why do i reblog these things #hahaha #urban legends #tumblr myths #im so gullibleÂ
nO FUCKING WAY THIS JUST
gUYS NO JOKE I GOTÂ âmotor oilâ IN MY ASK BOX IâM SCREAMINH
I HOPE U GUYS DONâT LIEÂ
THIS SHIT FUCKING WORKS WTF
youâre shitting me
HOLY MOTHER OF ALL THAT IS GOOD IN THE WORL-
i wanna see what happens
it looks fun i guess
Where did this even come from
This sho
Wierd :o
I want in
I call doubt
Hmm
I D I D T H I S A N D I G O T A N A S K T H A T J U S T â P A N T S â
i s2g-
i fUKCIGN REBLOGGED THIS AND DAMN IT
I dont believe this
My anon is off. Bout to catch this fucker.
I donât think it works like thatâŚ. Itâs probably more like a deer, it wonât come out if itâs going to be caught⌠whatever it is thatâs sending the messages xâD
..what if it shows up as anon anyway?????
O . O Then we know itâs a real myth and not just followers seeing you post this and sending random messagesâŚ. xDÂ
GUYS THIS SHIT WORKS
yolo
Iâm sure that this ainât gonna work for me. Prove me wrong.
ok i believe
shrug emoji
BITCH FUCK ME UP
DROWN ME IN YOUR MESSAGES
what is this mahogoney.
Dude wtf
((i am utterly confused))
Yeah right, as if itâs realâŚ
(But I am actually desperately lonely and hoping it is)
*rolls eyes* suuuure
//:^)))
pls
NOT EVEN A MINUTE LATER
NOPE IM OUT
wot in tarnationÂ
can i get a hoopla
I wanna see if something actualky happens
(UPDATE) it actually works
only doing this to see if something happens
(UPDATE - LMAO IT ACTUALLY WORKS)
OKAY LETS TRY IT
Not even some magical being can make me get something on my inbox, that shitâs a fucking desert
Askbox empty will wait to see what happens
Ah it works Iâm not having a crisis or anything Iâm so confused
they said âsorry, got caught in trafficâ Iâm knDJSMSN
hm doES it really work?
What the hell is this
If this works it will be the second thing to ever be in my ask box oof
Aight letâs try
i have tried this multiple times before and they all worked
iâm gonna be surprised if they still come in
Letâs try this bitch
Letâs see if this still works
dont trick me, ya dingle
I know for a fact that if I do receive something Iâll be super freaked out for no reason.
Letâs see what happens. Iâve lived long enough anyway.
Come at me
I wanna
please
Hmm⌠Maybe?
Holy shit it works!
Ive got mail!
Letâs go gaymers lmao
Why not? Will it bring people out of the woodwork?
I want to see what will happen X3
WHAT!?
HOW IS THIS REAL????
OwO
hmm? does it still work?
It's this important boi's birthday today!!!!
A random thought
When I first started playing Duel Links, my first ever event was Yubel.
I guess that explains alot.....
I have a few colour by number apps, because they are relaxing etc. This is the most beautiful one I have coloured so far, a Kitsune girl, or nine tails fox, whichever one fits. I hope I get to do more like this one day.

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A year ago today, I got talking to someone who not only loved GX like me, but rped as the opposite person to who I rped as.
It's been a rollercoaster of a year, with many amazing rps of all different kinds.
@spiritsncrystals, thank you for being my friend, and for making my boys happy.
Happy 1st anniversary of friendship! Heres to the next year, and beyond!
It's this dorks Birthday today.
"I will not let you put yourself at risk."
Judai was a little surprised to hear that from Johan âwhy not?â heâd done it in the past but Johan had never said anything about it before.
âBecause I realized how reckless you have been in the pastâŚ. And that itâs mainly been my fault for the reason why. I just⌠Donât want to lose you.â He sounded sad.
He could feel the sadness in johanâs voice
Ok judai knew he could be reckless but he wasnât idioticly reckless (in the sense of literally doing something that heâd no doubt end up getting killed from)
He gave a reassuring smile to the other replying with a reassuring tone.
âOk i know i have been Reckless before and i still can be but Iâm not reckless enough to actually get myself killed. I promise you that whatever i do i wont let myself be killed. And if i happen to break it then.. Well you have full permission to call me and idiot or something on my graveâ
Johan choked up at that. âSo getting yourself possessed by a genocidal king isnât reckless? Or using a spell card to fuse withâŚ. That?â He was almost screaming by then.
Ok Johan had a point. Those werenât his finest moves.
More getting possessuth than the fusing because lets be honest if he hadnât heâd practically be the only person alive living sadly with yubel.
âAlright you have a point.â
He calmed down. âI understand the fusing, that was to save us all. But Haou? And what he made you do? I just donât get it.â
Not that he wanted to. He knew that Judai had âkilledâ four of their friends, or rather Haou did, but it didnât make it look any better.
Nobody must have told him the full story about that and thatâs when the smile had completely faded from his face.
âI Guess nobody Told you the Full story about it.. Although i have my reasons for not taking about itâ
Whilst it was only partly his fault what had happened he still felt very guilty about it all. In any case really it was Brrons fault that manjoume, kenzan, Fubiki and Asuka had died because of him.
Johan noticed that the look on Judaiâs face had changed. âSo⌠It wasnât you who did it then?â He asked hesitantly, still not sure what to think.
Mind you, he had done something equally as bad, but through no fault of his own.
âWell⌠Partly⌠I didnât even want them to die.. After seeing manjoume go i even tried to prevent the others getting killed by not attacking brrons monsters but he found away to force mine into attacking his Aswell as directly.â his face grew more uncomfortable as he continued it wasnât exactly pleasant dwelling on such a memory.
âif id had something that couldâve countered him being able to do that i wouldâve used it but i didnât⌠And i guess thatâs when i kinda lost it..â the tone of his voice seemed to droop as he seemed to slow down in his words almost breaking them off from each other within the sentence that wasnât exactly the proper trigger but it was still impactful.
Johan nodded, not sure what to say or do. He didnât even know what was going on at the time. Seeing as he wasnât even there. He moved over to Judai, and gave him a big hug, trying to comfort him.
Tears started dwelling in his eyes. âi just remember being so enraged and bloodthirsty wanting to kill brron for itâŚâ it really did hurt emotionally recalling all of it âhe wouldâve killed sho too if heâd been in the exact same spot as they were i was really relieved when i saw he was alive but the relief was really short lasted asâŚâ he seemed to pause as in hesitance for a moment he guessed he could probably describe this bit as the start of the trigger
âHey⌠Shhhh. You donât need to say it if ya donât want to.â Johan said softly, knowing how distressed Judai appeared. He hugged the other tighter, letting him cry it out if he needed to. âLetâs just try to forget this whole thing happened, and vow not to be so reckless, hm?â
The brunette just seemed speechless after that as he hugged back tightly almost sobbing onto the others shirt. Judai really couldnât help getting like this whenever these memories made a frequent return to him. There was just so much guilt and despairity from it all and it seemed to reduce one who would usually seem as confident and full of energy down to a literal emotional wreck. He wanted to forget it all but its really hard to forget such a traumatic thing as it would sometimes bring back PTSD for him every now and then âi.. Donât know if i can forget itâŚâ
He just let the other cry it out, being there for him, as a comforting presence. âHave you ever thought about getting some sort of therapy for it?â Johan said softly, not wanting to sound patronising or offensive. âBecause it might actually help.â
While what Johan was suggesting did seem to be a good idea, Judai, on the other hand didnât exactly know how to feel about it.
Heâd gotten therapy in the past as a child and as a result from it heâd ended up forgetting yubel which at the time of remembering about them and the stuff they had caused whilst they were a child and the action heâd taken in response probably had added to the guilt and other things heâd felt after returning from that dimension without johan returning himself.
It wasnât really that he didnât think therapy was a good suggestion, it was more that he was afraid of what would happen, thinking that if he ended up forgetting something vital and as a result a concequence would lead to another problem for a lot of people because of it which he was just very scared of what if it did happen"
Heâd keep it in consideration for now but Judai felt like he needed a second voice about it, anothers opinion before his own.
So he lifted his head off the others shoulder, quickly drying his eyes that were now slightly red aswell as a little puffy from crying, taking a deep breath before looking directly at the other in the face with a gentle yet weary and sorrowful expression âIâm not sure⌠Johan can i please have your opinion on it first, as in do you think i should?â
Wow, he was not expecting that. âYou want my opinion on the matter?â He asked softly. He thought about the pros and cons of it. After a while he finally spoke. âI think it would be a good idea to. But make sure this time that nothing gets forgotten, so nothing bad can happen his time.â That was the best answer he could come up with.
He felt a sense of relief hearing that from the other, he was just glad that johan had put in consideration about what happened the last time he had gotten therapy because it really was crucial that his memory stayed in tact this time for Everyoneâs safety. âThank you.â while he was more assured about getting therapy he knew to himself that it was not something he could do alone if he was going to do it he needed someone to be there with him. âJohan.. If i get therapy⌠Would youâŚâ he paused for a moment trying to get the words out âWould you come with me?.. It might seem stupid but i feel like this is something i canât do alone..and if i wanted anyone to help me go through with it⌠Itâd be you Trust me it does feel stupid of me to want it but i canât help it..â
âYou donât even need to ask silly. I made a promise to protect you, and support you, not matter what.â Johan chuckled a little. He was glad that Judai had agreed to his idea. âI have a feeling this time will be better, and nothing bad will happen.â
He wasnât as sure as the other was about his feeling but for now he decided to trust the others feeling âI hope soâ he then tightly hugged johan starting to tear up slightly again but rather this time they were mostly happy tears, tears of relief âJohan, thank you so much⌠Iâll do it then, im glad to have someone like you as a boyfriendâ a small smile had crept up on his face as well.
Johan smiled back. "Its what I'm here for. And I'll happily support you in any way I can." He hugged the other back, relieved that Judai had agreed with him after all.
"I will not let you put yourself at risk."
Judai was a little surprised to hear that from Johan âwhy not?â heâd done it in the past but Johan had never said anything about it before.
âBecause I realized how reckless you have been in the pastâŚ. And that itâs mainly been my fault for the reason why. I just⌠Donât want to lose you.â He sounded sad.
He could feel the sadness in johanâs voice
Ok judai knew he could be reckless but he wasnât idioticly reckless (in the sense of literally doing something that heâd no doubt end up getting killed from)
He gave a reassuring smile to the other replying with a reassuring tone.
âOk i know i have been Reckless before and i still can be but Iâm not reckless enough to actually get myself killed. I promise you that whatever i do i wont let myself be killed. And if i happen to break it then.. Well you have full permission to call me and idiot or something on my graveâ
Johan choked up at that. âSo getting yourself possessed by a genocidal king isnât reckless? Or using a spell card to fuse withâŚ. That?â He was almost screaming by then.
Ok Johan had a point. Those werenât his finest moves.
More getting possessuth than the fusing because lets be honest if he hadnât heâd practically be the only person alive living sadly with yubel.
âAlright you have a point.â
He calmed down. âI understand the fusing, that was to save us all. But Haou? And what he made you do? I just donât get it.â
Not that he wanted to. He knew that Judai had âkilledâ four of their friends, or rather Haou did, but it didnât make it look any better.
Nobody must have told him the full story about that and thatâs when the smile had completely faded from his face.
âI Guess nobody Told you the Full story about it.. Although i have my reasons for not taking about itâ
Whilst it was only partly his fault what had happened he still felt very guilty about it all. In any case really it was Brrons fault that manjoume, kenzan, Fubiki and Asuka had died because of him.
Johan noticed that the look on Judaiâs face had changed. âSo⌠It wasnât you who did it then?â He asked hesitantly, still not sure what to think.
Mind you, he had done something equally as bad, but through no fault of his own.
âWell⌠Partly⌠I didnât even want them to die.. After seeing manjoume go i even tried to prevent the others getting killed by not attacking brrons monsters but he found away to force mine into attacking his Aswell as directly.â his face grew more uncomfortable as he continued it wasnât exactly pleasant dwelling on such a memory.
âif id had something that couldâve countered him being able to do that i wouldâve used it but i didnât⌠And i guess thatâs when i kinda lost it..â the tone of his voice seemed to droop as he seemed to slow down in his words almost breaking them off from each other within the sentence that wasnât exactly the proper trigger but it was still impactful.
Johan nodded, not sure what to say or do. He didnât even know what was going on at the time. Seeing as he wasnât even there. He moved over to Judai, and gave him a big hug, trying to comfort him.
Tears started dwelling in his eyes. âi just remember being so enraged and bloodthirsty wanting to kill brron for itâŚâ it really did hurt emotionally recalling all of it âhe wouldâve killed sho too if heâd been in the exact same spot as they were i was really relieved when i saw he was alive but the relief was really short lasted asâŚâ he seemed to pause as in hesitance for a moment he guessed he could probably describe this bit as the start of the trigger
âHey⌠Shhhh. You donât need to say it if ya donât want to.â Johan said softly, knowing how distressed Judai appeared. He hugged the other tighter, letting him cry it out if he needed to. âLetâs just try to forget this whole thing happened, and vow not to be so reckless, hm?â
The brunette just seemed speechless after that as he hugged back tightly almost sobbing onto the others shirt. Judai really couldnât help getting like this whenever these memories made a frequent return to him. There was just so much guilt and despairity from it all and it seemed to reduce one who would usually seem as confident and full of energy down to a literal emotional wreck. He wanted to forget it all but its really hard to forget such a traumatic thing as it would sometimes bring back PTSD for him every now and then âi.. Donât know if i can forget itâŚâ
He just let the other cry it out, being there for him, as a comforting presence. âHave you ever thought about getting some sort of therapy for it?â Johan said softly, not wanting to sound patronising or offensive. âBecause it might actually help.â
While what Johan was suggesting did seem to be a good idea, Judai, on the other hand didnât exactly know how to feel about it.
Heâd gotten therapy in the past as a child and as a result from it heâd ended up forgetting yubel which at the time of remembering about them and the stuff they had caused whilst they were a child and the action heâd taken in response probably had added to the guilt and other things heâd felt after returning from that dimension without johan returning himself.
It wasnât really that he didnât think therapy was a good suggestion, it was more that he was afraid of what would happen, thinking that if he ended up forgetting something vital and as a result a concequence would lead to another problem for a lot of people because of it which he was just very scared of what if it did happen"
Heâd keep it in consideration for now but Judai felt like he needed a second voice about it, anothers opinion before his own.
So he lifted his head off the others shoulder, quickly drying his eyes that were now slightly red aswell as a little puffy from crying, taking a deep breath before looking directly at the other in the face with a gentle yet weary and sorrowful expression âIâm not sure⌠Johan can i please have your opinion on it first, as in do you think i should?â
Wow, he was not expecting that. âYou want my opinion on the matter?â He asked softly. He thought about the pros and cons of it. After a while he finally spoke. âI think it would be a good idea to. But make sure this time that nothing gets forgotten, so nothing bad can happen his time.â That was the best answer he could come up with.
He felt a sense of relief hearing that from the other, he was just glad that johan had put in consideration about what happened the last time he had gotten therapy because it really was crucial that his memory stayed in tact this time for Everyoneâs safety. âThank you.â while he was more assured about getting therapy he knew to himself that it was not something he could do alone if he was going to do it he needed someone to be there with him. âJohan.. If i get therapy⌠Would youâŚâ he paused for a moment trying to get the words out âWould you come with me?.. It might seem stupid but i feel like this is something i canât do alone..and if i wanted anyone to help me go through with it⌠Itâd be you Trust me it does feel stupid of me to want it but i canât help it..â
"You don't even need to ask silly. I made a promise to protect you, and support you, not matter what." Johan chuckled a little. He was glad that Judai had agreed to his idea. "I have a feeling this time will be better, and nothing bad will happen."

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"I will not let you put yourself at risk."
Judai was a little surprised to hear that from Johan âwhy not?â heâd done it in the past but Johan had never said anything about it before.
âBecause I realized how reckless you have been in the pastâŚ. And that itâs mainly been my fault for the reason why. I just⌠Donât want to lose you.â He sounded sad.
He could feel the sadness in johanâs voice
Ok judai knew he could be reckless but he wasnât idioticly reckless (in the sense of literally doing something that heâd no doubt end up getting killed from)
He gave a reassuring smile to the other replying with a reassuring tone.
âOk i know i have been Reckless before and i still can be but Iâm not reckless enough to actually get myself killed. I promise you that whatever i do i wont let myself be killed. And if i happen to break it then.. Well you have full permission to call me and idiot or something on my graveâ
Johan choked up at that. âSo getting yourself possessed by a genocidal king isnât reckless? Or using a spell card to fuse withâŚ. That?â He was almost screaming by then.
Ok Johan had a point. Those werenât his finest moves.
More getting possessuth than the fusing because lets be honest if he hadnât heâd practically be the only person alive living sadly with yubel.
âAlright you have a point.â
He calmed down. âI understand the fusing, that was to save us all. But Haou? And what he made you do? I just donât get it.â
Not that he wanted to. He knew that Judai had âkilledâ four of their friends, or rather Haou did, but it didnât make it look any better.
Nobody must have told him the full story about that and thatâs when the smile had completely faded from his face.
âI Guess nobody Told you the Full story about it.. Although i have my reasons for not taking about itâ
Whilst it was only partly his fault what had happened he still felt very guilty about it all. In any case really it was Brrons fault that manjoume, kenzan, Fubiki and Asuka had died because of him.
Johan noticed that the look on Judaiâs face had changed. âSo⌠It wasnât you who did it then?â He asked hesitantly, still not sure what to think.
Mind you, he had done something equally as bad, but through no fault of his own.
âWell⌠Partly⌠I didnât even want them to die.. After seeing manjoume go i even tried to prevent the others getting killed by not attacking brrons monsters but he found away to force mine into attacking his Aswell as directly.â his face grew more uncomfortable as he continued it wasnât exactly pleasant dwelling on such a memory.
âif id had something that couldâve countered him being able to do that i wouldâve used it but i didnât⌠And i guess thatâs when i kinda lost it..â the tone of his voice seemed to droop as he seemed to slow down in his words almost breaking them off from each other within the sentence that wasnât exactly the proper trigger but it was still impactful.
Johan nodded, not sure what to say or do. He didnât even know what was going on at the time. Seeing as he wasnât even there. He moved over to Judai, and gave him a big hug, trying to comfort him.
Tears started dwelling in his eyes. âi just remember being so enraged and bloodthirsty wanting to kill brron for itâŚâ it really did hurt emotionally recalling all of it âhe wouldâve killed sho too if heâd been in the exact same spot as they were i was really relieved when i saw he was alive but the relief was really short lasted asâŚâ he seemed to pause as in hesitance for a moment he guessed he could probably describe this bit as the start of the trigger
âHey⌠Shhhh. You donât need to say it if ya donât want to.â Johan said softly, knowing how distressed Judai appeared. He hugged the other tighter, letting him cry it out if he needed to. âLetâs just try to forget this whole thing happened, and vow not to be so reckless, hm?â
The brunette just seemed speechless after that as he hugged back tightly almost sobbing onto the others shirt. Judai really couldnât help getting like this whenever these memories made a frequent return to him. There was just so much guilt and despairity from it all and it seemed to reduce one who would usually seem as confident and full of energy down to a literal emotional wreck. He wanted to forget it all but its really hard to forget such a traumatic thing as it would sometimes bring back PTSD for him every now and then âi.. Donât know if i can forget itâŚâ
He just let the other cry it out, being there for him, as a comforting presence. âHave you ever thought about getting some sort of therapy for it?â Johan said softly, not wanting to sound patronising or offensive. âBecause it might actually help.â
While what Johan was suggesting did seem to be a good idea, Judai, on the other hand didnât exactly know how to feel about it.
Heâd gotten therapy in the past as a child and as a result from it heâd ended up forgetting yubel which at the time of remembering about them and the stuff they had caused whilst they were a child and the action heâd taken in response probably had added to the guilt and other things heâd felt after returning from that dimension without johan returning himself.
It wasnât really that he didnât think therapy was a good suggestion, it was more that he was afraid of what would happen, thinking that if he ended up forgetting something vital and as a result a concequence would lead to another problem for a lot of people because of it which he was just very scared of what if it did happen"
Heâd keep it in consideration for now but Judai felt like he needed a second voice about it, anothers opinion before his own.
So he lifted his head off the others shoulder, quickly drying his eyes that were now slightly red aswell as a little puffy from crying, taking a deep breath before looking directly at the other in the face with a gentle yet weary and sorrowful expression âIâm not sure⌠Johan can i please have your opinion on it first, as in do you think i should?â
Wow, he was not expecting that. "You want my opinion on the matter?" He asked softly. He thought about the pros and cons of it. After a while he finally spoke. "I think it would be a good idea to. But make sure this time that nothing gets forgotten, so nothing bad can happen his time." That was the best answer he could come up with.
"I will not let you put yourself at risk."
Judai was a little surprised to hear that from Johan âwhy not?â heâd done it in the past but Johan had never said anything about it before.
âBecause I realized how reckless you have been in the pastâŚ. And that itâs mainly been my fault for the reason why. I just⌠Donât want to lose you.â He sounded sad.
He could feel the sadness in johanâs voice
Ok judai knew he could be reckless but he wasnât idioticly reckless (in the sense of literally doing something that heâd no doubt end up getting killed from)
He gave a reassuring smile to the other replying with a reassuring tone.
âOk i know i have been Reckless before and i still can be but Iâm not reckless enough to actually get myself killed. I promise you that whatever i do i wont let myself be killed. And if i happen to break it then.. Well you have full permission to call me and idiot or something on my graveâ
Johan choked up at that. âSo getting yourself possessed by a genocidal king isnât reckless? Or using a spell card to fuse withâŚ. That?â He was almost screaming by then.
Ok Johan had a point. Those werenât his finest moves.
More getting possessuth than the fusing because lets be honest if he hadnât heâd practically be the only person alive living sadly with yubel.
âAlright you have a point.â
He calmed down. âI understand the fusing, that was to save us all. But Haou? And what he made you do? I just donât get it.â
Not that he wanted to. He knew that Judai had âkilledâ four of their friends, or rather Haou did, but it didnât make it look any better.
Nobody must have told him the full story about that and thatâs when the smile had completely faded from his face.
âI Guess nobody Told you the Full story about it.. Although i have my reasons for not taking about itâ
Whilst it was only partly his fault what had happened he still felt very guilty about it all. In any case really it was Brrons fault that manjoume, kenzan, Fubiki and Asuka had died because of him.
Johan noticed that the look on Judaiâs face had changed. âSo⌠It wasnât you who did it then?â He asked hesitantly, still not sure what to think.
Mind you, he had done something equally as bad, but through no fault of his own.
âWell⌠Partly⌠I didnât even want them to die.. After seeing manjoume go i even tried to prevent the others getting killed by not attacking brrons monsters but he found away to force mine into attacking his Aswell as directly.â his face grew more uncomfortable as he continued it wasnât exactly pleasant dwelling on such a memory.
âif id had something that couldâve countered him being able to do that i wouldâve used it but i didnât⌠And i guess thatâs when i kinda lost it..â the tone of his voice seemed to droop as he seemed to slow down in his words almost breaking them off from each other within the sentence that wasnât exactly the proper trigger but it was still impactful.
Johan nodded, not sure what to say or do. He didnât even know what was going on at the time. Seeing as he wasnât even there. He moved over to Judai, and gave him a big hug, trying to comfort him.
Tears started dwelling in his eyes. âi just remember being so enraged and bloodthirsty wanting to kill brron for itâŚâ it really did hurt emotionally recalling all of it âhe wouldâve killed sho too if heâd been in the exact same spot as they were i was really relieved when i saw he was alive but the relief was really short lasted asâŚâ he seemed to pause as in hesitance for a moment he guessed he could probably describe this bit as the start of the trigger
âHey⌠Shhhh. You donât need to say it if ya donât want to.â Johan said softly, knowing how distressed Judai appeared. He hugged the other tighter, letting him cry it out if he needed to. âLetâs just try to forget this whole thing happened, and vow not to be so reckless, hm?â
The brunette just seemed speechless after that as he hugged back tightly almost sobbing onto the others shirt. Judai really couldnât help getting like this whenever these memories made a frequent return to him. There was just so much guilt and despairity from it all and it seemed to reduce one who would usually seem as confident and full of energy down to a literal emotional wreck. He wanted to forget it all but its really hard to forget such a traumatic thing as it would sometimes bring back PTSD for him every now and then âi.. Donât know if i can forget itâŚâ
He just let the other cry it out, being there for him, as a comforting presence. "Have you ever thought about getting some sort of therapy for it?" Johan said softly, not wanting to sound patronising or offensive. "Because it might actually help."