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“You don’t know what true love feels like until someone rips your heart out and is left to die”

Because of them.

God, were you watching? Watching him put his evil inside of me? Fingers of death ran up my thigh, I closed my eyes and prayed for my life. Now when I close my eyes, all I see is his dirty face. Do you know what he did? Do you know how I ache? The space between my thighs no longer feels safe. I close my eyes and I see his face, the face of a man who made sure I knew the feeling of rape. God, am I grieving too loud? Did your hear me scream? Did you hear me shout? I was crying for help, moments before he covered my mouth. God, will you forgive me for taking my life? Cause I don’t forgive you for standing by, watching him force this evil inside. God, are you listening now? The nurses that night, held me in their arms while I cried. They were the real heros that night. My parents sat in the waiting room for hours, while I cried, trying to get the confidence to wash the dirtiness between my thighs. God, do you even care? I’m removing dirt and branches from my hair, my mothers trying to be strong so I wipe her tears. This pain, it isn’t right, every girl I know has a story like mine, most of them now, carry a knife. God, do you know what it’s like? For a man to force his way between your thighs? For a man to hold you down, to pray for death instead of carrying on your life? God, do you understand the words I am saying now? I’ve been to hell and I’m calling you out, you won’t save the woman who cried out loud or even the woman who made no sound.

I'm thinking about ending it again and i don't even care about the consequences, i just want out.

And I will teach my daughter to plung her claws into any man who tries to touch her, without her letting him. Because it’s high time for men to realize that women are not objects, but beasts, who are strong enough to tear apart the soul of any man who tries to violate them.