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“...this homogeneity restricted the flow of capital to a larger, more diverse community of entrepreneurs...as you move down the capital stream to smaller funds, you can see more diverse funding sources open up.”

I'm scared of being a MAAB trans*genderqueer non-binary person who's attracted to lesbians/queer folks and what do I do about my ugh, genitals. I'm scared of never finding someone to be together with forever. To raise kids with. I'm scared of being alone, I need others around me otherwise I'm afraid of what I will do to myself. I'm scared of who I am. Of who I will become. I'm scared of identifying w. feminine pronouns, because I don't really want that (I like they) but nobody gets it and I feel disgusting because ppl still call me 'he' even though I have breasts and pass when i want to and they think that's the pronoun I prefer but in reality it tears me up inside. I'm scared that I might need FFS and SRS surgeries to attract those I'm attracted to. I'm scared of who I'm attracted to and what they are usually attracted to. I'm scared of public places because there are never gender neutral bathrooms so I hold it in or avoid going anywhere. I'm scared because I live in NYC and have never felt so isolated. I'm scared because I don't naturally hang with queer people, or anyone really, so I doubt I'll ever find anyone that wants me, desires me, and I in turn desire them. I'm scared of dying by my own hands. I'm scared of being scared and driving people away.