Yearning for what you can never have is beginner level. Real yearners know the good shit is what you could freely have if you allowed yourself to, but never will.

The thing is in some of the later seasons, we get these moments where Misha is absolutely acting his ass off, while Jensen is giving us this strangely subdued performance, (notably 12x12 “Stuck in the Middle”), and you can just TELL that it’s because Jensen was thinking to himself, “Don’t be gay, don’t be gay, don’t make this gay.” But the irony is you can FEEL that thought echoing through Dean’s character. Like dude you didn’t make Dean Winchester any LESS gay—you just gave him internalized homophobia. And the whole restrained pining thing honestly makes everything GAYER

with dean’s last 7 minutes of brain activity as he dies, he constructs an elaborate fantasy of his parents in their younger days, complete with a #diverse cast and coming to an expensive streaming service near you

Apothecary Diaries is so funny. The ladies in waiting look at Maomao and are like ohmigosh a poor adorable abused puppy we must smother her in love and teach her our ways 😍 and the concubines are all like she saved my life and she saved my baby and she's so brave and smart and we love her so much and jinshi and everyone else is heart eyes about her and meanwhile Maomao is like el chupacabra in the corner barfing up goat bones