em-bitterred

oh god accidentally wrote a self-contained horror thing in one sitting. what do I even do with this.

as a person who is forever writing/reading unpopular things, I would be first in line to read this 👀👀👀

in case you’re wondering: not only is this already written, I’ve also already written the behind the scenes post on it and it’s just waiting in drafts until Thursday.

one must always ask themselves How Can I Make The Most Niche Content Possible That Only Caters To Me

My alone time is for everyone’s safety

love that dean dislikes crowds. like he was antsy when they went to that hunter wake in s12 so it’s not super surprising that he hates having a bunch of people in the bunker. but it’s hilarious like he’s very good with one-on-one interactions but any more than like three people in a room that he doesn’t know and he immediately hides in a corner

the wisdom ive learnt is that becoming part of a friend group 1) takes a long time and 2) involves a lot of feeling awkward and left out at first. there’s nothing terrible about this but if you grew up chronically lonely or have any kind of trauma relating to social isolation this likely feels Really Wrong and activates danger signals. but both fortunately and unfortunately it’s just how becoming close to new people works most of the time

another thing that was not intuitive to me as someone who grew up an autistic loner: basically everyone on the planet is starved for connection all the time and almost everything people do is an attempt to reach out to another. most seemingly illogical interactions and behaviours can be explained by this. you have to take as many of these invitations as you can. even if you're wrong you still attempted to bring more warmth into the world

four years later than anyone will care about: hey guys I beat Tears of the Kingdom

my mistake it's only been three years. but yes i was a day one player who just beat ganon the first time. on the same save i started on. no one can take a break from a video game like i can.