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There have been a few, increasing in severity, on my path to unfit morbid obesity.

1) First time in college I outgrew a pair of pants and had to go buy new ones. Sucking it in wasn't enough and it was too uncomfortable to continue wearing what I had.

2) First time I experienced chaffing, was walking around a festival and my thighs were rubbing together all day.

3) Trying to go for a run and realizing I just couldn't do it anymore, it hurt my knees and feet too much. I only made it a few yards down the street. I walked home and threw those running shoes away and called the gym and quit. I guess that was the day I fully committed to becoming morbidly obese.

4) Outgrowing another pair of pants to find out they didn't carry what I needed in store, I'm too fat for what they carry in the store.

5) Being unable to reach my shoes and tie them from a seated position, having to learn to put my foot over my knee and tie them sideways.

6) Going to the doctor for a cold and having her scold me for being obese (not yet morbid). She was really stern about it.

7) Having the dentist tell me she almost didn't recognize me and asking if I had been snacking a lot and eating a lot of sweets, because it looks like I've put on a lot of weight. She was the one that recommended I get CPAP because she could tell I was snoring and open mouth breathing from my teeth somehow. I remember her grabbing my double chin and telling me all the extra weight on my neck was causing my throat to narrow and me to snore. Never been so turned in a medical setting before or since.

8) Going to my CPAP appointment and seeing that all the seats in the presentation room for how to use the equipment were these huge double wide seats and I kinda realized... oh wow these seats are for people like ME. Then 20 other fatties trickled in to get fitted for CPAP and I realized I was one of them, awesome feeling.

I can't stop myself. I'm on an endless loop of sitting in front my computer and getting fatter and I wouldn't want it any other way. 🐖

I can't stand group appetizers. I just want to mow through food and people will eat one item and pause for conversation and it makes it so awkward cause I keep eating and I'm just confused like are you gonna eat any more of these or am I just gonna eat the whole plate.

What good does that do me when I get off to humiliation and teasing?

Bringing myself down from "desirable" to "disgusting" for the average person has been so fun and fulfilling.

I don't NEED to be able to do a sit-up, I can just use my hands to push myself up.

I don't NEED to be able to run, I can just walk anywhere I'm going or drive.

I don't NEED to be able to tie my shoes standing up, I can just sit and put a leg over my knee.

I don't NEED to be able to breathe on my own at night, I can just get a CPAP to help me.

I won't NEED to be able to pee standing up, I can just sit down.

I won't NEED to be able to walk through the grocery store, I can't just use the scooter.

I won't NEED to be able to reach my feet, I can just get slip on shoes and get pedicures.

I won't NEED to be able to wear a belt, I can just get suspenders.

I won't NEED to worry about my blood pressure, I can just take meds for that.

I won't NEED the ability to walk more than a few feet, I can just get my own scooter.

I won't NEED the ability to reach my own manhood, I can just buy a wand.

I won't NEED the ability to buy clothing that fits me, I can just stay at home and wear a bedsheet.