ataraxia

01/06/2026

Sunday reset ✨

may 12

So… you know it’s bad when I bring out the lapis pendant — I don’t believe in crystal stuff, but a witch gave it to me on a ferry and said it would help and wearing it genuinely seems to help, which might be placebo but I’m not gonna question it. Anyway I printed out my own meme to put in multiple places as a reminder to myself NO FOCKIN CRYING.

To-do:

email P.A

apply for CAS

Finish lit review (almost done, in the editing stage)

outline final paper

Send outline for peer review

Do peer review for E & P

Finish reading 53 cm by Bessora

figure out stuff for oral exam (French) & start prep

commonplace makeup essay

American Revolution paper outline

"I was quiet, but I was not blind."

Notes from My Desk #4 | 18-19/6/26

These past couple of days went on in midsummer preparations. I finally updated my study plan, and I'll be right back on it on Monday.

I also restarted some self-care routines, which always takes time once you're just starting with any type of maintenance, but it did make me feel good afterwards, and wasn't that bad while doing it either tbh.

And like I promised, I studied. It was 15 minutes of vocabulary, but any little bit counts, and it was mainly just to remind myself I can study so easily if I just decide to do it, sit down and start.

(Side note: I got an ask to show my tracker set up here, and I am working on a little post about it to anyone interested! I just need time to make a coherent post, but expect it around tomorrow >)

Studies: ⚪️Updated my study plan ⚪️Studied Greek vocabulary for 15m

Highlights: ⭐️Updated my study plan, made it with pretty colours ⭐️Took time for self-care ⭐️Studied a little

Tomorrow: ➡️Read some more ➡️Pick up journaling again ➡️Do some light language studying

💭 Having couple of sadder days - It's not too bad, but I'm missing you.

I thought we were taking the exam tomorrow at 7 but instead we are taking it at 17… 😭

Productivity tasks:

- 7h studying

[ 18th may, 2026 • 14/80 days ]

summer thoughts on blue backgrounds 🦋

-> calc3 tutoring (total: 2h00)

📓 Hummingbird Salamander, by Jeff Vandermeer

- really busy with assignments right now, I have 3 assignments due next week

- emailed some potential supervisors for my masters next year

- a bunch of my friends graduated recently. super proud of them but I’m gonna be here for another year so I feel a bit behind :,)

Productivity tasks:

- 6h spent studying

31052026 (1:02)

prep comp today. hope we break. shit evening. oh well. turns out california isn't just a state of mind but it is everywhere I go. need to start grinding prep before the big one. going to sleep now.

Maybe a white (blue) board will help me figure these LC problems out.