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some of my last commonplace pages

today was kind of not productive. idk it's been a weird week. sorry for posting so sporadically. tomorrow i need to email the prof overseeing my summer study to ask her to move the deadlines we set bc i cannot work to them for some reason.

PhD update - June 16th 2026

15/06/2026 monday // ｡⁠*ﾟdiary of a hobbyist *⁠.⁠✧

today i found a very pretty spot to sit and watch nature in the park. I love mornings where I can be by myself and watch the world wake up slowly~

i cooked for the first time in 6 years. The goal of my academic break is to gain back the skills i lost to disability, so I cooked a simple dal with drumsticks. It was disastrous but ended up okay. The important thing is I managed to push through even though I had to relearn all of my cooking skills and felt like a loser in the kitchen. I made it out okay and it will get easier in the coming days.

i also started rewriting my sewing notes, another hobby that I lost to fibromyalgia six years ago. It was a nice experience, as I was remembering things that I did. I was recalling the basics and made better notes. I was also really nervous and felt like i was back to a beginner who didn't know anything. But again, i managed to do it. I wrote two pages of notes. I am proud of myself :)

🎧 got no right — GRAHAM, Henrik

🍵 diss work 6.12.26

Wow I Love My Job (which is apparently reading articles that are tangential to my diss at best). (But your honor I love them.)

15.05.2026 // topsy-turvy state of mind

10.06.2026 // digital detox hours

31052026 (2:00)

Sometimes it feels like with Latin discering the case and the subject of the verb is like throwing a dart at a dartboard, and I have terrible aim. Case is a lot easier, I think, where the subject continues to elude me, espesually when the sentence is presented in isolation without context. Is the subject the chains or the man my friend? Got knocked out in the quarterfinals of the tournament, need to practice more.

♤ wheelock chapt 2 exercises

thursday | april 30 10/50 dop

entered lab at 6am to inoculate my cultures and left at midnight after running a gel – i left for class/dance/etc, but still a shockingly long day.

monday | april 27 7/50 dop

found out i aced my first E&M exam and finally turned in my revised capstone paper. if only there weren't a million other things i was falling behind on...

May 28, 2026 • Thursday

🎓 Bachelors Final Year — Week 44 🎓

GETTING BACK ON TRACK — No burnout challenge [Day 18/30]

Eid Mubarak! Today was bakrid so I woke up early and took a shower. I felt really unwell so I ended up napping after breakfast. I woke up feeling slightly better, so i studied for a little while and then went on my daily walk. I bought some sugar-free icecream as a treat and also properly explored my neighborhood on foot for the first time (since living here all my life basically lmao). I've finally been given more freedom to walk/travel on my own and I'm making the most of it :D

I took a lot of breaks during my walk as there were lots of benches in the park. I convinced myself that it's okay to take those breaks and it's not like taking them will cancel out the benefits of the physical activity or that I'm "not really working out". The park near my house is close enough to the other houses that so many people of different ages and physical abilities come to walk there every evening. So it's very encouraging and motivating for me :)

The day ended with my sister buying me some really pretty stickers, and I also watched a video about debunking/deinfluencing StudyTube trends and as a person who consumed studytube content sometimes it gave me a nice little mindset shift. I took notes on the video in my commonplace journal so I can internalise it.

Overall, good day :]

👟 5,723 steps

🎧 I Gave Everything — Connor Price, GRAHAM