ataraxia

You’re losing because your discipline disappears under pressure ⚡

And pressure reveals everything 📊

Your habits 🔁

Your mindset 🧠

Your level of commitment 🎯🔥

29/April/2026

Long time no see! I recently got a Plotter writing pad and it somehow reminded me of this blog and gladblr community.

its not only bad writing but its extremely harmful to people who actually live with conditions that are misrepresented in media. when i found out i had DID, my mom freaked out because her only point of reference was Sybil. when i was younger and first went on psych meds, i thought it meant i was set on a track to be a bad person, because in so many movies and video games you find out the bad guy has medication in his bed side table for some sort of psych disorder. the worst thing a hallucination has ever made me do was wake my mom up at 3 AM to check my bathroom to see if the bugs i saw everywhere were real and the worst thing an “episode” of any sort has made me do is hurt myself. my ptsd doesnt make me kill people, my alters dont kidnap people, my autism doesnt make me so morally unaware that ill murder for senselessly, my ocd doesnt make me hurt people etc etc etc

What's in my bag tutoring edition, and my usual messy desk (you cannot see it but there is way too many tea stains I have to do something about it hdjdjej).

08|05|2026

Master thesis adventures #29

Thursday • April 30, 2026

Watch me fail to study for an hour in this timelapse taken literally right now! It may look productive, but I spent that whole hour failing to absorb info that ended up not even being on the study guide for the controls midterm tomorrow, which pissed me off so badly I had to get up right now and take a food break before I snapped at someone for no reason.

I feel like this is one of the most annoying parts of ADHD that no one really mentions because it doesn’t fit the general perception of ADHD— overstimulation from cognitive/task overload leading to insane frustration seemingly out of nowhere.

For me personally, this ends up presenting itself as extreme responses to sensory stimuli and overreactions to my tasks being interrupted (I almost started yelling in the beginning when the pen I was writing with got ink on my fingers LMAO).

Grinding out my assignments that are due tonight.