ely lilac

Your mamas so squeak shes either a leather shoe or the bad door or a mouse

*aims my rifle in the direction its pointing and fires into the tall grass*

you'll feel like a total dipshit train wreck and no matter what some girl is gonna see you and think "role model". you can't kill yourself you have to go be clocky in the gas station so a 14 year old can have the trajectory of her life altered forever

Being clocky when i was working as a barista was one of my big joys. Being clocky when i was teaching high schoolers how to play the marimba was my reason for being for half a decade. It sucks how scared I am to leave the house I live in now. But I still need to try and be clocky at the grocery store. I wish i had a job to be clocky at. Being visibly me is one of the most radical acts I'm capable of, and I hope that one day we live in a world where it isn't radical at all.

that's exactly what I was feeling when I wrote this. we all find ways to defy our fear, love is an excellent motivator.

girl that wires some stuff into your brain to make you only post or chat in big servers at certain intervals so that she can claim you're her alter. and then starts bragging about the syscest you have about what she visualises you doing. dont fucking look at me okay

You know I didn't manage to have tha thought until literally today I can just. Decide to make the sleepyjump in my head romantically in love with me and dating me. No rule on the books against that. Yes I look back and realise where the anxiety against doing that came from, in the early days, but post-Spiro Cee is a new lamb who has realised sheep literally gets to treat herdself. Pronouns

how did i fumble a girl to myself. what the hell