Middle of Nowhere

There are certain situations in which one must completely surrender themself, and allow for the natural way of things to take its own course. Not all things can be controlled, and thus can only be experienced in the way that it’s meant to.

The more we obsess over something, the more we will try to control it. The more we try to control it, the more dissatisfied we become when it is something we cannot change. Be careful with what you try to control, for not everything can be.

Oh God, give me a heart and a mind that knows You are in control. You have the future resting in Your hands. You are the author of time. You are the breather and creator of life. Fear has no place in Your truth. Help me to remember this when I can’t sleep because the future is daunting. Help me to remember this when my lungs are strapped down by the anchor of this world, and I can’t seem to see two feet ahead of me. You are in control.

And if life doesn’t treat you kind, be stronger.

missing you and listening to songs I know I shouldn’t.

I can’t do anything right. All I seem to do is screw things up more. Talk about worthless.

I only get jealous, because I love you and I don’t want anyone else to have you.

So many “What if?” questions run through my mind whenever I see you. For example, what if you’re looking at me because you want to and not just because of what your friends are saying about me? What if you actually do like me too? What if your thinking “wow she’s beautiful” instead of “oh it’s that girl who my friend hates”? What if you were excited for this very short moment and were happy you looked into my big green eyes while I looked into your big blue ones? What if? Just what if?

at the end of the day it’ll always be you

Being strong and independent and single and proud of it