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· ★* Ancient Dreams In A Modern Land (Yandere!Batfam x Neglected / Mutant!Reader)

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I think it's different for everyone! For me, when I just do reading for myself, I prefer to shuffle the cards all together until a small batch jumps out and then shuffle it again to finally lay the cards out. Depending on the spread that I'm doing, I just shuffle the cards until one pops out or pick from the layout.

So I can't take public transportation for the life of me, got sheltered too much that no one taught me how to use them. So I had an emergency where I have to go to Place B from Place A and because of gas prices and possibly getting scolded for calling so early for pick up, I decided to walk. I was genuinely chilling and actually enjoyed the walk, I got to stop by a sidewalk with paintings, there's a fiesta in a purok (a whole village that's counted as a street), got to stop by a cafe and ordered a drink that became a new favorite and brought the drink with me along the walk.

Now this is where the side quest started, a woman went up to me, DROPPED HER BABY IN MY ARMS, and quickly went to a guy and began screaming and beating him up. The woman was actually his wife's sister THAT HE GOT PREGNANT, then the wife also came and beats the guy as well, their niece joins in and beats the guy too. Then a guy, I don't know his relationship with the family is, but he takes the baby from my arms and apologized for involving me. As an apology, he offered me to assist beat the husband up while he carries the baby and they three women agreed and did a "come here" motion

Of course I tried to protest and then suddenly the three women calmed down and started, "I feel bad for beating him up, I still love him." And the guy who took the baby can only scratch his head so I also looked at them, because they had the AUDACITY to do all that and suddenly end up all forgiving each other.

Genuinely, what was I supposed to do in that situation😭😭

WHAT'S UP WITH PEOPLE LMAOOOO

"And thank you to our organizer, (A last name that's starts with C)!"

AND IT CLICKED IN MY BRAIN.

"Holy *, C? That's the surname of Top 3 and 4."

Then suddenly everything odd with the event instantly started connecting:

-How contestant no. 6 is so cocky and confident to a point she avoids us like she feels she's better. At first I thought she's just introverted, but looking back she was rude and has the air of someone confident they are winning.

-How contestant no. 6 always tries practicing her answer for QnA even if we never got any references on what could possibly be the questions because it's supposed to be impromptu.

-Contestant no. 4, 6's cousin, never shows up to practice. Which is a foul on itself because our attendance and punctuality for practice is part of our points but she somehow made it as top 4 unlike those who actually come to the practices early.

-The previous winners are literally just them eir family members, it would have been cute and inspiring if taken out of context.

Turns out, I could have been at top 4 💔

At least I get darling of the crowd and got to be the Ambassadress for a salon tho. (Which I'd use my Ambassadress perks for my graduation and look pretty)

So you’re telling me this wasn’t a pageant, it was a family group project with live audience feedback? Damn.

And the judge mouthing 'I’m sorry' is CRAZY-

Sorry in advance if I always rant with the most random things 💔

If it works for you, it works. That’s literally it.

And I get what you mean about the whole process of it being calming more than anything else. It’s more like you’re externalizing all that noise in your head into something you can actually sit with and untangle.

People use journaling, some use talking it out, some use routines, some use rituals. Yours just happens to involve tarot as a reflection tool. It’s still the same core thing, processing your thoughts in a way that makes them less overwhelming.

And the deck answers with, "Oh that's good, you are on the right path with a great thing going on (Temperance) BUT you obviously can't do it right now because it would be disturbed by your other aspects of life (Solar Eclipse), so you gotta slow down and plan it out first (Seven of Cups)."

Which makes sense, because I still need to do my clearance since I'm graduating.

Imagine telling your readers you can't update all because the tarot doesn't vibe with you 💔

PLEASEEEE Imagine being a reader and opening the author's note expecting something normal like: sorry for the delay, work got busy and instead getting: The tarot deck told me to focus on graduating first lmao

I think you already know who I'm referring to.

But like seriously, how can some people be SO low in reality but still act like they are right and they should be respected.

And the fact that that blog has people siding with it?! Oh how far have we fallen.

You know what girlie? Since they said that "you posted on public so expect hate" well, how about a taste of your own medicine? If I made a tier list of writers as just people, they wouldn't even make it to tier F or anything lower than that if it existed.

That blog is literally normalizing hate and harassment, I wouldn't be surprised if I found out they're the psychos who send death threats to people they're jealous of and be the reason so many lives were lost.

Not to mention the comments on the ranking post were all so respectful (surprisingly I was among them) just to prove that hate is unnecessary, but that blog NEEDS a professional hater to put them in their place.

But it's as you said, they're just begging for attention, desperate for a scrap of it after their own works didn't appeal to the readers.

Anyway stay safe gg! If someone ever sent hate to you just ignore them or let me at 'em.

Love ya💕🪻

Thank you for the concern and for looking out for me. It means a lot seeing so many people looking out for writers and for each other.

I think what gets me the most isn't even the criticism itself. People are allowed to dislike things. That's normal. What's concerning is when criticism starts crossing the line into encouraging harassment, dogpiling, or treating real people like they're not human beings.

That said, I really don't want people going after them either.

At the end of the day, the entire reason I started talking about this is because I've seen what happens when fandom drama spirals out of control. People get hurt, writers leave, friendships get damaged, and suddenly a hobby that's supposed to be fun becomes stressful for everyone involved.

So while I absolutely understand the frustration, I'd rather everyone save their energy. Block, report if necessary, and move on. Nothing annoys people seeking attention more than being ignored.

And honestly? The thing that makes me happiest isn't the drama. It's seeing how many people in this community have been kind, supportive, and willing to stand up for each other. That's the part worth focusing on.

As for the hate messages, don't worry too much about me! I've been on the internet long enough to know that some people will spend more time obsessing over strangers than I spend writing my actual stories. If anything, it's more confusing than upsetting at this point.

Just popping by to give you a song that fits so much with Wayne and Maximoff

Changeling - Lydia the Bard

SO, this song is about someone pretending to be human or more accurately, something they are not. It just fits both the girls so much. Wayne trying to pretend to be what Gotham and the batfamily wants her to be, Maximoff trying to pretend she’s Wayne and what? Oh ofc, she isnt a mutant. To some extent, you can also use this for mutants in general who tries to conform to what society wants. Anyway, the song can be used for a lot of stuff and i just want an excuse to share this song with someone :p

Life is currently chill for me aside from some lingering anxiety bc dread for the future, so i’d like to remind you to take care of yourself and drink a lot of water. Do not be like me who keeps forgetting to bring a water bottle during busy days

Hope you have a good day/night!

- 🪻 anon

Oh yessss!! I hope you are excited for that because we are FINALLY watching some real mentoring from none other than Lord Morpheus himself (and plenty of other chaos lol)

MORE SONG REC!!! I actually know that song and you're so right!!

It's not just the pretending to be someone else aspect. There's the underlying exhaustion of constantly performing an identity that isn't really yours.

For Wayne, it's the pressure of trying to become what everyone else wants. Gotham wants one thing. The Batfamily wants another. The people around them all have ideas of who Wayne should be. Meanwhile Wayne is stuck trying to squeeze themselves into shapes that were never made for them.

Then you have Maximoff, whose situation is almost the reverse but somehow equally painful. She's literally living as Wayne, but no matter how well she does it, she can't actually be Wayne. There's always going to be that gap between who she is and who she's pretending to be.

And a lot of mutant stories are fundamentally about performance. About deciding which parts of yourself are safe to show and which parts need to be hidden. About learning how to survive in a world that would often prefer a version of you that's smaller, quieter, and easier to accept.

Completely breaking down over the thought of how long can someone keep pretending before they forget who they actually are? OKAY IM GONNA SHUT UP- Thank you for that because now I'm going to be torturing myself about it next several business days

I'm glad things are relatively chill for you right now, even if the future anxiety likes to sneak in every now and then. Unfortunately, I think that's just one of those things that loves showing up uninvited.

Thank you for checking in on me and for the reminder!!!That's genuinely very sweet of you!! I'll do my best to stay hydrated if you do too!!

I hope things continue to stay calm on your end, and that whatever's causing the future dread turns out much kinder than your brain is currently imagining.