ein ewiger Kampf

killing myself is just not enough, i literally NEED all proof of my existence to be gone and the memory of me wiped off from everyone's mind

what if i did do it... like I mean. I dont know... there's knives, pills, rope.... but I don't know.... I don't want to. But I like the idea of not being here. Especially right now. I wish i could just walk off into the woods.... And that's it. Thats the end. No death. No pain. I just go into the woods and I don't come back. Its like a book. The character disappeared. We don't know what happened. And that's okay. I just want to be gone. To cease to exist.

i was never supposed to make it this far what do you mean my future depends on me i cant even get my ass out of bed to make myself a sandwich

i am so tired of everything around me. if there's a way i could vanish without an explanation, i would.

When Jane Austen wrote, "the more I see of the world, the more am I dissatisfied with it; and every day confirms my belief of the inconsistency of all human characters, and of the little dependence that can be placed on the appearance of merit or sense," I felt that.

How am I supposed to be okay with everything that's wrong?

I fucking wish I died the first time around

starting to accept that nothing will get better and i’m stuck this way for the rest of my life

All fun and games till i remember when i was 11 i was crying my eyes out and begging god to take my life when i fall asleep so i could finally rest in peace.

„Ich wünsche mir so sehr, dir wieder nah zu sein.“

Man vergisst nie einen Menschen, der einem gezeigt hat, wie sich Liebe anfühlt.