PAIRING: frat!Steve Harrington x fem!reader
SUMMARY: Where you crash a neon frat party with your sorority sister, get swept out of the mosh pit by Steve Harrington, and a heated moment on the stairwell leaves you breathless.Â
WHAT TO EXPECT: 18+, frat/college party, alcohol consumption, intoxication, brief crowd aggression, fighting, brief anxiety, swearing, suggestive themes, sorority friend (friendâs name - F/n), FAKE SORORITY/FRAT NAMES
A/N: this is based off of a (slightly) true story⌠hehe
WORD COUNT: 7.1k (i reached flow state)
ChiSigâs frat house glowed like it had been dunked in highlighter ink. Even from halfway down the block you could see it. The windows blazed different colors every few seconds, neon streamers tangled through the porch railings and the nearby trees, bodies moved in every doorway. The bass traveled through the pavement and up your bare legs, a steady thump-thump-thump that matched the buzz already humming under your skin.Â
You and your sorority sister, F/n, didnât even make it to the front steps before you started laughing in a drunken haze. They were messy, breathless giggles that came from cheap drinks and pushing through people to get to the front. And also running up the hill to the frat house from the pregame.Â
âThis is fucking insane,â she cursed, grabbing your arm and shoving a guy to the side to make it to the entrance of the barricade. A group of brothers stood before you, arms crossed and smirks written all over their smug and entitled faces.Â
A guy with a pristine white polo and khaki slacks tilted his head to the side like a puppy. âYou ladies got a bid?â
âOh, yeah-yes.â You scramble to pull out the orange wristbands your social chair gave you, scolding yourself for not having put them on at the pre so this wouldnât be an issue. The brother scoffed and F/n snapped back at him with a glare.
âWe are in KPhi , yâknow.â She arched a testing brow and you both watched his ego slowly deflate as he moved the barricade to the side to let you in. F/n laced her hand in yours and pulled you up the front stairs.
Inside, the air was thick with sweat, perfume, and cigarette smoke. Black lights lined the ceilings, turning white shirts violet and teeth blinding. Every surface pulsed with color. It felt less like a house party and more like youâd stepped inside a rave stuffed into a suburban living room. In another room, a long wooden table had been set up with trays of body paint. Thick, glossy puddles of orange, green, pink, and yellow were displayed before the rowdy crowd acting like a bunch of kids fighting over art supplies.Â
Your friend gasped. âOh my god, Y/n, look.â She pointed at the pink paint. âWe have to.â
âImmediately!â You screamed over the booming music. You unapologetically shoved your way in, elbows knocking against strangers, and dipped both hands straight into a tray of hot pink. The paint was cold and slippery between your fingers, neon enough that it almost hurt to look at.Â
F/n narrowed her eyes at you. âDonât you dareââ
You smacked both of your paint-covered hands against her thighs. Two perfect glowing handprints bloomed against her skin. She shrieked so loudly that someone managed to turn and hear it over the blasting music.Â
Before you could run, her hands were already coated in the same electric pink. She grabbed your waist and dragged her palms up your sides, leaving streaks across your ribs, and finally planting her handprints on your breasts. You yelped in surprise before both dissolving into laughter. It quickly turned into war with the weapons being neon paint. Handprints and smears were on almost every limb, and by the time you stepped back to look at each other, you were practically glowing.Â
âYou look feral,â she yelled over the blasting music.Â
âNo, you look feral,â you replied, not being able to come up with anything better in your state as you took in the smear marks you left across your friendâs cheekbones. âWILD!â
âHot wild?â She applied more shiny red lip gloss and handed it over for you to use. You gladly accepted, smearing the sticky substance over your lips and handed it back.
âObviously,â you smack your lips and fluff your hair a little extra. âCâmon, I wanna dance!â
âLetâs find you a pledge!â F/n shrieked in excitement. Finding a guy at every party for you was one of her favorite extracurriculars. âI heard this pledge class is really hot!â
âTwist my arm!â You feigned an annoyed groan, already letting her drag you by the wrist anyway. âFive minutes in and youâre already pimping me out.â
âItâs called networking,â she corrected seriously, then immediately dissolved into giggles.
The second you stepped fully into the furniture-less space that could be considered a living room, the music swallowed you whole. âGirls on Filmâ by Duran Duran was so loud it felt physical. The bass thumped through the floorboards and straight up your paint-covered thighs, vibrating in your chest like a second heartbeat. The air was thick and humid, heavy with sweat and perfume and cheap vodka. And it was most definitely expanding the volume of your hair.Â
F/n didnât hesitate and dove straight into the crowd, pulling you behind her like you were crossing a busy street. Bodies, with shirts and some without, pressed in from every side immediately. Shoulders bumped yours, hands brushed your waist, someoneâs hair even stuck to your lip gloss for half a second before they disappeared again. It was utterly suffocating, but in that intoxicating way where you didnât want space. You wanted to be swallowed by it. You would have found this situation gross if you hadnât taken three shots before.
You lifted your hands above your head and just let yourself move. There was no method to your madness as you jumped, swayed, laughed, and ran your hands through your hair. Your hips knocked into your friendâs as she spun clumsily.
âYou look gorgeous,â you slurred, clamping F/nâs shoulders in your palms as you admired her in your drunken daze.Â
âN-no,â she swayed, âyou are more beautiful.â F/n was definitely way more intoxicated than you. The chorus of the song picked up and suddenly the entire room jumped at once, the floor shaking like it might give out.
You shrieked, half startled and half thrilled.
âTHIS IS MY SONG!â F/n screamed, even though you were pretty sure sheâd said that about three songs ago.
âYou say that about everything!â
âBECAUSE THEYâRE ALL MY SONGS!â
She grabbed your hands and you both started jumping in place, screaming the lyrics even though neither of you knew more than the chorus. You nearly collided with a guy twice your size and he just laughed and spun you back toward your friend like you weighed nothing. The alcohol buzzed pleasantly behind your eyes, softening everything around the edges. The lights blurred and the music resonated with every bone and nerve in your body. You felt warmer, and not just from the amount of bodies pressed closely. You both got shoved into a mini mosh pit near the DJ booth and just accepted it, knowing there was no way you could physically push yourselves out.Â
You bounced into strangers, got pushed around, and almost fell three times. Someone accidentally elbowed your side aggressively, but you didnât have it in you to be pressed. You were laughing too hard.
âBEST NIGHT EVER,â your friend yelled into your ear.
âBEST NIGHT EVER,â you echoed.
At some point the dancing stopped feeling like dancing and started feeling like survival. The mosh pit had grown without either of you realizing it, and what started as a loose circle had turned into a full-blown crush of bodies, shoulders knocking into ribs, drinks sloshing everywhere, and shoes sticking to the floor. Every time the bass dropped, the entire group surged forward like a wave.
Someone crashed into your back and sent you stumbling forward. Your friend caught you by the forearms before you face-planted, and both of you just clung to each other. âWHAT THE HELLââ you gasped, being smushed into F/n by a shirtless frat guy. A guy twice your size barreled past and clipped your shoulder hard enough to spin you around. For half a second you lost your balance, the room tilting, lights streaking purple and blue overhead. Your heart jumped into your throat before you managed to right yourself. Not knowing how else to ease the situation, you began to laugh because everything felt so ridiculous and dramatic.
Your skin carried a light sheen of sweat and you prayed your makeup wasnât completely gone.Â
A guiding and steady hand wrapped firmly around your upper arm before you followed the swell of the mosh.Â
âHey! Heyâ you two are gonna get crushed in there!â
You blinked, disoriented, and turned toward the male voice. Through the flashing lights and moving bodies, you saw your friendâs boyfriend shoving his way through the crowd like a determined golden retriever. He was flushed and sweaty, grin huge and crooked, clearly drunk out of his mind. He finally reached her and immediately looped an arm around her waist, tugging her protectively into his chest like heâd just rescued her from a burning building.
âFound you,â he said, kissing her cheek sloppily.
She squealed and smacked his chest. âWe were fine!â
While they bickered, you realized you were still being held. That same steady hand on your arm slid down to your wrist, then your hand, fingers threading through yours naturally, like it was obvious youâd go with him. And you did without hesitation. He guided you backward out of the crowd just as another surge of bodies crashed forward, shielding you with his shoulder so no one knocked into you on the way out. The difference in the adjacent room was immediate. The air was slightly cooler and there was way more space.
You finally looked up at the tall man. He wasnât just tall, but broad in an effortlessly masculine way. His shoulders stretched the sleeves of his t-shirt slightly, fabric clinging damply from sweat. His chest rose and fell slowly, like he wasnât even winded from pushing through the crowd. He looked so grounded, like the opposite of the entire party and the opposite of you. You felt like you were still floating as your ears screamed bloody murder.Â
His hair was a mess in the most devastating way. It was styled in thick brown waves that peeked under from a backwards cap, curling slightly at the ends from sweat and falling forward over his forehead. There were streaks of neon paint across him too. His corded biceps and forearms were streaked with bright green paint and blue handprints were scattered along his jeans.
You werenât sure if you were hallucinating, but you were pretty sure the black lights made his skin glow and his smile brighter. It was soft and crooked. He was trying not to grin but he couldnât help it. His eyes were planted on yours and didnât bounce away like everyone elseâs had all night. They stayed like you were the only thing not moving in the room. And you could feel yourself swaying on the heels of your feet. Your stomach did this weird little flip you couldnât blame on the alcohol as you tried to pull yourself together.Â
âOh,â your friendâs boyfriend said, pointing lazily between you both. âThis is Steve. Heâs pledging with us. Harrington, this isââ
âY/n,â you told Steve your name before he had the chance to finish. For some reason, you suddenly felt hyper-aware of everything. Was your hair frizzy? Was your makeup gone? Did you have any lipgloss on? And you were probably staring at him like a sweaty and obsessed maniac.
Steve repeated your name slowly like he was committing it to memory. âNice to meet you,â he said, his voice not matching the party at all. It wasnât loud or sloppy or slurred like everyone elseâs. The warmth in Steveâs voice made you lean in closer without realizing. It made you feel safe for some odd reason, despite knowing him for a minute tops.Â
You also realized that he was still holding your hand. His thumb brushed over your knuckles like he didnât even notice he was doing it. Your face felt hot as you smiled shyly, smiling so hard your cheeks actually hurt.
You didnât really remember deciding to go back. One second you were standing near the edge of the living room catching your breath, the cool air licking at your overheated skin, and the next the music shifted to a lower, heavier beat. Your friend gasped.
âOh my god I love this song,â she said, already tugging her boyfriend back into the crowd. He followed willingly, stumbling a little, laughing into her hair. And then it was just you and Steve left standing there for half a second, the noise swelling around you again.
He glanced toward the dance floor then at you. âYou good?â he asked, not pushing or assuming in the slightest. Steve sounded like he was just checking and he actually cared about the answer you were going to give him.
You nodded, still smiling. âYeah. I wanna go back.â
His lips curved. âYeah?â
He held his hand out without even looking down, like he already knew youâd take it. And you did.
This time, the dance floor didnât feel like the trenches on a battlefield anymore.
The DJ had switched to something bass-heavy and rhythmic instead of jumpy and chaotic. People were still moving and still packed together, but it wasnât that violent shoving anymore. It was swaying, grinding, and bodies rolling with the beat instead of crashing into each other.
Steve walked slightly ahead of you, still holding your hand behind him, gently pulling you through openings in the crowd like heâd done this a thousand times before. His shoulders parted people easily. He looked so confident that no one really argued with him when he guided you past.
And every time someone got a little too close, like when a hand drifted too near your waist, some drunk guy stumbling backward, or a shoulder about to knock into you, Steveâs palm would slide to your hip or your lower back and heâd smoothly shift you out of the way. He was effortless and protective without making a show of it. Like it was instinct, like it didnât even occur to him not to.
At one point someone tried squeezing between you and him and his hand tightened around yours automatically, tugging you flush against his chest instead so you didnât get separated.
âSorry,â he muttered near your ear. But he didnât sound sorry at all. Your heart skipped and you didnât dare move away.
He kept one hand on your waist, which was loose and respectful. He was giving you room to step away if you wanted, but you didnât. If anything, you stepped closer. Your hands found his shoulders and paint smeared faintly onto his shirt. The fabric was warm and damp from dancing and you felt the solid muscle flex underneath.
You started moving together without talking about it as your hips swayed to the beat. His thumb traced absent little circles against your side. You leaned in to talk, lips near his ear. âThis is way better than getting trampled.â
âWhat?â he said, smiling, not hearing you over the obnoxiously loud music.
You laughed and leaned closer, practically chest to chest now. âI said this is better!â
âOhâ yeah. Way better,â he agreed, throwing a thumbs up. His hand slid a little more securely around your waist when someone brushed past behind you, pulling you instinctively closer so you wouldnât get knocked forward. Your body fit against his stupidly well. The bass vibrated through both of you and you could feel it through his chest. Your hands slid from his shoulders to the back of his neck to steady yourself. Or maybe just because you wanted to touch him. Probably both.
âWhere are you from?â You asked, leaning in even closer, your mouth accidentally brushing the side of his neck. Just barely but you felt the soft, warm skin. And you also felt him inhale sharply.
Your brain short-circuited for half a second. âSorry,â you breathed, but you didnât actually move away.
His hand tightened at your waist. âItâs okay,â he said quietly. âIâm from Hawkins, Indiana.âÂ
âNever heard of Hawkins before.â
âYeah, yeah itâs pretty small.â You could feel his laugh against your cheek when you talked. Feel the rumble of his voice through his chest when he answered. Every time you leaned in, your lips grazed his skin or his jaw or the corner of his ear, and neither of you corrected it. If anything, he kept pulling you closer.
Dancing with Steve felt different. It wasnât the drunk, flailing chaos youâd had with everyone else. It felt grounded, like even though the whole room was spinning and shouting and flashing neon lights, there was this tiny bubble carved out just for the two of you. The party slowed down every time he looked at you and every touch meant something. His hands werenât wandering or careless like the other guys at parties sometimes were. He wasnât grabbing or showing off. Steve simply held you like you were something worth protecting. And every time you laughed, he looked at you like youâd personally invented the concept of happiness.Â
Your friend and her boyfriend were somewhere nearby dancing, you knew they were, but you couldnât look away from him long enough to check. You couldn't focus on anything except the way his hands felt on your waist and the way he kept leaning down to hear you. The way he said your name like it mattered. Like it belonged to him already. You wanted to belong to him already.
Fuck, you were drunk but you were trying so hard to sober up for him. You didnât want to seem like a drunk mess.Â
Steve leaned down toward your ear again. âYou want water or something?â
âWATER,â he tried again, louder.
Before you could answer, someone stumbled between you and shouted, âYoâ theyâve got pure fuel upstairs!â
Steve blinked. âWhat the hell is pure fuel?â
You grinned. âProbably something lethal.â
He raised an eyebrow. âYou wanna investigate the lethal mystery drink?â
You pretended to think very seriously. âFor science.â
âFor science,â he echoed.
He held his hand out again and your heart did a little flip before you took it.
Getting out of the crowd this time felt easier, maybe because you knew how he moved now. Steve slipped through people like water as his hand stayed warm and steady around yours, thumb occasionally brushing over your knuckles absentmindedly. Every time the crowd tightened, his palm slid to your waist. Every time someone stumbled too close, he shifted you behind him without even looking. It was so natural it almost made you dizzy.
The stairs were darker, quieter, the music muffled into a heavy thud through the walls instead of something that rattled your bones. The air felt cooler already and your ears rang from the sudden change.
You exhaled, laughing softly. âI think I lost hearing in my left ear.â
âYeah?â he smiled. âWorth it?â
Paint smeared across his throat. Hair falling into his eyes. That lazy, soft grin.
Halfway up the stairs, there was a small landing with an old window cracked open. Just enough so that the night air slipped through. It felt like heaven.
âOh my god,â you breathed. You both gravitated toward it at the same time, like magnets. Steve pushed it open a little more and cool air rushed in, washing over your overheated skin. It lifted your hair off your neck, cooled the sweat at your collarbones, and made you shiver in the best way. You leaned out first, forearms resting on the sill. The night outside was dark and quiet and normal. Crickets, distant streetlights, and someone laughing on the sidewalk invaded your senses. It felt so separate from the chaos inside that it almost didnât seem real. Steve leaned beside you, close enough that your arms brushed and you could feel the heat still radiating off his skin.
âThatâs insane,â you murmured. âItâs like a sauna in there.â
âYeah,â he said softly. âThought I was gonna pass out.â
You laughed. âYou did save me from nearly dying earlier.â
âMosh pit casualty. Would've been tragic.â
He bumped his shoulder gently into yours. âCouldnât let that happen.â Something about the way he said it, half joking, half not, made your stomach twist.Â
You started talking. Not yelling and not shouting half-sentences into each otherâs ears. Where you were from. What you were studying. Dumb first semester stories. The worst classes youâd ever taken so far. The fact that he only joined the frat because his friend dragged him to rush and now he was accidentally pledging.
âI swear,â he said, âI didnât even mean to. I just kept showing up places and suddenly theyâre like âCongrats, youâre in.ââ
You giggled. âThatâs the most boy thing Iâve ever heard.â Every time you laughed, his eyes lit up like heâd won something. Like making you laugh was the goal.
You realized you werenât leaning on the window anymore, you were leaning on him, and he wasnât moving anytime soon. If anything, he kept inching closer like he was testing the space until your back brushed the wall of the landing. You didnât exactly remember stepping back, but it was there. Cool plaster was against your shoulder blades and Steve was in front of you. He wasnât trapping you, he was just close. Close enough that your knees almost touched his, close enough that you could feel the warmth of his skin.
Your heart pounded at his proximity and without hesitating, you placed your fingertips on his jaw, accidentally marking his skin with neon pink paint. The color streaked across him in a soft swipe, bright and glowing under the faint purple light from downstairs. For a second, you just stared at it and then at Steve. At the way your hand looked there, small against the warm, solid line of his face. Steve didnât pull away or break the moment. He leaned into it. He wanted you to keep touching him
Your thumb brushed along his cheekbone, half tracing the paint, half tracing him, and you felt the faint scratch of stubble under your skin. The detail grounded you and made you senses sharper and your surroundings slower all at once. The music downstairs thudded through the walls, distant and muffled now.Â
Steveâs hands were still on your waist, thumbs resting in that soft spot above your hips like heâd memorized it already. You could feel the heat of his palms through the thin fabric of your top. He swallowed and you watched his Adamâs apple bob.Â
âYouâve got paint,â you murmured, voice quieter than you meant it to be.
âYeah?â he asked softly.
âYeah. I think I mightâve gotten some pink paint on your face.â
He huffed a small laugh. âGuess Iâm matching you now.âÂ
You smiled and your hand didnât drop. Neither of you seemed capable of moving away. Steveâs eyes flicked between yours, searching carefully.
âHey,â he said quietly. The word barely made it out.
He hesitated for a second as if he was choosing his words.
âI donât wannaââ He stopped, shook his head a little, smiling nervously. âI just⌠I donât wanna make you uncomfortable or anything.â
Your heart squeezed. God, of course thatâs what he was worried about. âIâm not,â you said immediately.
He searched your face again, like he needed to be absolutely sure. âYou sure?â he asked, softer. ââCause I can back up. I justââ
You slid your hand from his jaw to the back of his neck and gently pulled him closer. He stopped talking.
âIâm sure,â you whispered. Your foreheads almost touched now. You could feel his breath against your lips. Warm. A little shaky.
âYouâre okay with this?â he murmured.
âMhm,â you nodded. âI want this.â
Relief melted his worried expression. âOkay,â he said quietly and carefully. His hand slid up slightly, cradling the side of your face, thumb brushing just under your cheekbone. The touch made your knees feel weak. You nearly stopped breathing. He leaned in slowly, slow enough that you couldâve changed your mind, slow enough that it felt like he was giving you every chance to step away.
You leaned forward, noses brushing clumsily but sweetly. You both laughed under your breath when his lips finally met yours. They were gentle and tentative, like he was testing something precious. It wasnât a drunk-sloppy makeout like youâd unfortunately witnessed at a million of these parties. Instead, Steve was soft and warm and careful. He acted as if he was scared you might disappear if he pressed too hard.Â
That initial, gentle contact was a spark, but it was the shift in his kiss that lit the fire. The careful pressure softened, then melted into something deeper as his lips parted yours with a tender insistence. His thumb, which had been stroking your cheek, stilled, and his other hand came up to rest on the small of your back, pulling you flush against him. The solid warmth of his chest against yours stole the air from your lungs in a way the first kiss hadnât. You could feel the steady, reassuring beat of his heart through the thin fabric of his shirt, a frantic rhythm that mirrored your own.
You tilted your head, deepening the angle, and a soft, breathy sigh escaped you. It was all the encouragement he needed. The hand on your back slid upward, his fingers splaying wide between your shoulder blades, holding you to him with an unmistakable possessiveness that sent a jolt straight through you. His kiss lost all its remaining hesitation. It became hungry, exploratory. He tasted like the cheap beer from the party but underneath it was something uniquely Steve, something warm and clean and addictive. Your own hands, which had been hanging limply around his neck, found their way into his hair. The strands were softer than youâd imagined, and you curled your fingers, gently tugging.
A low groan rumbled in his chest, a vibration you felt more than heard, and it was the most intoxicating sound youâd ever experienced. The world shrank to this small space, to the feeling of his body caging you in, his leg slotting between yours. The friction was maddening, a delicious pressure that made you arch into him, silently begging for more.
Steve broke the kiss, making you whine softly. âMay I?â
âPlease,â you begged, eyes still shut, already pulling his head back to yours. He began to trail his lips along your jawline. His breath was hot against your skin, ragged and uneven.Â
"Y/n," he murmured, his voice a low, rough whisper that sent shivers down your spine. He nipped at the sensitive spot just below your ear, and your head fell back against the wall with a soft thud, a silent offering. Steve took it, his mouth traveling down the column of your throat, licking and sucking in a way that was both worshipful and demanding. Your hands tightened in his hair, holding him to you, as his own hand slid from your face down the curve of your neck, his thumb tracing the frantic pulse point there before his fingers dipped lower, skimming the dip of your shirt.
He brought his mouth back to yours, and this time it was a collision. It was all teeth and tongue and desperate, needy sounds. There was nothing gentle left, only a raw, primal need that you felt in every fiber of your being. He kissed you like he was starving, like you were the only thing that could save him, and you kissed him back with the same frantic energy. The party, the music, the people all faded into a distant, meaningless hum. There was only the hard wall at your back, the solid press of his body against yours, and the dizzying, all-consuming way Steve was kissing you like he never intended to stop.
Your soft moan was a catalyst. He shuddered against you, a low groan rumbling in his chest as if your sound was the only thing grounding him. "God, I've been wanting to do that all night," he breathed, his voice a husky whisper against your lips. He didn't give you a chance to respond, sealing his mouth over yours again. The kiss deepened instantly, losing its tentative edge and becoming something sure and searching.
His hand slid from the small of your back, tracing a slow, deliberate path up your spine. The simple touch sent shivers everywhere, and you arched into him, a silent invitation he was more than happy to accept. Steve broke the kiss for just a second to press his forehead against yours. His eyes were dark, pupils blown wide with an intensity that made your breath catch. "I was so scared I was reading this wrong."
You shook your head, a small, breathless laugh escaping you. "You weren't." That was all the encouragement he needed. He ducked his head, his lips trailing a hot path down the column of your throat. He wasn't frantic or rough; he was savoring it. Each press of his lips was a discovery, a question you were answering with the soft sighs and gasps you couldn't hold back.
"Good," he whispered against your skin, right over your racing pulse. "Because I don't think I could stop now." He nipped gently at the sensitive spot where your neck met your shoulder, and the sharp, unexpected pleasure made you gasp his name. He froze for a moment, then let out a shaky breath, his lips curling into a smile against your skin. "I love the way you say my name," he admitted, his voice so low and intimate it was a secret just for you. "Keep making those sounds for me. Please." He returned to your mouth, his kiss slower this time, deeper, as if he was trying to memorize the taste of you, one sweet, intoxicating moment at a time.
Then the door at the top of the stairs slammed open, crashing against the wall with a deafening bang. The sound shattered the bubble, and a wave of loud, aggressive voices flooded the stairwell.Â
ââdonât know what the fuck youâre talking about, man!â
âYeah, youâre full of shit! You said youâd hold my spot!â
The shift was instantaneous. One second Steve was kissing you like you were the only person in the world; the next, he was a solid wall of muscle in front of you. He moved with a speed that was startling, the way he spun around to back you into the corner, his broad shoulders shielding you completely. Your face was pressed against the worn cotton of his t-shirt, your cheek digging into his back. The warmth of his body was no longer inviting; it was a cage.
"Hey! Take it somewhere else!" Steve's voice was sharp, cutting through the yelling. It wasn't the soft, breathy tone from moments ago; it was hard and commanding.
But the guys were too drunk, too far gone. A shove echoed, followed by a thud against the wall. "Fuck you! This is between me and him!"
You squeezed your eyes shut, your hands fisting in the back of Steve's shirt. The yelling, the aggression, the raw, stupid anger, it was like a switch being flipped inside you. The hazy warmth evaporated, replaced by a cold, creeping dread. The party noises came rushing back, the thumping bass, the indistinct roar of a hundred conversations, the clinking bottles.
The question hit you like a punch to the gut. You were supposed to stick together. You came together. You were supposed to watch out for each other. One minute you were getting a drink, and the next⌠this. You had no idea how much time had passed. You had no idea where she was. If she was okay. If she was looking for you.
Your breath hitched, your chest tightening until it was hard to draw a breath. The fight in front of you was just a jumble of meaningless threats, but the fear inside you was crystal clear. Everything was coming back, the overwhelming crowd, the sticky floors, the sickeningly sweet smell of spilled liquor, the knot of anxiety in your stomach you'd tried to drown with that one shot. You were alone. You were lost in a stranger's house, and the one person who felt like an anchor was currently shielding you from a brawl.
Steve must have felt you trembling, or heard the change in your breathing. He shifted slightly, turning his head just enough to speak over his shoulder, his voice dropping back down to a low, urgent whisper meant only for you. "Hey. Look at me. It's okay. I've got you. Just stay right here." His hand came back to find yours, his fingers lacing through yours and squeezing tight. "Come on," he murmured, his body still shielding you. "We're getting out of here." He kept you tucked behind him, a human shield, as he expertly navigated you away from the chaos of the stairwell and into a quieter, dimly lit hallway. The relative silence was a balm, and you finally dared to lift your head, your heart still hammering against your ribs.
Thatâs when a door down the hall swung open and your friend's boyfriend stumbled out. He was blinking slowly, a stupid, drunken grin on his face as he fumbled with the zipper of his jeans. He saw you and the grin widened. "Hey! There you are! Having a good time?"
Relief was instant and overwhelming, so potent it almost brought you to your knees. "Oh my god, where is she? Where's F/n?" you asked, your voice trembling with a desperate hope.
He squinted at you, as if trying to place your face. "F/n? Uh... I dunno." He shrugged, a monumental gesture of indifference. "She was with some girls by the kitchen last I saw. Wanted another beer." He hiccupped. "Think she was mad I was taking too long. Whatever."
The relief in your chest curdled, turning into a hot, sharp surge of fury. It was so swift and so powerful it made you dizzy. All the fear, all the panic, all the sickening worry, it all funneled into one white-hot point of rage aimed directly at him.
"You don't know?" The words came out low and dangerous, a stark contrast to the trembling mess you'd been seconds ago. Steve's hand tightened around yours, a silent question. You pulled away, taking a step toward your friendâs lazy-ass boyfriend. "You were supposed to be with her! Your one job was to stay with her and you don't fucking know where she is?!"
He held up his hands, his drunken smirk finally faltering. "Whoa, chill out. It's a party. She's a big girl."
"Chill out?" Your voice rose, shrill with disbelief and anger. "She's my best friend, you asshole! We have a system! We look out for each other! What if something happened? What if some creepâ"
"Hey," Steve's voice was firm but calm as he stepped up beside you, placing a steadying hand on your shoulder. "He's not worth it. Let's just find her." His gaze flickered from your furious face to the boyâs befuddled one, a clear warning in his eyes.
But you were too far gone, the fear having morphed into a protective, maternal rage. You shrugged off Steve's hand, glaring at your friendâs boyfriend. "No. You're going to help us find her. Right now. Or so help me god, I will make sure everyone at this party knows what a shitty boyfriend you are."
You didn't wait for his pathetic excuse. You turned on your heel, grabbing Steve's hand and pulling him back toward the front door, the party's thumping bass a grim reminder of where you'd left your friend. You pushed through the throng of bodies, your singular focus on getting outside, on finding air. You burst out onto the front lawn, the cool night air a shock to your system, and there she was.
F/n was standing by the street, arms crossed, looking utterly miserable. Relief washed over you so intensely you felt lightheaded. "F/n!" you yelled, running over and pulling her into a tight hug. "Oh my god, I was so worried. I couldn't find you."
She hugged you back, her grip surprisingly strong. "I know, I'm sorry. I was looking for you. I just needed some air." Her eyes flickered past you, and her entire expression changed. The hard lines of her face softened into something you couldn't quite decipher.
You turned to see her boyfriend jogging, or rather stumbling, out the front door. He spotted his girlfriend and a look of pure, drunken relief crossed his face. He half-ran, half-tripped over to her and practically collapsed against her, burying his face in her hair. "Baaaaby," he slurred, his arms wrapping around her waist. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."
You watched, baffled, as F/nâs tense shoulders relaxed. She stroked his hair, her expression melting into one of fond, weary affection. You didn't get it. You didn't understand how she could look at this sloppy, irresponsible mess and see someone worth loving. But she did, and the quiet, happy sigh she let out as she held him was all the proof you needed. A group of their friends spilled out of the house, cheering and yelling about heading back to his place. F/n gave you an apologetic look. "Are you good? We're gonna go."
You just nodded, too exhausted to argue. "Yeah. Call me in the morning if youâre not too hungover."
With a final wave, she let her boyfriend lead her away, disappearing down the street with their loud, laughing group. And then it was just you and Steve on the quiet, litter-strewn lawn. The adrenaline from the fight and the panic from before finally crashed, leaving you feeling hollowed out and cold. A shiver wracked your body, violent and uncontrollable.
Steve saw it instantly. He stepped closer, his brow furrowed with concern. "Come on," he said softly. "I'll walk you home."
You accepted without a second thought. The walk back was silent at first, the cool air seeping through your thin shirt. Another shiver rolled through you, and Steve stopped. Before you could ask what was wrong, he was pulling his own shirt over his head.
"Steve, what are you doing? Don't, you'll freeze," you protested, your eyes widening as his bare torso was revealed in the dim streetlight.
He just shook his head, a small, determined smile on his face. "I don't care." He stepped forward and gently draped the warm, soft cotton over your head. It smelled like him "Put it on. You're shaking."
You complied, your fingers fumbling with the sleeves. The shirt was huge on you, the hem falling mid-thigh, and the warmth was immediate and glorious. He didn't give you a chance to thank him. He just tucked you against his side, his bare arm wrapping securely around your shoulders, pulling you into the heat of his body. You leaned your head against his chest, the steady, rhythmic beat of his heart a comforting thrum against your ear. You walked the rest of the way in silence, cocooned in his warmth and his scent, feeling safer than you had all night.
You reached the familiar, ivy-covered brick of KPhi and stopped, the walk seeming both too short and endlessly long. Steve's arm was still around you, a warm, steady weight you were reluctant to lose. You turned to face him, looking up at his silhouette in the dim porch light.
"Thank you," you said softly, your voice barely a whisper. "For⌠everything."
He smiled, that gentle, genuine smile that had undone you in the stairwell. "Anytime." He leaned down, and the kiss he gave you was different from the others. It was soft, sweet, and full of a quiet promise. It wasn't hungry or desperate; it was settling.Â
When he pulled back, he kept his forehead resting against yours. "So," he murmured, his breath warm on your lips. "When am I going to see you again?"
A playful spark ignited in your chest, chasing away the last of the night's exhaustion. You leaned back just enough to look him in the eye, a small smirk playing on your lips. "What made you think I want to see you again?"
For a split second, a flicker of panic crossed his face, and it was the most adorable thing you'd ever seen. You let him squirm for exactly two seconds before you broke, a laugh bubbling up. "I'm just messing with you," you said, your voice full of affection. "Of course I want to see you again."
Relief washed over his features, and he let out a breath he didn't know he was holding. You grinned, then turned and started walking backward toward the front door, his oversized shirt hanging off your frame. You gave him a little wave, a final, flirty goodbye.
But you only made it three steps.
Something, a sudden, overwhelming need, propelled you forward. You spun around and ran back up the sidewalk, closing the distance between you in seconds. You grabbed the belt loops of his jeans and crashed your mouth into his.
This kiss was nothing like the one before. It was all the intensity from the stairwell, all the desperation and relief and want, packed into a single, breathless moment. You poured everything into it, and he met you halfway, his hands flying to your waist, pulling you hard against him. You were kissing him senseless, and he was kissing you right back, just as lost.
Without breaking the kiss, you started walking backward again, pulling him with you, step by step, toward the house. He stumbled along, a willing prisoner to your momentum. You fumbled behind you for the doorknob, your lips never leaving his, and managed to push the heavy door open.
You pulled him inside, kicking the door shut behind you. In the dim, silent foyer, you finally broke apart, both of you breathing heavily. You looked up at him, at his dark, hungry eyes and his kiss-swollen lips.
"You can stay," you whispered, your voice ragged. "But you have to be really quiet. You can't wake anyone."
âYou mean, you have to be really quiet.â
âI can kick you out just as easily as I brought you in.â
He raised his hands like the cops were on to him. A slow, triumphant grin spread across his face. He just nodded, not trusting himself to speak again. You took his hand, your heart hammering against your ribs, and led him silently up the creaking stairs, down the hall, and into the dark sanctuary of your single room, carefully twisting the lock shut behind you.