eat me, but like, religiously

harrow's relationship with gideon's name is insane to me. like she hardly ever says it. she almost never actually says gideon's name, and when she does it's usually a big deal. the first time of course being her shouting "gideon! gideon!" after the avulsion trial, a rare display of open attachment and concern. the other that stands out is when her last words in harrow the ninth, for all intents and purposes, are gideon's name, even though she doesn't even know what she's saying. i don't think harrow ever once says it lightly, without really truly meaning something by it. but the rest of the time? the rest of the time she calls her "griddle." which is transparently babytalk. fucking insane that harrow's mean annoying nickname for gideon is just. just her struggle to pronounce it as a toddler. how perplexingly cruel and vulnerable is that. parroting your own babytalk at someone. you have always been stuck with me and you always will. you will never escape our shared childhood. i am as fundamental to you as you are to me. your name was one of the first i ever tried to say. i have been asking for your attention for our entire lives. i have been calling to you since before i could form the syllables. gid-oh! gid-oh! gid-oh!

I wish the take I see most often on hollywood barbie alecto wasn't that john chose that because he wanted a sex symbol because it's missing out on a lot of thematic resonance about how john cannot help but return to frameworks of western imperialism and even at the moment he is seeking comfort in his childhood he ends up with one the symbols of western capitalism and how that relates to him recreating the same systems that harmed him and were destroying the world when he becomes god

ill genuinely start crying if i think too much about how nona could speak every language. how she could speak to all the littles in a language they recognized. how she said people were nicer when you spoke the same language as them - how it made them think you were from where they were from, had gone through what they had gone through. people of "new rho" i think about you always

#but only a few remaining creatures speak HER language are from HER home know what SHE has experienced#and hes killing them (via @skyhook-parchment)

if tamsyn was actually sick and twisted there won’t be a griddlehark reunion at all. one of them will finally find the other, burst onto the scene, make eye contact, and then watch her die. bonus torture points if the one dying has done it on purpose to somehow remove her immortality. this is my greatest atn fear. that the tragedy is that love really doesn’t conquer death. it just outlasts it.