get drunk and build bridges!

“Isinilang ako sa mundong ito ng walang muwang sa gagalawan ko. Hindi ko nga alam kung may magandang buhay ba sa hinaharap ko. Ngunit ng masilayan ko ang ganda mo, Alam kong ito na ang unang pag-ibig ko. Sa bawat paglipas ng araw ay mas lalo kitang nakikilala, Kapangitan mo ay unti unti ko nang nakikita. Ngunit, imbis na ako sayo'y mawalan ng gana, Pag-ibig ko sayo'y lalong umigting pa. Nang akala ko ay nagbago ka na, Nadiskubre ko ang mga natatago mong sikreto, Kinikimkim na mga bagay ay marahil ang iyong baho. Ngunit para sa akin ay minamahal ka kaya naman tinatanggap kita. Sa pagdaan ng mga taon buhay ko'y nagkadireksyon. Layunin kong iahon ka sa lupang kinasasadlakan mo. Sapagkat, makita kang nagdurusa di kaya ng puso ko. Kaya naman lahat aking gagawin upang malimot ang kahapon. Lumipas ang mahabang panahon at nandiyan ka pa rin, Sa magulong lugar na kung saan ganda mo lang ang katapat Para sayo ginawa na ang lahat, ngunit kay hirap intindihin Tila pagsusumikap ko'y di pa rin sumapat. Sayo ako'y di magagawang sumuko, Sapagkat ikaw nagbigay ng dahilan sa buhay ko. Kaya naman pinapangako sa iyo, Labis pa kitang mamahalin, bayan ko.”

I don’t cry over people, but I cried over you.

when i text you it means i miss you.

you told me we will fight together until the end, but you left me in the middle of the war with a knife stabbed on my heart.

‘cause baby you are the stories written in this blog.

Before I fall in love again 1. I want us to be friends. Which means, I want to be able to eat my favourite cheese crust pizza with you, while having cheese all over my face and even in my hair, without feeling embarrassed or concerned about it. I want to be comfortable with you, I want to be okay about being messy, irritating, embarrassing, disgusting, petty while with you. Because I will be petty when I see my ex best friend post a happy picture and I will be messy during my finals and I will be embarrassing when I meet your parents for I suck at meeting parents. I want to be okay with being the way I am and the only way to be okay is to know that you’re okay with me being things other than beautiful, graceful and composed at all times. 2. I want to be able to have long and passionate conversations with you not just about existential things but also about what went wrong in the ending of that book and how kids are affected by media and how tomato basil combination always works. I want to have conversations where we may not always have the same views but our fundamental values always fall in place. I want to talk to you about the beauty of the stars but I also want to talk to you about the disgusting mentality behind certain societal norms. 3. I want to see how consistent your actions are with your words. I don’t want to fall for love letters or poems, for sweet Instagram captions or long birthday texts, I want to fall in love with you showing up on time and keeping your promises. 4. I want to take it slow. I want our story to work out in years, not months. I want to respect time and space this time. 5. I want to make sure I am not seeking love from you for the lack of love I have for myself. I want to make sure you aren’t a void I am filling in, you are not an alternative to the things I can’t give myself. I want to make sure you are not doing the same. 6. I want to work out with my insecurities and fears from the past. I don’t want to project them on you, I don’t want to subject you to the doubts, suspicion and anger I carry from the people I have known in the past. 7. Before I fall in love again, I want to make a mattress with you. Of understanding and respect and trust. So when we fall, it doesn’t hurt.

But if you’re not ready for love How can you be ready for life?