i can do anything. i'm a writer.

Ah, yes, the brainworm that refused to leave me alone for Restraintstiel Week Day 7 — Free. I wrote a fic which you can read here. Essentially the second part to this artwork.

5. Borax to kill the leviathans

4. God Killing Murder Suicide Gun

3. That time they put a bunch of ghosts into dean in order to make him into a ghost fueled bomb to blow up Amara

2. Lucifer catching egg that got lost in the mail

The big stretch the first baseman has to do to catch the ball and remain on base

When a pitch rolls away and the catcher has to look all threatening at the base runners when he gets it

When the batter strikes out so bad and he can tell

When the fielder gives up trying to catch the home run ball

When the second baseman tries to catch a ball twenty feet above him

i'm always saying that devil may care is kind of a blueprint for what season nine could have been: kevin is a real part of team free will, and he's growing into quite the dirt bag. we're taking demon politics seriously and paying attention to them. but most importantly this speech is the closest abaddon ever gets to seeming like a real threat. this makes her a personal danger and it makes her dean's personal villain. she's succeeding at being kind of scary here.

but there is a fundamental flaw. which is that dean should have said yes. when abaddon said have you ever felt an infant's blood drip down your chin, or listened to a girl scream as you rip her guts out? dean should have said yes.

look, this is dean. dean, alastair's best torturer. the guy who liked it better in purgatory than on earth because it was just pure violence. "what i'm good at is slicing throats." later this season, dean is gonna take the mark of cain. it's going to turn him into a knight of hell - just like abaddon. she should be functioning as a kind of shadow-self here.

and she... kind of is, but there's something missing. which is the acknowledgement that well. abaddon is evil, but there's something evil in dean too. something he is ashamed of, maybe afraid of, but it exists. there is something inside dean similar to abaddon, something that is a product of hell, or just a part of himself that fit in a little too well there. i want you to compare this scene, the haunted look in dean's eyes when dean says "yeah, she can." the haunted look that means i can, too, and i didn't come by it honestly. i want that vibe here.

of course in the rest of the season abaddon is mostly crowley's villain, which fails pretty badly since the show really has no idea what to do with crowley in season nine. crowley himself manages to still be fun because crowley is already a well laid out and developed character and more importantly mark sheppard is a great and charming actor. abaddon, unfortunately, has neither of these advantages, and ends up a pretty nothing villain because of it.

Anyone want to play a game of restraintstiel memory?

For restraintstielweek day 7 free by @valdelion and @niceworkhuggybear