Dollz Archive

heyy dollzz!!

I’m never sure about what you’re supposed to put in these but I’mma just freestyle it ig

☆ Soo firstly, I’m a girl with too many thoughts that definitely shouldn’t be said aloud (hence why the archive exists). I have an insanely messed up sleeping schedule cuz I be thinking too much and here you’ll probably see some of those thoughts that fill my mind at 2am, can be literally anything, from deep and interesting stuff to random ass anime headcanons lmao

☆ Btw lil info, I’m a student, a smoker, I enjoy reading and writing, music runs in my veins more than blood does and yeah… I believe I can be perceived as a bit weird and boring at times

oh I almost forgot, main fandoms:

☆ Bluelock (favs Sae & Kaiser)

☆ Wind breaker (fav Kaji)

☆ Bungo Stray Dogs (fav Chuuya)

☆ Attack On Titan (fav Levi)

☆ Jujutsu Kaisen (favs Inumaki, Geto & Yuji)

(pls recommend me some anime, I just got a crunchyroll membership)

Idk if I did this well but yeah

anywaysss

Thanks for reading all ts also I don’t know how to use tumblr so bare with me while I figure it out 🥀

ft. Sae, Nagi, Reo, Chigiri, Bachira, Kaiser, Hugo

could be ooc

☆ Sae - Castle Wedding ☆

soo this man is having one of the dreamiest wedding on earth

With piano music, in real time painting, warm tones; I feel like he’d enjoy something not too loud but definitely that doesn’t go unnoticed, also won’t admit it but probably wants his partner to feel royal.

☆ Nagi - Picnic wedding ☆

let’s be real this man wouldn’t want a wedding that takes too much effort and energy; would probably prefer a lil nice picnic, with people he cares about, where he can sit and eat at peace and maybe even take a nap.

☆ Reo - Rooftop wedding ☆

Now he goes EXTRA, if Nagi wants something quiet this man wants the entire world to know that he’s marrying a beautiful person.

Also I bet that he’d organize the whole wedding based on what his partner wants; he wants to impress them and make them have the best day of their life.

☆ Chigiri - Garden wedding ☆

(tbh this is actually my own wedding moodboard, mind y’all I’m nowhere near DATING someone, let alone marry)

I honestly believe he’d want something calm, soft, in the nature and very dreamy and fairytale-like and a garden wedding in my opinion is the closest thing to that. Would also probably prefer closer relatives and friends than the biggest wedding ever, I think a garden also gives off some more nostalgic, family atmosphere.

☆ Bachira - colorful wedding, by the lake/sea ☆

Now he wants fun, he wants loud and exiting. This man probably wants the most colorful wedding one can have, that radiates happiness and joy from every angle. Also his partner should keep an eye on him cuz this man could potentially go for a swim at any time.

☆ Kaiser - Yacht/Boat wedding ☆

Now this man for sure wants something he and his partner won’t forget, and what’s more unforgettable than a fucking yacht wedding?!

This man wants everyone else to look at him and his partner and have their fullest attention (and if someone feels jealous too he’d gladly want to know)

☆ Hugo - (art) museum wedding ☆

I honestly don’t know much about him, but I think he’d appreciate a philosophical and intellectual place that could stimulate him to think. Also my man is French, love and art are the main reason people visit the country, is only fair for him to combine them.

pt. 1 here | pt. 2

ft. Bachira, Kaiser, Yukimiya, Chigiri, Isagi

(pt.1 includes - Sae, Rin, Nagi, Reo)

most of these are niche perfumes, mind you I brainstormed all my fragrances knowledge for this 😭

pt. 1 | part 2 here

ft. Sae, Rin, Nagi, Reo

(pt.2 includes - Isagi, Kaiser, Bachira, Yukimiya, Chigiri)

☆ most of these are niche perfumes, mind you I brainstormed all my fragrances knowledge for this 😭

☆ Sae - Memo Paris African Leather ☆

Notes

Top - Cardamom essence Guatemala, Geranium absolute egypt, Pink Pepper CO2 extract

Heart - Rose essence, Patchouli essence Indonesia, Cinnamon essence

Base - Leather accord, Oud essence, Amber accord

I feel like Sae would go for a definitely niche perfume, that has this warm, leathery scent but still somewhat sweet; kinda pairs up with him right?

☆ Rin - Prada Luna Rossa Carbon ☆

Notes

Top - Bergamot and Pepper;

Heart - Lavender, Metallic notes, Coal, Watery Notes and Soil Tincture;

Base - Ambroxan and Patchouli.

Rin is someone I see as extremely ambitious and that tries to be seen as confident and always trying to be the best

This scent is very clean, and we know our man is clean, and sporty, while also smelling controlled and confident; which, in my eyes, is exactly how Rin tries to carry himself

☆ Nagi - Maison Margiela Replica Lazy Sunday Morning ☆

Notes

Top - Pear accord, Lily of the valley accord, Aldehydes

Heart - Iris accord, Rose absolute, Orange flower accord

Base - Indonesian patchouli oil, Ambrette seeds absolute, White musks

I mean, do we need to explain this? Our man Nagi is definitely a lazy person, always tired and sleepy, and this fragrance wants to recreate the feelings of a lazy morning in freshly washed cotton sheets… kindq fitting for Nagi right?

☆ Reo - Maison Crivelli Oud Maracujá ☆

Notes

Top - Passion fruit agreement, saffron

Heart - Absolute of Rosa from Türkiye Orpur, Oud's agreement

Base - Benzoino from Laos Orpur, absolute of Cisto from Spain Orpur, leather agreement, patchouli oil from the Indonesia Orpur, Vanilla, Akigalawood

Our rich bitch definitely uses some of the most detailed and particular fragrances that I could think of; this fragrance has a really interesting contrast between the intensity of oud and the sweetness of passion fruit, which reminds me of Reo himself. He’s extremely charismatic and calculated, but he’s also incredibly emotional and passionate.

after the Bllk vs Japan U-20 game

could be ooc

☆ wrote this at 4am 😭 ☆

I arrived at the hotel before him, he was probably busy with some interviews and Shidou and other stuff.

I entered the hotel suite and immediately threw myself on the bed… God I was exhausted, I insisted to come with him in Japan but overlooked at how tiring time zones and jet lag would be.

I then spent the next 5 mins just lying in bed, until I got up and took some snacks, that my bf found disgusting and unhealthy… but I couldn’t care less tbh.

I headed towards the balcony and sat there for a while, eating my snacks while the cold air softly hit my face.

S: “You’re still eating that stuff? How many times do I have to tell you is bad for you?”

I didn’t even hear him enter, I looked back at him, his figure standing right before the balcony entrance. I immediately set the snacks on the table and went to hug him

“Sae! you almost scared me- also shut up on the snacks, cut me some slack”

he wrapped one arm around my waist and rested his chin on my head, I then heard him sighing softly

S: “Did you enjoy the game?”

“yeah… a bit boring when you look at your Re Al matches… but overall it wasn’t too bad…”

“your brother wasn’t bad actually, y’all are actually pretty similar yk? Deep down I hoped you’d introduce us…”

S: “hm.. maybe one day”

I smiled and broke the hug, taking a step back

“you tired?”

S: “not really, maybe a bit sleepy… why?”

“I mean you still played 90 mins so…”

S: “the interviews were actually more exhausting than the game itself”

he looked at me and lifted one eyebrow

S: “What do you want?”

God this man could read me like an open book, I looked outside, towards the busy lights of Tokyo

“I suppose you wanna go back to spain?”

S: “You don’t?”

“Well… I’ve never visited Japan.. let alone with a handsome japanese man?”

S: “Then we’ll visit Japan”

his tone was flat, contrasting my excitement perfectly

“wait really???”

S: “We can take the plane in 2 days, is that enough time for you?”

we were supposed to fly back tomorrow morning since he needed to return to Spain for practice. He was sacrificing his free time to adjust to the time zones just for me… I smiled and hugged him again

“omg yes thank you!! you know you don’t need to do this right?”

S: “mhm…”

S: “well, get ready? what are you waiting for?”

“WHAT?! NOW?! where are we even going?”

S: “Visit Tokyo… go dress comfortably, I’ll take a shower”

this man… always trying to stay cold, and damn was he awkward with words… but wasn’t he also the best man one could ask for?

I still hadn’t taken his jersey off from the match so I changed into some jeans and a tank top, while he came out of the bathroom wearing a fricking polo shirt

“didn’t you say comfortable?”

S: “I’m comfortable.”

“I mean whatever you say diva”

he sighed but then continued

S: “Shall we go?”

I nodded, put on my sneakers, and we walked out.

As we walked in the streets of Tokyo I could see everyone looking at us, I mean I was used to it but it could still get overwhelming.

Sae then took my hand in his and started walking a bit faster, he probably noticed my slight discomfort. We walked for what felt like forever.

“Sae where are we going? I’m tired”

he stopped

S: “here”

I looked behind him and saw this… park — Mōri Park — glowing with beautiful lights…

“omg this is beautiful Sae-“

He then took my hand again and walked through the park, that was the first time he slowed down since we went out, and I took advantage of the moment and looked at the beautiful flowers and trees surrounding me.

I could feel him relaxing, his fingers intertwining with mine, his eyes wandering around more, his breath getting deeper and calmer, and dare I say I even saw a faint smile?!

“Sae look at those!!”

he looked over, but didn’t say anything, just acknowledged what I was pointing at.

After walking through the park he stopped and sat on a stone bench and invited me to follow him, I sat next to him and leaned my head on his shoulder, he stiffened at the beginning but then loosened up.

We stayed like that for at least 10 minutes, but I could’ve honestly kept it up forever… just me and him.

Sae wasn’t the most expressive man on earth but he knew how to make me feel loved, and that was enough for me.

I looked at the blossom flowers

“I really like this place… love the view”

He had been looking at me since we sat down, and his gaze finally drifted away towards the flowers.

“I love the view too”

ft, Chuuya, Dazai, Akutagawa, Kunikida, Atsushi, Ranpo, Fyodor, Nikolai

CW: smoking (obviously)

also could be ooc

☆ made this while I was craving a cig ☆

pls don’t smoke is bad for you 💗😭

Chuuya - Yes

I mean if I recall correctly is canon that he smokes occasionally while he drinks, but I actually believe he’d also smoke like late at night when is quiet and he just wants to chill, wouldn’t encourage others to smoke.

Dazai - no (but occasionally did)

I feel like during his mafia days he could’ve tried to smoke once or twice (I’m aware that he was a minor) never really liked it but probably tried it once too many times. Wouldn’t recommend it but probably understands why some people start smoking

Akutagawa - ABSO-FUCKING-LUTELY NO

This man has the worse lung health one could imagine, no way he would smoke too.

Doesn’t care about what others do, as long as they don’t smoke around him.

Atsushi - No

This man thinks smoking is an absolute crime, like probably forgot you can buy cigs in a store; definitely can’t stand the smell of smoke and coughs whenever he’s near someone smoking

Kunikida - No

This man would never. I would actually imagine him giving the agency anti smoke informative days like the ones we used to have in school.

Would never recommend it.

(could start smoking in 20 years due to Dazai stressing him out)

Ranpo - No… but he tried

This man knows is bad, and coughs like a baby whenever he’s near someone smoking, also despises the smell, but he definitely tried once, why? well I don’t know actually

Fyodor - No

wouldn’t do it for health concerns, and also doesn’t find it interesting nor useful. Does recommend it tho.

Nikolai - Sometimes?

I could see him enjoying it, maybe buying those colorful ones. ✨

Definitely recommends it and tries to manipulate people into smoking.

ft. Kaiser, Sae, Nagi, Rin

could be a bit ooc? don’t really trust my characterization

☆ Kaiser - 6.5/10

- soo he’s my fav character so I’d want to give him a higher score but let’s be honest, not only does this man have a sky high ego and a manipulative personality, he also has some serious childhood trauma and I’m not sure he’d let someone get close to him so easily. Now if you do get to that side? this man is never leaving you; would probably try to give you all you want, tease you 24/7 (and might even get clingy), also you’re attending all his matches, that’s nonnegotiable, but would probably find out he gets insecure and would need to reassure him.

☆ Sae - 9/10

- now this man is very closed off and calm, he can appear cold and emotionally distant but he’ll probably be a hell of a bf; he’d 100% make sure his partner has everything they want, will definitely protect them from social media if they’re uncomfortable with it (I mean legally protect them if necessary), would probably rearrange his own lifestyle in order to make sure he got time for you and overall you’d probably feel loved, even if he isn’t the best at showing it.

☆ Nagi - 7/10

- not a bad bf overall… but he’s lazy as helllll, you’d probably have to organize most of the dates yourself and make sure he wakes up in time and makes it. But I’m sure he’d also be clingy as hell, as long as you’re not too loud you can expect him constantly clinging to you on the couch or in bed; also I believe he would actually like giving like back scratches, and also receiving them ofc, but actually surprised himself when he found out he enjoyed giving them to you. Also this man would probably suggest to order take out at least twice a week; and expect to have to force this bitch to help you with house chores

☆ Rin - 5/10

- I love my boy Rin, but he is too insecure while still being too focused on himself. Is the type to text you good morning but also forget to tell you when he’s 1 hour late after practice, also would probably be unapproachable after losing a match (especially if Isagi is involved), would probably keep you away from meeting his brother. But, on a good note, he sounds like a man that knows how to give honest advice when it comes to choosing an outfit, isn’t the best in gifts but would always have that chocolate you like in his house, just in case you want it, also if he actually gets attached you can expect some subtle physical touch

Chuuya x Y/N ?? (not necessarily a romantic relationship)

CW: grief/loss, death (off screen, referenced), child abuse (mentioned), emotional distress, suicidal thoughts/attempted suicide (not graphic), smoking/cigarettes, violence (PM setting)

☆ random story I pulled out of my notes app, wrote it at 2am, so hope is actually enjoyable ☆

Not all the mafia members had the privilege to be taught by the heads of the organization.

You, for example, just had one good sniper guy, he was a big name yeah… but was nowhere near Mori; and if a lower rank assassin gets thrown off a bridge down a road… port mafia isn’t really going to budge much… you learned that the hard way, as one guy you never saw gave you the notice, your usually empty eyes quietly filled with tears.

“did you catch the people that did it?”

“We know their identity, but we’re currently experiencing more important matters”

“w-wha- how”

“we’ll work on it as soon as possible. Also… here’s your next target, your mentor said you were ready for solo missions right? show us”

so… the man that taught you everything, that found you that rainy night by the street, beaten up by your own father; that treated you like a dad would treat his daughter… was worth nothing but a “we’ll work on it in the future” for these people?

You did the task they gave you, you also visited the bridge your mentor caught his last breath on.. and you now asked for an encounter with Mori… you just couldn’t let the idea of your mentor getting forgotten.

As you entered the luxurious office of the PM leader, Dazai was staring at you in a corner… back in the day you, him and chuuya would go on missions together… until Mori decided you weren’t on their level no more.

M: “Good morning, heard you had some questions?”

“I was wondering if you got the time to give justice to my mentor”

M: “not yet, we have bigger issues”

“well… I was wondering if we know how much longer it should take us… also when is going to be the funeral?”

M: “Resources are allocated where they’re most useful… we have bigger concerns now”

“what do you mean?! he has all the rights to!”

I started getting worked up… how could the life of a fellow member be so worthless? wasn’t he worth a proper goodbye?

I exited the room… nose bleeding and face swelling….

M “you’re lucky enough that we’re missing a sniper”

was I?

~

months passed… life was… getting tough to say the least

I was taking his jobs… filling my schedules until I couldn’t breathe, just so I didn’t have to think about anything… but nights couldn’t seem to have an end, as I stared on a blank wall, thinking about all those things that happened…. and people’s expectations for me that didn’t quite seem to match the mental state I had…

~

We met exactly 4 years ago

me? hopeless and hurt

while he had this smile that could calm a storm, definitely unsettling for someone who killed people for a living; yet he was so… reassuring

“hey kid! you hungry?”

5 months ago I lost the only person that cared enough to call me by my name, to hug me, that cared enough to give me a future. He saw something I still haven’t seen in myself

And after today I won’t ever have the chance to see

I step over the bridge’s rail, breeze hitting my dyed hair, tears slowly falling down my face, deep breath in… and out… is tim-

C: “What the fuck do you think you’re doing?!”

My body basically levitates back to the other side of the railing… Chuuya ofc with his gravity thing

C: “Are you out of your fucking mind?!”

C: “And what are you crying for”

C: “You really think he would want you to die uselessly just cuz your lame ass can’t handle grief?! woman up. thought you were better than this”

As i look at him the only thing that i can do is cry.

“you don’t understand, how would you feel knowing the only person that ever cared for you died?! and no one seems to care or wants to do anything about it?!”

C: “the only person?! you sure have a weird way of perceiving people around you — also if he was so important why aren’t you handling the people that killed him?!”

My vision gets blurry… and then I just go and hug him, gripping on his coat like my life depended on it, he stiffens but eventually returns the hug

C: “You’re seriously going to cry on my coat? dare to wrinkle it and I swear to God that-“

“Chuuya Im tired, I can’t do this — why do I always have to be left alone… firstly my own family… now this… and missions with you and dazai and”

C: “Shut the fuck up now- you idiot. come with me”

he breaks the hug and grabs my wrist and starts walking towards the other side of the city

“where are you taking me”

C: “shut up.”

I nod, even tho he can’t see it.

After what feels like forever we reach a building and we get on the roof made of concrete, the night breeze was a bit colder here; he sits down and invites me to do the same

“what exactly is this place?”

C: “you once said that your comfort place was that spot on the sand, under the bridge…. this is my version. dare to judge you asshole and I’m pushing you off the building”

I smile ever so slightly

“is nice… you can see all Yokohama from here…”

I then tease him slightly “never thought you’d have a comfort place”

C: “oh shut up- is just a place I go to on my free time if im tired”

so that’s why he was around so late

C: “anyways… you’re still crying hm?“

“oh shit sorry“ he ignores me.

C: “heard the old man made you start smoking”

I nod while wiping some tears off

C: “want one?”

he hands me a pack of cigarettes… only two left inside, one of them flipped upside down, I smile a lil at the idea of him taking part of that lil ritual

“I mean… you only have 2… is fine-“

C: “you fuckass take one! I’m trying to be nice!”

I laugh a lil at that but then see him give me the upside down cig

“isn’t that supposed to be your lucky one-“

C: “shut up”

he then hands me the lighter and we just smoke, in silence, no one says a word… it felt so.. right? couldn’t remember the last time I felt so at ease.

He then finishes his cig before me.

C: “you know… I bet he wasn’t the only person to care about you… you want to be alone so much… that you forget to look around…”

C: “I mean you were used to it, so I’m not gonna shame you for that… but try looking around yourself a bit more; bet you’ll find someone looking for you too”

I take a last drag from my cigarette…

look around?

I’ve been lonely for so long that the idea of just having to look around to find someone felt too easy to be true.

C: “I bet that they’re also closer than you think..”

I take a deep breath

“I’ll try…”

he nods

“I see why you like this place… is peaceful”

“oh also thank you…”

C: “you fuckass don’t say that- I’ve done nothing!”

I chuckle and see him crack a smile

“I want to leave port mafia… yk start my own thing”

C: “if Mori allows it… I get it… just keep in touch..”

“didn’t think you were a softie like that”

C: “oh fuck you!! didn’t think you were a crybaby either yet here we are!”

I chuckle again… this dude is something else

“okay okay sorry- want another one?”

now I was the one offering cigarettes

C: “You had them the whole time?!”

☆ ft. Kaji, Ume, Sakura, Suo

☆ Kaji - 5/10

kinda feels unexpected from him, but honestly I feel like he wouldn't be really jealous, he just doesn't want his partner to feel uncomfortable.

A guy is talking to them? fine, he trusts them enough with it, could be slightly annoyed tho

A guy is talking to them while they're clearly trying to push him away? He'd step in 200% and probably scaring off the dude

☆ Sakura - 8/10

This man is clearly still very self conscious, so I think he'd feel jealous and WILL need reassurance from his partner later on.

Now, does he react? depends on the whole situation, wouldn't surprise me if he bluntly asked the guy what he wanted

☆ Suo - 2/10

Now this man is tricky, he definitely doesn't show jealousy and would never admit to be jealous, so much that he himself started to believe he wasn't (hence why the 2/10) but in reality? the way his smile feels more forced and his eye sharpens a bit tell a different story

☆ Ume - 1/10

This man probably doesn't know what jealousy is. Unless he sees you uncomfortable he probably wouldn't even acknowledge the fact that a dude is flirting with you; could even start talking with him about his tomatoes and plants 😭