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As a person who has suffered from depression and OCD for years, and who has stayed in her room for the past two days, I keep resenting the people I used to love and care for, and who used to care for me. I find myself thinking about my memories from when I used to shine and glow among the people around me -which I don't feel like anymore-

Life after high school is completely different. For me, my biggest challenge is to stop being afraid of being lonely. I’m not a big fan of myself not even a friend. I don’t like myself, and I don’t even know who I am, which makes me live without meaning, only looking for a love that will fulfill me

I’m not an optimistic person it’s easy for me to slip back into my misery and melancholy. But I felt like life was worth living when I started eating those delicious fruits. It’s a simple thing, but it means a lot when you think about it deeply.

It’s so funny watching you do that

Keep doing it until my need for you fades forever

until I finally give up on you

and become free again

bleeding alone is easier

Artist's Impression of an Active Galactic Nucleus (AGN) and Supermassive Black Hole

Why the tears, little moth?

Why the sorrow?

The moon has grown distant

so distant that its light can no longer be seen.

And now,

these small glowing lights keep appearing before you in the dark.

How beautiful they are.

How warm, how comforting their glow seems

within this eternal darkness.

Even though it hurts.

Even though getting close burns you,

slowly melting your wings

forever.

You cannot turn away

And still, you move closer.

Common Nightingale

The Common Nightingale is a bird renowned for its nocturnal song, which is why it became symbolically intertwined with love and longing, beautiful sorrow and suffering, freedom, expression, and the authentic voice. It also came to embody hope amidst the darkness. Its English name, Nightingale, literally translates to 'night singer' (from night and the Old English galan, meaning to sing), capturing its unique habit of singing through the night.

In Persian and Sufi literature, the nightingale represents the passionate lover or the human soul searching for ultimate truth, while the Rose symbolizes the beloved or divine perfection. Thus, the imagery of 'the nightingale and the rose' became a profound symbol of love and the pursuit of perfection despite the inevitable pain.