don't find me

i think someone needs to put me down. like now.

am i being dense or am i being delusional..?

my heart and brain are constantly fighting. my heart takes everything as a sign of mutual feelings, but my brain knows that, logically, they interact with me the same as everyone else.

i took every meaningless interaction and have it so much meaning that i spiraled over it. how pathetic.

i hate that my heart gets so excited with him, but my mind knows better. i just feel so embarrassed about my feelings because i know they're irrational.

i love having a long and deep conversation with someone, and when we can both tell its getting towards the end, we bring up as many random things as we can to keep it going. the beauty of not wanting to leave the moment.

you light up fireworks in my heart with every word you say to me, but i'll never be able to tell you that.

i would rather write about my feelings a million times before confessing.