i deserve a gold star for being so sweet and nice and not killing

slut era (just trying to make new friends)

starting to think I may actually have some issues and even perhaps problems

that’s between me and my delusions

i just want to invite all my friends over to have a glass of water with me

unstoppable force (my desire to have a relationship) vs immovable object (my fear of dating)

i loooove being delusional. catch me ignoring reality altogether. catch me never being reasonable ever. catch me straight up making up things in my head to cope. delusion is my best friend

after seeing your friends for a few hours sometimes u walk away and return home with a little ball of glowing golden light in your chest

i have so many psychological issues. who wants to make out with me

love passes thru me at all times like an electric current

anger shame & grief, also, but love most of all

driving 90 minutes to my favorite empty lot to smoke 1 cigarette

surviving on your own isn't strength… letting love in and out is :-)

having a crush is so embarrassing i need to be lobotomized

like what if i want us to hold hands & maybe even jump off a cliff together. whatever. fuck you

that’s my emotional support mutual that I never interact with

i will not lie, friends in my phone, i have been imagining affection from time to time