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@dieselsin
Diesel
she/him/it/. name is Diesel. the pictures you see above is essentially what I look like in one form.
this blog is the embodiment of my cptsd just as a coping mechanism through fantasy.
its mostly: venting, my story laid out in details, my trauma/life journey and updates, traumacore artwork; the atmosphere is gloomy, dark, grim, intense.
I don't recommend anybody under 18 to interact or follow i only follow 18+ and will befriend anybody 21+ as I'm 23.
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i cant believe people believe in spirit guides that's the stupidiest fucking thing ever.
you dont have to have the perfect excuse. just stop talking to them
You're allowed to talk about your own personal experience. If someone takes that personally as an attack on their character and decides it must erase their experience, that's on them not on you. Different people can experience the same thing differently. If someone gets hateful toward you for the fact that you just shared an experience, that's emotionally invalidating and abusive. It shows a lack of emotional intelligence on their end.
the traumatized urge to over explain things so that i'm not misunderstood
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my mold lab report came back (certified official lab, chain-of-custody form, can be used in courts) and it said there's an overgrowth of mold in my abusers house. and this report is now being uploaded by my doctors online for my health history and causation of my diagnoses. i also have multiple complaints toward the house owners saved as evidence.
"The report showed Category 5 (very heavy) growth in your HVAC vent with Cladosporium + hyphal fragments.
That means active mold growth right at the source of your indoor airflow."
It's a heavy overgrowth my pedophiles are rich and have more than enough money to remediate it.
legally i can fuck them over for this
my mold lab report came back (certified official lab, chain-of-custody form, can be used in courts) and it said there's an overgrowth of mold in my abusers house. and this report is now being uploaded by my doctors online for my health history and causation of my diagnoses. i also have multiple complaints toward the house owners saved as evidence.
text reads: [the darkness will come in a flash when you take your last breath… and maybe then all this suffering will be gone]
never have i ever mentioned these things but i'm going to buffalo, ny in the future maybe even next year and i'll just tell them i'm in a different city like Utica, ny or something. so many people, so many apartment complexes my abusers wont be able to find me and i'll be in buffalo anyway. i cant go rural yet i need to establish a life outside of my abusers first and then i'll go rural
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there's a broken part in me where you left me to bleed where you left me.
i just want to see my real family
i wonder who they are. what are my parents like? the real parents i have. i hope they're gentle, kind, sweet, empathetic, vulnerable, open-minded to foreign experiences and peoples lives, and understanding of everyone they come across. i hope they're like me. i hope the only reason they have to give me up was perhaps the fact that my mom and dad were too young, maybe living in bad circumstances and didn't feel they could fend for me so they took the 50/50 shot that i'd be with a good, happy family..
huge tw for CSA details and infant CSA: apparently my adopted father and mother raped me the day they took me home from the hospital when i was only a week old. my father licked my parts and i always had a bad feeling about this in my body but i was too young to remember and almost everybody knew about this except me for so long but now i do, now i learned in my 20s what my pedophiles did.
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i always feel at home in the mountains or the country/rural areas honestly big cities typically aren't my thing but i know most of my friends from high school who didnt stay in this city went on to larger city life/night life type locations and i cant get with that but i miss them dearly. i have never felt more at home than in rural destinations.
im a little too obsessed with death
