i ain't ashamed to kill

Hola, i'm Calli, a nonbinary mexican parent. Both my partner and I are chronically ill, we're the main providers for our family of 9, that includes his mom, dad and sister because they lost everything in a fire back in November 2023. TW for the house after the fire.

We are poor and unemployed, all adults have some chronic condition, chronic pain and we live constantly exposed to mold, rust and other issues the house has. The landlord does jackshit but sure comes to collect rent every now and then.

To top it off i have been getting harrassed by racist unkind people here, making me suicidal.

My blog's archive proving i have been here since 2013, the first post i ever reblogged.

https://chingaderita.tumblr.com/archive/2013/5

I sometimes share recipes too!

I have been offering spanish conversation classes online for $12 usd/hr. Right now im earning $12 a week, do you think I can support a family of 9 with that?

**I tracked down comments in notes ive made through the years, as far as 2016, I did all that even before this new tumblr update showing our comments so I did all that hard work for nothing lol, you can ask for links in my dm's this is already long enough as is.**

Our goal is to get our eldest's a couple of binders, his testosterone and medication he needs for a condition he needs a surgery for but we can't afford.

$0/$500

PAYPAL KOFI THRONE

two days ago there was a bombing near al shifa hospital which resulted in @moxayesh 's wife farah getting hurt as well. as of now the doctors have not removed the bullet from her chest.

she is five months pregnant. i don't think i need to emphasize how terrifying this must be for her and for mohammed. they're newly weds who are expecting their first child; they should be celebrating, preparing for this wonderful new addition to their little family, and instead this is what has happened.

mohammed has done so much work as part of @gaza-evacuation-funds so that other families like his can raise the funds needed for their survival. he has not asked for anything in return but now he needs that help and support as well. just transportation to the hospital costs him and farah $70; public transport is not an option due to how much walking she would have to do while pregnant and injured.

mohammed has always been there for others who have needed him. let's not leave him alone in his time of need. please donate whatever you can spare so that we can do our part in easing his troubles. thank you.

I recently welcomed a new bundle of joy into my life as an infant family member was placed into my custody.

She’s a week from being four months and while the state will be helping us with monthly payments and WIC, because she’s only been in my custody for a short period of time it’ll be at least a week before I can use those services. It was also unexpected - I didn’t know she was born and even after they contacted me, it was a ping ponging situation. Then they’re asking if we’re available for placement within a week.

Suffice to say, we didn’t have a lot of time and resources to fully prepare. We have formula and diapers but they’re running low and I’d rather she not run out before I can use those services to help pay for her needs.

If you could send a few bucks so we can re-up our supply before her WIC appointment next week, that would be much appreciated. We are a queer multiracial couple and first time parents.

Thank you so much to this community, you’ve helped us so much over the years.

Karl Barx and baby Melusine

Cashapp: $PhoenixSinger

Venmo: writeswrongs

I'm here after a long break, due to many circumstances, it's been a very difficult period, guys.

I hope everyone is well and safe, I miss you, I am here now because I need you at this time, as you know, my family and I live in a house we have rented and at the beginning of every new month I collect the costs here with your help, so that I can pay the rent and maintain the shelter that shelters us all.

I've done it many times, and you guys haven't let me down, but honestly I don't get much attention lately, and that's why I'm not always active here, but I love you from the bottom of my heart. My family has always been fine thanks to you, please guys, we need you so much now.

I only need $700 so I can pay the rent and keep my family safe.

Any delay from the payment date will be kicked out on the street homeless, life is very, very difficult, I use you guys.

Payment date will be on 10/06/2026

I will not prolong much, this is the purpose of the publication, as for the circumstances I went through, I will not bother anyone here, whoever wanted that, I can write to him privately and reveal all the details, I was injured two days ago, and I hope to be fine in the coming days.

OCD makes you think you don’t actually have OCD. Like if the symptoms you were having were someone else’s yeah, you would call that OCD. But maybe you really did somehow accidentally join the American nazi party and forgot about it. Or maybe you really are the only person in the world who knows how to properly arrange the mugs cabinet. Sometimes you can think to yourself “yeah I have OCD” but when you’re in the throes of an obsession spiral, you can’t call it OCD. It feels completely real