✧ OBEY YOUR MASTER! ✧

kiina, on the verge of a mental breakdown: you got on the news, though? at least you were listened to. i live with the monsters that ruined my life and they just threw me away as if they’d never done anything! at least someone listened to YOU, i was doomed to a life of being a wall ornament from the start, you have no idea how i-

rosemary trying to subtly scroll through social media while they argue only to realize her headphones weren’t connected:

I'm thinking it's the paraphilia that he feels no one can accept? still there isn't a shortage of older shitty guys who wouldn't fetishize a barely legal person in the "real" world outside of the cult. so why exactly is crane so drawn to the hive? i get it w/jess and tammy, their shitty boyfriend and husband respectivily. i couldn't care less abt levi but with crane i did feel a little like a victim blamer bc there were moments where i wondered why he was going through this. obviously, it is self harm and self sabotage and obviously he does not deserve what happened to him and the people who are to blame are levi and the hive (and the government).

i just wish we had gotten more of the hive, even if it were through stagger. how do they know what they know? how do they make people feel safe? does everyone hear the same voice for the hive or is it different?

also also i was thinking abt how interesting a black crane or just a black mc in this environment would be. like a black mc w/a great family realizing that theyre trans and worrying about feeling accepted bc 'thats not something black people do' and that pushing them to join a cult which isolates them and they have to deal with the sunk cost fallacy of 'well i cut all of my family off so this does have to work out'. obviously there are many black families that are lovely and accepting of their queer family members but for the sake of the plot. idk i just want more queer black people

No yeah, Andrew didn’t even TRY to answer the question of what brought Crane to the hive. He literally admits that he had the ability to transition outside of the cult but just waves it off with “no one told me I could ask for help”. Nigga, WHAT? You’re right in that the paraphile shit is the only major problem he faces, and I get that that would be difficult to ask for help for, but his self-hatred problems seem to go beyond that, so I’m not even sure what the hell Andrew thought he was doing here. It’s not like Crane’s paraphiliac tendencies lead him to do anything genuinely illegal.