dear journal

Mood: frustrated and upset

Then I start to think...

That’s where it all starts; the rain, cloudy skies, the over analyzation, the hurt, the pain and then it appears... the self destruction button. 

Is it me? Am I the problem? 

Mood: undecided.

Publishing our first episode of CW&T with my friends. Had a meeting before doing so and it got weird. Felt as if I was being over baring and had possibly upset someone over my opinions and the way I had voice it.

Maybe I was too aggressive... idk. I really felt that I needed to distant myself and keep my opinions to myself -- that the conversation would be much better off. 

Three out of the four of us talked afterwards and I did feel better afterwards but there’s definitely still some underlying feelings.