#1 Catarina Loss Stan

first of all yes he’s acting like he’s all scared and in pain and trying to manipulate magnus and magnus can barely stand it - because this is already his worst nightmare, hurting the people he loves, being forced to hurt the people he loves, seeing fear in their eyes when they look at him, thinking of asmodeus, of the things he made him do, of the guilt, thinking that he brings doom to everyone he loves and adsiuhaiudhaihds. but magnus doesn’t yield because he keeps telling himself that this is also how he’s going to keep alexander safe. so he starts laying it in more thick, telling magnus that he’s always known it would come to this, that magnus is just like his father, that poor him, always hurting the people he loves, huh? when will he figure out that he has no choice, that he’ll always end up like this, mercilessly destroying lives, because it’s in his blood- 

and magnus keeps a straight face and his chin high but inside he’s absolutely fucking breaking and he has nightmares where it truly is alec and magnus is hurting him and dashdaiuhsdauh 

and every time this starts raphael (because of course the whole squad is there to help them figure out how to free alec and give magnus emotional support) just puts his hand on his shoulder all like “come on, magnus, i need to talk to you” but really he just wants to pull magnus away from the disgusting things “alec” is saying, and so he just brings him into a room and is like. “put up your wards and cry. it’s okay” and magnus kind of trembles like “i can’t break down right now” “then don’t, just vent for a while. i’m here” and magnus bites his lip and puts up the wards so no one can hear him and tells raphael that there’s always that voice in his head telling him that whoever is controlling alec is right, and he doesn’t know how to do this

and raphael listens to him and hugs him and holds his hand :) and magnus doesn’t break down because again, he can’t, can’t fall apart, but at least he’s allowing himself to feel a little bit and be taken care of, and you know. baby steps

also picturing that like controlled!alec refuses to eat or drink anything and magnus is terrified that he’s going to die if this stretches on too long, and he’s all noncomitally like “this spell is pretty powerful, you know? i can keep him going even after his body dies, can walk if his limbs break, can force him to go forward through anything. he can feel all the pain, too. he’s thirsty right now.” and magnus almost breaks 

(he knows how it feels, thirst and hunger, and being manipulated and used, he knows how much it hurts, and he can’t help thinking that he brought this on alec somehow-) 

and he throws himself 300x harder into trying to figure out how to undo this soon, and cat and raphael have to make him eat and drink water and sleep because he’s so focused, and magnus kind of doesn’t want to hear it, and “alec” is all smug like “you don’t want to have it if he can’t either, do you? how cute, you’re both going to wither and die together” and cat loses it and punches him, and he laughs 

doashdiuahdisua anyway they solve it eventually and alec kind of blinks and his eyes are hazel again and he’s just like “magnus. magnus, i’m so sorry” (and that’s how magnus knows it him, because of course alec apologizes for being mind controlled) and he hugs magnus and magnus kind of breaks down in his arms, finally, and alec is like “i’m sorry, i’m sorry, i wasn’t hurting, you did the right thing, it’s okay” and then they get a big bear hug with the whole squad (because everyone wants to feel alec too, make sure he’s real, izzy and madzie and even simon)